Hi ladies, can I join please? 
Dh & I found out I was pregnant for the first time in June of this year, after 2yrs of TTC. Unfortunately, I had a mc in July (just before 12wks).
We decided to carry on trying, after waiting for my first period as advised by doctors, as it had taken so long to conceive the first time.
My October period was a bit odd, not really bleeding more brown discharge (sorry for tmi!) but I convinced myself that I wasn't pregnant because I would "know"...November period didn't show up and had been feeling very tired/nauseous but still convinced myself I didn't need to take a test...however, after an embarrassing bout of sickness in the middle of london (in full view of a crowdful of people
), I took a test yesterday and I'm pregnant!
I'm thrilled but at the same time terrified that I'm going to have another mc (which I think is why I was so reluctant to take a test!)...since the test, I'm now convinced that every time I go to the toilet, I will be bleeding. And now, because I was such a scaredy-cat, I don't even know how far gone I am because I'm not sure if October period was a period or implantation.
I'm sure that I can't be the only one who feels like this but just wanted to know if it gets easier once you reach the point of the previous miscarriage? I feel bad because I just think that there's no way I'm going to be able to enjoy the pregnancy as I'm just going to wait for the miscarriage to happen, and then I feel guilty because I know that other people are in much worse situation than me...so many emotions going on at the moment!