BFP after recent loss

[purplecolouroffunk]

Hello!

I know there are quite a few threads like this, but thought I’d start a new one for those of us going through this just now 🙂

I found out about my MMC at what should have been 7.5 weeks (no growth since 5). Had to have a D&C as my body wouldn’t let go. That was back in mid-April.

I’ve had one period since then and it now looks like I’m pregnant again! Can’t believe we’ve been so luckily to fall again so quickly.

Got a vfl yesterday at 10dpo and the line is a bit darker today at 11dpo. Pic attached has 11dpo at the top and 10dpo bottom. What a shock when I saw that line!

Anyway, I’m already feeling nervous about everything so I thought I’d make a space for people in a similar position to join. Maybe we can help to calm each others’ nerves a bit 💜

Honestly I feel so similar @Bubbles19818. I almost went to count the amount of us that have had good news to see what my odds are and then realised how stupid that is. I’m so fixated on the stats too. How far along are you for your scan tomorrow? We’ll get through it together 💜

Lolll on the pork pie-front. I’m veggie so defo not the one for me but it’s a funny idea that people crave them 😂 Oh no, more testing!

@purplecolouroffunk that’s exactly what my brain has been doing. I know it doesn’t make sense and it’s not logical, but I can’t help feeling this way. It’s the same with me obsessively googling miscarriage rates linked to DNA Frag (my husbands issue) and only seeing negative stories on line and letting that reinforce the outcome in this pregnancy. I know the internet is rubbish for giving a balanced view as you’re rarely on the internet if life hasn’t thrown you a curb ball, but urghhhhh this is hard! I’ll be 7 weeks on the dot tomorrow so feel like this will be telling. Last time I had a scan at 6+3 but it was measuring 3 days behind and a slow heartbeat. When we were rescanned at 8+1 it had grown to 6+3 but no heartbeat.

The odds really are in our favour and we need to remember that but I completely understand how you feel. I suppose it's self preservation.

@Lemonbalm8 yeah I think I’m gonna have a bit of a beige foods phase. Been craving buttery toast and yesterday just ate a sandwich and some plain biscuits 😩
If it gets bad then I’ll ask about medication when I have my booking appointment which I guess will be in 3 weeks or so, but hoping it doesn’t get worse!
My last (successful) pregnancy I was nauseous for a few weeks but only actually sick twice but this time I’ve felt nauseous for a week and been sick the last 3 days in a row so looking worse this time round😭

@Bubbles19818 I also work in food so it’s a hard one with all the smells etc isn’t it!?🤮

Also to everyone, sorry TMI but what kinda cervical mucus would we say is normal atm?
I’m 6 weeks now and up til now I’ve had EWCM everyday which I thought was slightly unusual, but the last few days I’ve had quite a lot of thick creamy CM…. Is it normal for it to change like this?! X

@Bubbles19818 can totally relate on the frantic Googling thing. I’ve had to stop myself several times. That week wait between my scans last time I swear I spent about 90% of my time just Googling shit and looking for success stories. It’s so sad looking back.

You're totally right about the internet not being a positive place too, we only tend to see bad things and then read into that. So hard to stay hopeful when you’ve experienced loss though.

You’re two days ahead of me 🙂 I was very similar - scan at 6+3 and I was measuring 5 weeks and then nothing had grown the following week. Have everything crossed that everything is okay for us both tomorrow 💜 What time is your scan?

@jellyfish2 self preservation is exactly the term!

@Mommabear96 I’ve had a mix of these two things too! Sometimes quite a lot of almost EWCM but other days thick and creamy or almost like a combo of both. I have no idea what ‘normal’ would be (I’m 6+4) but I seem to be having more than I did with my MMC.

@purplecolouroffunk we just need to stay positive! It’s so nice having you all here to chat to as even though my husband gets it, I’m not sure he fully understands the extent of the anxiety so it’s nice to chat to people who relate.

@Mommabear96 im having a fair amount of creamy watery. In my successful pregnancy I had so much watery that I was wearing pads. It was so bad that when my waters went I couldn’t tell if it was just another gush of CM or if it was my waters 😂😖

@purplecolouroffunk I’m not sure what time my scan will be. My local EPU is self referral & walk in and they will scan you if you’ve had a miscarriage. Planning on showing up first thing and hoping to be seen before 9.30am. Want to get it out of the way so I can get on with my day, I’m not very good at the waiting around bit.

I've been quiet on here but reading all the posts. Congratulations to you all on the amazing scans, so happy for you all!!

I've got my scan tomorrow at 11am at the recurrent miscarriage clinic and I'm so scared. I only ever get bad news at scans so why would this one be different? After 4 miscarriages it's impossible to think this may be our turn. I'll be 7 weeks tomorrow and I know exactly when I ovulated so if they say there's nothing there come back in a week I'll know it's going to be another blighted ovum.

My symptoms have been coming and going which is freaking me out. When I had a MMC my symptoms disappeared but then with the blighted ovum I had the worst sickness ever!

I had a dream last night that a girl came into my work miscarrying and I took her upstairs and she birthed this tiny little baby in front of me in the toilets - my fears are going into my dreams !! (Nightmares)

@torturedpoet13 oh I’m sorry you’re feeling anxious. It’s completely understandable. It’s almost impossible to feel like history won’t repeat itself, especially as you’ve had multiple losses.

I read a thing the other day that helped me a bit. It said if we spend our time worrying that we’ll get bad news, we’ll just have suffered twice if we do get bad news, when there’s plenty of time to suffer after the news. If we don’t get bad news, then we’ll have suffered for no reason.

I know it’s not as black and white as that but it weirdly helped me with the logicalness of it or something.

My scan is at exactly the same time tomorrow. I’m sending you all the good vibes in the world 💜

@torturedpoet13 @purplecolouroffunk hope your scans go well tomorrow 🩷

Good luck with your scans today @purplecolouroffunk @Bubbles19818 @torturedpoet13 We’re gonna have 3 lots of good news later I just know it!

@purplecolouroffunk @torturedpoet13 @Bubbles19818 all the best for today ladies. Thinking of you all ❤️ xx

Morning, I’ve had 3 losses and this is my fourth pregnancy, I have a scan next Friday where I hopeful be will 9 weeks and a couple of days. I’m getting very close to the time where I went for my last scan and then told me out baby had passed away at 8 weeks 4 days. I am having no bleeding or pains etc, but I just know how common missed miscarriages are and the scan will be the same day time and weeks as when they told me our baby had passed away, I am getting all anxious and feel like booking a private scan to tell me now, but part of me wants to wait until my scan but what if it’s the same outcome and I think I am pregnant but the foetus has already passed. Why is this whole process just so difficult, I hate that there’s no answers

Hi @Rockyslife it's a really difficult time isn't it. I hope you have support at home/work, and no matter what happens, try to remember you will always have options to try. Have you done much testing at all? Are you under the recurrent miscarriage clinic? Have you had any scans in this pregnancy?
I've also had 3 losses. Today I am absolutely convinced baby is not ok, I've had zero symptoms for 4 days. I have my scan end of next week and I keep thinking what I need to do next when they give the bad news. I am still calm in the sense that I can function, cook, work, do things around the house, just because I know if baby is not ok, there was likely something wrong like an abnormality, and there is nothing I could have done more. But I'm slowly descending into madness, there are pockets in the day when I'm quite sad and angry. I'm also quite angry and upset why on earth I'm feeling like this and why I'm the one who has to go through 3 and maybe 4 MCs. The odds are just not on my side. I have a tiny hope though as this is the pregnancy that has the best lines, best scans and there is a chance I'll get there 😢😩

@Lemonbalm8 Thank you for your reply, I feel like getting to previous milestones are massive triggers, I don't have a reason to feel like this as touch wood I haven't had anything panic me like spotting, or cramping etc, but like you I don't have crazy symptoms apart from large breasts and tired, but that could all just be in my head. I have the option to pay for a private scan if I wanted too, I am not sure whether this will help the panic and then I will be able to hold off for another week, but then I also do not want to ruin it for myself. EPU are really looking after me, they booked me a scan in for last week where they say a heart beat and dated it 7 weeks 1 day, and then rebooked me in for another in two weeks which will be next Friday. I guess what will be will be, as you said if the baby passes away again, it'll be because it wasn't quite right. Our last loss was tested and has triploidy which was a severe chromosomal issue. I haven't tested because that doesn't really help me in anyway as even the last times after I lost the babies I tested positive for 3 weeks after. How many weeks are you and have EPU been helpful?

Our little bean measuring 6+5 ❤️ I thought I was 7 weeks so 2 days out is okay right?

Can't believe it .. we saw the heartbeat and the doctor was lovely. We're booked back in when I'm 10 weeks ❤️🫶🏻🌈

@torturedpoet13 wonderful news! So happy for you ❤️🌈xxx

That's great @torturedpoet13!

@torturedpoet13 oh wow, such a lovely scan with the little one! You've put a smile on my face this morning. I hope all carries on ok. X

Hi lovely,
I'm 7+1 and indeed EPU scanned me last Friday at 6+2. I was scanned quite last minute as I'd only gone in to pick up my medications and they said they'll check before I continue just to be sure it's in the right place. I had my initial scan this week but cancelled it once I had that last minute scan. They've kindly booked another next week and then hopefully one at 10 weeks (though they weren't sure). EPU indeed have been so helpful (this time around, not so much last 3 times), but although I'm now past the points I miscarried, I am surprised by own anxiety creeping up. I thought I'd be ok, but I think the trauma of so many MCs and not having symptoms is getting to me.
I think it is really good news that last week you got some reassurance. For sure, this is the most stressful time, and hopefully in few weeks when we are past 12 weeks (I still can't believe this will happen for me), we can relax just a bit as it can't be good to have this much anxiety. I'm usually quite a calm person, and I can't believe the thoughts I have these days. Lots of love your way

@Bubbles19818 @purplecolouroffunk hope you're doing ok this morning 💚

I just realised my name is in the photo 🤣

Thank you everyone 🌈❤️