Staying posifrickentive- Thread 9 for ladies pg after mc

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Right that wasn't so hard! Let's hope everyone finds us still

Evening all, sorry to hear about all the upsetting dreams. Wishing everyone a more peaceful night.

Did you manage to get through the day without fessing up to your mum Mac?

Sorry you have joined the sick bus whatser, tis horrid. I've perked up a bit since about 3pm, thank god, the stretch from about 10pm last night til 11am this morning can only be described as an endurance test. Just awful. It felt like the world was swimming and even speaking escalated the nausea from dreadful to totally unbearable. Bless her, DD sat next to me lying in the bed for 4 hours this morning playing and occasionally cuddling me and saying "it's ok mummy, don't cry" when it got a bit much She and DH have just left to go and stay at PILs until tomorrow evening so hopefully she'll get a bit of fun & fresh air. Poor love had a wobble as they left and was crying because she's only been away from me overnight a couple of times and usually she sleeps with me. I shall miss my little hot water bottle tonight.

Ice cubes and lemon ice lollies and Sainsburys TTD choc chip shortbread are sustaining me at the moment.

Saw my MW today and flopped on her couch thing for the appointment. She's ever so lovely and looked after me last time. She's sorted my consultant referral which is good. BP a bit low and apparently my BMI is too low for them to be entirely happy. Fat lot I can do about it for now though. I think I might need to ask for some anti nausea medication though if tomorrow is anything like today. I haven't a hope in hell of doing the school runs next week otherwise.

Lovely to have some check ins from half way through

Terrified about tomorrow. I'm convinced it's bad news and almost don't want to go. I hope she doesn't want to do a scan internally as I've now got thrush so that'll be uncomfortable! I had my ovaries scanned once when I had thrush and the lady said"I can't get it in!"

oooch to the thrush! Will be thinking of you tomorrow chelle, fingers crossed Should be fine externally scanning by 8+ weeks I would have thought - esp if you fill your bladder up for them.

Will be thinking of you tomorrow chelle.

I managed it butterfly! How she didn't know by my constant trips to the loo, need to sit down to eat to stop feeling sick and nearly bursting in to tears when she bought me some new clothes I don't know!

Thinking of you Chelle everything crossed!

Last day at work today, I can't beleive it- all very surreal!

Really thinking of you Chelle

Thinking of you Chelle, fingers crossed.

So.... Apparently the baby is still there!! It's caught up on its dates so that's really good news! It was amazing to hear the heartbeat!

Fabulous news Chelle!

Brilliant news chelle

Brilliant x

Wonderful news, happy for you!

Great news chelle must be such a relief!! now time to enjoy ☺️

You'll be in second trimester before you know it macauley!!

Aww brilliant Chelle!! Congratulations!!!

I didn't think I'd get good news today and am so relieved that everything was ok. She said my chances of mc are now down to about 3%. I never thought this would happen!

So pleased for you chelle, that was worth every penny I bet!

Whilst I still feel absolutely dreadful, weak and dehydrated, on the brightside my GP has prescribed me drugs to try and reduce the nausea. My friend is going to go and get them for me. I nearly cried with relief when the GP said he was writing a prescription. Lovely man

I hope the medication has some positive effects on your symptoms Butterfly. It sounds like you've really been suffering .

I feel almost like I've cheated somehow, especially now at 14 weeks, my symptoms are negligible and some days (other than being about a stone heavier than usual due to the interminable eating of the early days) I could convince myself I wasn't pregnant. I am telling myself this is normal - placenta taking over, etc - and that I am one of the fortunate ones who doesn't seem to be suffering too much. I am still tired and I suppose I can only blame the pregnancy for the ridiculous need to wake up at dawn to use the loo. Trying to figure out if I have a discernible bump yet. Lily, you're due around the same time as me, can you see anything yet?

We are nearing the end of our week of 'telling people'. Still haven't got to my family, but the order has been determined by who we will see when rather than anything else. I have been overwhelmed by the positivity so far. I suppose that is the natural reaction! I guess my surprise is down to a combination of our circle of friends not being much inclined to baby making and my inherent worries about the whole thing. No-one, baring one close friend, knows about my previous loss, so I suppose that's another factor. We're seeing my sister & her husband tonight and my parents tomorrow... Even saying the words out loud still feels wrong to me, like I'm some kind of imposter who will eventually be outed as not really pregnant. Ridiculous, I know!

Wishing good weekends for everybody! x

Lol Mike, 38 weeks, going on mat leave and a huge bump and STILL feel like an imposter!!

Really?? That makes me feel a bit less crazy. Thank you! When is your due date?

Yes, truly. And no- one else understands me feeling that way. Due 20th June and was standing in front of the mirror this morning saying to DH that I don't feel pregnant and my bump looks smaller he was like !!

Well, I do East! Good luck for these last few weeks. I hope you get a chance to relax. I suppose when your baby is here, the imposter-feeling will go away.