Hello everyone. I have had a particularly anxious day today and decided it would probably do me good to join this thread to get some support whilst I am going mad with anxiety. Cloud and I are old friends from the 40+ ttc thread.
I am 6+1 today and bricking it because I didn't have much in the way of symptoms all day. Finally, tonight, my breast tenderness has returned and I feel a bit nauseous, but not as bad as previously. I have had four losses in the last 4 years and as I am 48 years old I am aware that my chances of miscarrying again are high.
I had my first mmc at 10 weeks (on Christmas day would you believe, after we'd announce our pregnancy to our children), I had an erpc as the baby had died at 8 weeks. 6 months later I had another mmc at 9 weeks, again, baby had died at 8 weeks, had another erpc. Then I had a chemical (lost at 4+3) in 2012 and another chemical at 5 weeks last year.
This time feels like a stronger start. With the chemicals/early losses I never had strong bfp's, but this time I have.
I am so bloody anxious, I have no idea how to get through the first trimester. I keep telling myself that I have no control over it at all, there's not much I can do, so I just need to try and relax and take each day as it comes. But today was hard, after having pretty good symptoms til now, then waking up with almost no breast tenderness and not much of the metallic yucky taste in my mouth.
I have a drs appointment when I am 6+6. She has cared for me with each miscarriage and has been great. I know she'll order reassurance scans for me,and I plan to have one near 8 weeks if possible. The trouble is, I did have good scans with the first two miscarriages and was told the chances of miscarriage was slim after the good scans (I can't remember exactly, but they were around 7-8 weeks), so I am not sure how reassuring they will be.
It is lovely to read on this thread of the babies being born. I really hope I will be one of the success stories too. 