Hello ladies,
Was told about this thread by @SunStruck and definitely want to join you all as I’m also dreaming of rainbows. I’m now pregnant for the fourth time in 16 months.
Firstly, I am so sorry for all of your losses. The miscarriage club and the recurrent miscarriage club are the worst ones to be a part of.
My story...
My husband and I fell pregnant soon after first trying, in Oct 2018, and we were delighted. At around 9 weeks, I wanted to go for an early scan as I didn’t feel many symptoms and wanted reassurance. At the scan, the sonographer said baby was only measuring 6+3 and they couldn’t pick up a heartbeat. They asked us to return a week later and, after what felt like the longest week in the world, they confirmed no growth and no heartbeat. We were devastated. I chose to take the tablets in hospital a few days later and passed our tiny baby.
We fell pregnant again in March 2019 and felt hopeful as everyone said it was likely a one off the first time. A week and a half after finding out, I had a period-like cramp and a small amount of red blood when wiping. Panicking, I called the early pregnancy unit who asked me to go in the following day for a scan. Unfortunately, there was nothing to see on the scan, I had ‘reabsorbed’ the tissue. Again, we were devastated, although thankful I didn’t need hospital treatment.
We fell pregnant again in August 2019 and this time felt very different. I had lots of pregnancy symptoms, morning sickness especially, and was really pleased. We were booked in for an early scan due to our previous miscarriages and, like all of you, was dreading it. Scans had only ever brought us bad news. This one wasn’t much better. They found a baby and a ‘weak’ heartbeat. They wanted us to return a week later, again. We prepared ourselves for the worst at the next scan but they could still pick up a ‘faint’ heartbeat. We were asked to go back a week later. Living life week to week, scan to scan was so hard. Trying to prepare for the worst whilst always having some hope that there will be a miracle and your baby will be ok. The next scan showed no heartbeat. Three miscarriages in a row - broken doesn’t even begin to describe it. I was again given tablets in hospital but they didn’t work. We tried a second round and still nothing so I ended up getting surgery. We left the hospital feeling broken, devastated and with the heaviest of hearts.
We were referred to the recurrent miscarriage clinic and tissue from the third baby was tested but all came back clear so offered us little comfort or explanation about why this was happening.
I’m now pregnant for the fourth time and very anxious. I’m taking progesterone pessaries twice per day and 75mg of aspirin. We had a scan a week and a half ago; baby was measuring at 7 weeks and we saw a very strong heartbeat. It was a very emotional moment and the furthest we’ve ever gotten. Our next scan is on Friday and I’m absolutely terrified we’re going to get bad news again. I’m normally a fairly calm and confident person but I can’t stop over-analysing every symptom (e.g. if I wake up at 5am needing to pee when it’s been 4am other nights, do my boobs feel as sore as they have, is my nausea still as bad today?), even though symptoms made no difference to us last time, and I’m driving myself mad! Keep having mini panic attacks thinking about the scan and really struggling to focus at work. It’s nice to find people that are feeling the same way and understand.
Anyone else got a scan in the next few days?