Abortion at home- petrified

[jellybeansandgin]

Hi, not really sure what I am hoping for by asking for help here. I am having a phone consultation with BPAS tomorrow to start a medical termination. I have been back and forth between keeping baby and having an abortion but ultimately we cannot have another and termination is the only option. I know everyone says it but I never thought I would be in this position. The guilt of the abortion, along with the panic and worry of the pain, bleeding of the abortion itself. I am an absolute wreck. Has anyone been through the medical abortion recently that could share how you got on? I know it will be emotional. I am more concerned about the physical side of things and how I will cope. Thank you xx

@ProfondoRosso I hope you've continued to feel ok! My bleeding seems to have become much lighter and my pain has subsided too. Ready for an early night though!

@GH9687 thank you and I hope you continue to feel better too I did have a bit more pain this evening but I think that was due to running about after the wee fella after resting on the couch all day. I was relieved to sit down in front of an episode of Line of Duty when he went to bed. Hope the worst is over for us both.

Och that’s a name change fail right there but I don’t really care...

@Anonymous354 I am glad you have been checked and are over the worst of it. I think the mental side of things are much worse than the physical. I had built it up to be this massive trauma and it just wasn’t like that at all. Xx

@GH9687 i am sorry you had to go through this too but I am glad it wasn’t as bad as you expected it to be. I am still shocked how common this is and definitely think there would be less worry and stress leading up to it if it was more openly talked about. The unknown leads to googling and horror stories xx

@ProfondoRosso I hope you’re doing ok. Sounds like you are over the worst of it now. Try and take it easy over the next few days. I have noticed a change on days where I have been mad busy to more relaxed days xx

Probably the final update from me. Just wanted to say thank you to everyone who held my hand during this. I was completely petrified beforehand. If anyone is looking for first hand experience and stumbles upon this thread I hope it calms you down and reassures you it will not be as bad as you think it will. I am now 1 week on from the first tablets. Still bleeding, some days heavier than others (usually on days where I have been really busy and running around here there and everywhere) have had virtually no pain since Monday (now Saturday) all pregnancy symptoms have stopped. No nausea, no sore boobs. In myself I feel fine. Haven’t had any regrets. I am sad for what could have been, but I know without question this was the right decision for me and my family. I feel more like me than I have done in weeks. My life was on hold going through all of this and I feel like I can finally breathe again. Xx