BFP after recent loss

[purplecolouroffunk]

Hello!

I know there are quite a few threads like this, but thought I’d start a new one for those of us going through this just now 🙂

I found out about my MMC at what should have been 7.5 weeks (no growth since 5). Had to have a D&C as my body wouldn’t let go. That was back in mid-April.

I’ve had one period since then and it now looks like I’m pregnant again! Can’t believe we’ve been so luckily to fall again so quickly.

Got a vfl yesterday at 10dpo and the line is a bit darker today at 11dpo. Pic attached has 11dpo at the top and 10dpo bottom. What a shock when I saw that line!

Anyway, I’m already feeling nervous about everything so I thought I’d make a space for people in a similar position to join. Maybe we can help to calm each others’ nerves a bit 💜

@CosmicLove The most recent is definitely the darkest! Looks promising 🤞 Yours is looking great too @purplecolouroffunk

@MrsB2019x thank you! Feeling more reassured 😅 I've never tracked line progression before xx

Oh yes this is definitely looking darker! It’s funny how that’s a thing. But I really think that’s looking good for you. Has it settled your mind a little bit for now? 💜

@purplecolouroffunk it has a bit yes thank you 🙏 I was convinced this morning it would end in a chemical. Just have to stay positive. I've ordered some more strips on Amazon and 2 CB digital so will maybe do a strip each day till Monday and if still no af / lines looking good, I'll do a digital on Monday. I don't think I'll be able to fully settle throughout this process at all! 😬

@CosmicLove I'm glad you’re feeling a bit better. I think that sounds like a good plan, and what I’ll do too I think.

I know, I’m really worried about that too. I already feel so conflicted. Like I want to be excited but part of me is like ‘well, here we go again’. I miss the bliss of not really knowing or expecting that anything would go wrong. My partner is really guarded about it too.

Pregnancy loss really does just rob you of any joy doesn’t it. We should all be giddy with excitement instead we’re left with crippling anxiety instead 🙄 My husband is the same @purplecolouroffunk he’s not letting himself get excited at all, he’s not even really talking about it at the moment either

@MrsB2019x totally! And then when I do start to feel a bit excited about it I almost have to tell myself not to ‘just in case’. And when speaking to DP about it prefacing things by saying ‘if it all works out….’. Its horrible!

We’re seeing my parents next weekend and think we’ll tell them. But it’s scary! Last time we told them they were SO excited. I’m an only child and they’re dying to be grandparents. ‘Hey, I’m pregnant…again’ just doesn’t hit the same 😞

@CosmicLove thats definately a darker line xx

Thank you ❤️🙏

Hello, thank you for the invite to the thread @purplecolouroffunk

I've been laying very low since my recent BPF. I've been struggling a lot with my mental health. I was quite traumatised by my last loss and didn't think I'd get pregnant again for a long time, so it's all been a shock. I'm grateful, but also very, very scared and feeling like I'm not ready to move on so quickly at the same time. All a bit of a feelings vortex when you add hormones into it.

Lovely to see all the BFPs here and have a little space to hand hold. Wishing everyone well ❤️

I suppose I should mosey in and acknowledge somewhere outside of my own head that I am, at least at the moment, pregnant...

My loss history is a bit complicated (and probably isn't terribly reassuring, so skip it if reading about things going really badly is going to freak you out) but basically with my own eggs I've had one chemical and one MMC (finally miscarried at the 10.5 week mark but I'd known since a scan at 7 weeks that it was going to happen). I then switched to donor eggs and eventually (I'm skipping a lot of unsuccessful cycles) had my son. Then most recently I had another embryo from that same donor egg cycle transferred, got pregnant, but had a miscarriage in November at 12+6, two days after my 12 week scan was all fine (I did tell you this was not a reassuring saga, sorry).

So anyway I had another transfer just over a week ago, I'm not at my otd yet but as the inveterate pee-er on sticks that I am I've known since Monday that I'm currently testing positive. (To my massive suprise! That batch of embryos seriously was like a bag of magic beans!) Not remotely confident about it because I am basically Captain Miscarriage, but that's where I am for now...

Hi @KittyFantastica! So nice to see you here - I remember you from some threads back a couple of months ago.

I’m so sorry to hear about the hard time you’ve been going through since your loss. I’m with you on feeling scared. It’s so hard to think that history won’t just repeat itself isn’t it? So happy that you’ve fallen again so quickly but yes that must have been a shock if you weren’t expecting it to happen so quickly.

The feelings are a minefield aren’t they? I don’t quite know what to think or feel and the hormones don’t help either.

When did you get your BFP this time round?

Nice to see you both over here @KittyFantastica @Persipan , and sorry for both of your losses 😔

Has anyone tested again this morning? Here’s mine. Definitely looking darker than yesterday which is making me feel a bit more reassured. The spotting is carrying on though which brings me a bit more back down to earth 😅

Anyone else got tests to share today?

Hi Persipan! I’m so sorry to hear about your losses - I can’t imagine how tough a late loss like that would be.

Congratulations on your new pregnancy! It does sound like that batch of eggs are magic 😊 It’s so hard to remain sort of positive but also wary at the same time isn’t it? A minefield.

So happy to have you here. Hopefully we can all support each other through these anxious days 💜

I tested again this morning but forgot to take a pic before we left the house. We’re off to London this weekend so hopefully that’ll be a nice distraction! Line was looking stronger again so that’s good 😊

Your line is looking great! How many dpo are you now?

I don’t know why, but today I’m really panicking about an ectopic pregnancy. I had these fears last time too.

Would I have an inkling at this point if that’s something that might happen? Or does it just sort of come out of nowhere at a scan? 😞

Also @MrsB2019x I feel ya on the spotting. I had spotting from about 4dpo to 10dpo and now it seems to have mainly stopped. Not sure why I had it or why it stopped! I aaalways have luteal spotting from around 7dpo so not unusual for me.

I’m hoping my body has realised what’s going on and that the spotting won’t come back!

When did yours start?

@purplecolouroffunk I had an ectopic and it was the most painful experience I’ve ever had in my life. It felt like someone had their thumb where my ovary is and was pressing all their weight onto it. My early contractions with DD were more enjoyable!! (I did have an epidural at 4cm though so can’t speak for the rest of it lol). It was diagnosed before 5 weeks so it was evident really early on.

My spotting started on Tuesday at 13dpo and it’s still going, I did have implantation bleeding with DD but it was pink and only lasted an evening 🤷🏻‍♀️

Hi Ladies,

This seems like a lovely thread and as good as place as any to acknowledge my new pregnancy, although after loss acknowledging it is the last thing I want to do which is ironic given I’ve been desp to fall pregnant again after my miscarriage. I tested a very faint positive last Sunday evening at 10dpo and have been obsessively peeing on sticks ever since.

My history is one MMC in February (found at 8 week scan, but baby had stopped growing shortly after 6) which I needed a MVA for. I do have a little boy who is 21 months and the light of my life - his was a totally uncomplicated and easy pregnancy so the miscarriage totally blindsided me. I obviously knew the stats, but I guess you think it’s never going to happen to you! Since the MMC we’ve had a few tests (I’m a control freak) and it turns out my husband has MFI which increases our chances of miscarriage quite a bit so I am trying hard to not spiral. That mixed in with my age (36) and it just feels a bit like an inevitability at this point 😖

Cracked and booked myself an HCG blood draw last night as really don’t feel like my lines are progressing well and keep seeing people getting dye stealers by 14/15 days, even on internet cheapies.

Hi @Bubbles19818 congratulations on your new pregnancy. I think your line progression looks great.

can I ask, how do you arrange blood draw and what does it show? Is it private? X

@MrsB2019x god that sounds awful - I’m so sorry you had to go through that.

Did you have strongish tests before you found out it was an ectopic pregnancy? And could you feel pain quite quickly? I’m not sure why I feel so paranoid about it.

Spotting can definitely be very normal, but I totally understand your fear around it.

Hi @Bubbles19818! I’m so sorry to read your story. It is totally something you feel like happens to other people and not to you.

Congrats on your new pregnancy! I think your lines look great too 🙂 Good idea on the blood draw though if it’ll settle your nerves a bit 💜

My 12dpo test looks very similar to your 12dpo. Pic has 10, 11, 12dpo from bottom to top. 13dpo today and line was a little stronger again 😊

Hi @Bubbles19818 so sorry to read of your loss. I just wanted to say I feel exactly the same at the moment about my recent positive after two losses. I was overjoyed at first, but in the following week I had some really terrible delayed grief outbursts and some very scary intrusive thoughts. I'm struggling to acknowledge the new pregnancy now too. I've booked in with a therapist to try and get some help with the overwhelming feelings.

I think your line progression on those tests looks great though! I always found the easy@home stayed much lighter than my other cheapies!

Hi ladies, firstly welcome to those who have joined. It's great that we can all empathise with each other but still sad reading everyone's stories. Sending positivity to everyone ✨

Unfortunately I think things aren't going the right way for me. Af due today and I began light spotting last night which has continued throughout the day. I'm hanging onto the thought that af would usually be in full flow for me by now (24 hours on) and it's still super light spotting, but this is only my second period since MC so it may just be slightly different because of that. I'm having most of the heavy / crampy feelings I would normally have low in my uterus during af so I think it's likely been a chemical for me. I did a test this afternoon and line was similar or very slightly darker than yesterday but certainly not a dye stealer.

I will keep waiting to see how spotting progresses and until it feels like a proper period, I'll keep testing. But I don't have a good feeling about my outcome sadly 😔