Hello lovelies! I'm 6w6d and due 21st October :) May I please come and play too? I also need a little support right now, if you don't mind me asking...
I'm nervous as hell. I've my second U/S tomorrow. I'm 43, and my hcg numbers have been slow rising.
I had a scan last week at 5w6d showing a perfect little fetal pole measuring only a day out (new date is adjusted for that now!).. AND a HEARTBEAT - neither of which we were expecting after the hcg numbers rose so slowly - it was amazing!
It's possible there was a vanishing twin (the sonographer pointed out an area which may have been another GS) which could account for some of the hcg slowness. That could also account for the dark brown watery spotting I've had the last day or so... but my boobs are slightly less sore :( I'm SO NERVOUS for my scan tomorrow.
I'm so scared little ottapup won't have grown, or will no longer have a heartbeat, or both, and the hcg will be proven right.
I'm so scared that even if little ottapup does seem to be absolutely on schedule and fine and strong... that I'll still feel this way next week, all week, until the next scan! And the next.. etc etc.
Things I'm using to feel better inthe meantime - I know hcg should be ignored once a normal ultra with heartbeat is recorded... and doubling hcg isn't a shoe-in for a healthy preggles anyway... and even though it didn't rocket up, it's still within the normal range for the GA... and there was a strong little heartbeat (although I don't know the rate), and growth was just fine too.
BUT FUUUUUUCK.
So I'm here! I'm naming my place in October, and I'm going to work all day today at staying chilled out, focused on what I DO want and not on what I don't, and try to surrender it all