Afternoon all... hope you managed to get some antiemetics from the GP @sam433. Morning sickness is truly dreadful and it sounds like yours is quite severe xx
Today my bleeding is like a very light period. Physically I feel strong, healthy and no longer dizzy, sick or bloated. But I also feel a little empty. I think it's the hormone crash.
I'm wondering why I've done what I've done. I'm never usually a quitter and that's a little how I feel. I still don't feel drawn to the idea of having a new baby, but I do miss mine if that makes any sense at all. Hindsight is a wonderful thing and I will always wonder if I should have pressed ahead with what nature wanted.
Last week, I was sad and stressed, physically drained and also down about "starting again".
I wonder if I acted too hastily. Perhaps I should have had a scan before making a decision. I said I didn't want to do that, but really it would have helped me think of my little baby, rather than the idea of just a random baby.
Everything I put as a con on my lists was actually workable in real life.
I've got a meeting for another hour and then I'll go out for a wander. I feel confused, but not in turmoil.
I got a call earlier about a great new career opportunity. I've sent over my CV. It could work out really well. I'm thinking now of the positives of enjoying my current family... we're planning to go skiing for New Year, we're planning a Disney trip for next summer, our house renovation should be finishing in a couple of months. There's a lot to keep my mind busy.
Sending love and strength to anyone is this situation. It really is the most challenging and emotional experience xx