Pregnancy post mc: Totally's grads part 9

[bigmacandhappymeal]

New thread!

Aw, cep tis lovely when your DH finally gets to feel the baby - makes it more real somehow I think.

Dachs Massive hoorah for the follies and rest assured I've got the goats lined up for Monday morning

coco you may be right about standing on my head not working. Hadn't really thought that one through Brian at work, clearly...

Mr Boots has hidden my 500g dairy milk bar and refuses to tell me where he has put it. He has actually told me where he put it once but I have forgotten (which is very unlike me) and now he won't tell me again as he finds this amusing. AIBU to beat him to death with his own dirty socks?

def not unreasonable, but not sure socks would do the trick. unless said socks contain a brick.

I've not actually washed them yet... will do it today!
I'm going to be handed a baby in approximately 2 weeks so the jinx pixies can fook right orf, I need to get organised!
Dachs Finkin' of you and your sooper dooper mega monster follies.
Hope everyone is well.....

Just quick pop in from freak out room had 12 scan this week all good am13+5.

may lurk alittle while longer.
Leaves pancakes and bacon as gift.

Lots of nice news to read this morning...

Dachs great news about your follies - I too am a bit bereft of livestock but will think of some kind of replacement during the day

purpletoes that's great news - look forward to seeing you in here very soon

cep excellent re DH feeling the bump - I am :)

Fat stories - i'm unsure of actual weight gain because I haven't been weighed since booking in. However, as of this week my metal watch strap is too tight and I would estimate at least a stone has been added - mainly on my arse which, to be honest, didn't need any additional help. You are not alone :)

Really struggling with sleep at the moment - need to get some kind of extra padding for my mattress I think as I'm finding it uncomfortable not to be able to fidget like I used to.

Went to a BBQ last night and met some people who were so lovely about the PG. So often I am irritated by people chiming in with their POV or saying things that make you feel bitter because of naiviety etc (hope I am not alone in that :) ) - they were just so chilled, had lovely advice that was helpful and made me feel excited about it all. A good thing. And I stayed up until midnight!!

How's it going owl?

Going nowhere, Maccer

Also, have horrible feeling also that if/when waters break, I may think it is just PelvicFloorFail as have not done bloody exercises for ages and now I find that tis v.difficult due to Owlet being so low down he feels like he might fall out. Ladies; do not neglect thy undercarriage. That's all I'm saying

owl just read your post and I am clenching already!

Stupid bookface - am sitting here bawling my eyes out coz I was on a friends page and it had "photos of you and friend" which were from a party I was at last May when I was pg last time about a week before the scan of doom. :( :(

Velvet honey, hoooouge squishes for you, and shakes fist at Stoopid bookface.

Purpletoes fab news about the scan

Hello everyone, does anyone remember me? I was on the pg after mc thread for a while. Hope everyone is doing ok, I don't think I'll be able to catch up on what I've missed it has been such a lot.

Owl, you do need to nag me to do my pelvic floor exercises, I've been neglecting to this pregnancy. They're not as strong as they were last time.

Bigmac, I'm struggling to sleep too so I know how you feel. I'm propped up on so many pillows but I still need to turn over all the time. My legs and back and hips ache. I got a wedge pillow for under my bump and its slightly better. It still seems like I only get a light sleep as I'm waking up to turn over all the time

WElcome back irene - wondered where you had been hiding..... glad all ok despite lack of sleep.

Come on owlet - surely it's time to say hello to the big wide world. Hope you and mrowl are hanging in there owl and how dare he hide your chocolate at this time - is he mad?!

Dachs - I have a camel here to sacrifice - might have to pass on the naked dancing, especially being Ramadan I could get into all sorts of trouble....!

Very impressed with your elevated status cocunuts and it is a very useful thread indeed - I have bookmarked it for full consultation nearer the time.

Great news on the scan purple - clearly owl is otherwise occupied otherwise you'd never have escaped her stapler. I am taking action and using superglue for you instead.

Thanks for your continued kind thoughts about our pooch Suki. I am very, very to let you know though that we had to make the v difficult decision yesterday to have her put to sleep. The vet had run some blood tests as they were concerned about her kidney / bladder function and after receiving the alarming results that the enzymes were 10 times what they should be, he did a further x-ray that revealed her bladder had ruptured and become detached and there really wasn't much choice but to end her suffering. The vet was wonderful and it was very quick and seemingly painless for Suki but suffice to say that DH and I were extremely upset. I'm glad we were with her at the end, but boy it was hard. Too sad to post last night. Feeling pretty cut up today but decided to go for work as a bit of a distraction which did help. It's at quiet times like now that it's hardest.....

Sorry to bring a downer to this post and hope everyone has had a lovely weekend.

oh wiw I'm so sorry about Suki I know how devastated you must be. My thoughts are with you.

wiw so so sorry to hear about Suki :(

Biiiiiiig hello to irene and purple!!

owly I drove past a car today with a sticker for 'owlet cars' - I thought that maybe it's a good omen???????

My house is now officially full of baby stuff - we have moses basket, baby bath, beauuuuutiful cardies that my mum and nan have knitted etc. etc. the list goes on and on. This also resulted in a big sobbing meltdown with my mum today while I explained that it's lovely but I am still so so so scared I'm going to end up with a house full of baby stuff and no baby at the end :( Mummy hugs definitely made it better though.

dachs I'll be thinking of you and keeping everything crossed for you tomorrow morning

coconuts your bag thread is fab, has given me lots of ideas of stuff that i would have forgotten otherwise. Having to bring disinfectant wipes is just plain though - understand that maybe it's not as easy as normal to clean the loo after as it would normally be, so why on earth are there not more cleaners at the hospital? It is just vile.

Thanks pink The baby stuff sounds fab. Sorry you had a meltdown, but glad mummy hugs helped :)

hey pinkster big huggle, but me and you are cooking up two lovelies, all will be well... xxx

Dachs, I've got no animals to sacrifice for you, unless you count the hundreds of hover flies that seem to have got into our conservatory. Good luck tomorrow.

WIW, sorry to hear about Suki, such sad news.

During my second trimester I kind of lost count of my weeks, I think I'm now about 28 or 29. I've bought nothing for baby, all I have are one or two of DS's old sleepsuits, the moses basket I had when I was a baby and a pack of vests SIL bought from M&S. I'm not in the mood to gather stuff. Anyone else like this or should I be planning and buying? Can't remember last time, can't even remember when I organised tens hire.

Pink I still feel like that now - the nursery door has all the stuff in it and I don't go in there unless I have to. Hope you're feeling better today; the stuff sounds ace and you WILL be using it all very soon x

Velvet effing bookface. I detagged myself in all the photos people had taken of me as soon as they brought that thing in!

Welcome back Irene :)

WIW am so sorry to hear about your doggie :(

Dachs hope all goes very well indeed today, you are in my thoughts x

Purpletoes hello there, you lurk as long as you wish - stick yourself on the list when you feel brave enough :)

No news from the Owl household this morning. Have been having branstons for about 48 hours but all they have done is make me more anxious and not actually kicked anything off. Am off for second rummage with MW at some point today, I think. Yay, rummage. Hope it's one of the lovely MWs and not the one slightly evil one.

Dachs good luck for today

owl let's hope owlet gets the message after being disturbed for the second time!

oh and Irene you are a few days ahead of me I think and I haven't been buying either although this is my first so I don't have anything from previous children to rely on either! We have nursery furniture and 3 dresses (bought by other people) and that's it. I'm going to buy moses basket, mattress and baby monitor this week then I'm not getting anything else for a few weeks and I'm only buying them because my dad gave me some money for them and I'll spend it if I don't!

purpletoes welcome and yay for good scan.

irene welcome back i remember you from the FO room. Glad you're well.

bigmacsorry you're not sleeping. It's a real pain and I feel your pain. I wasn't getting any until about 3 weeks ago. I changes sides of the bed and it seems to have helped hugely. I'm still very restless and disturbed, but I don't lie there for hours every night willing for sleep! Think we'll be getting a new matress through, as I've been finding ours uncomfortable for a while and it's a good 10yrs old and was only cheap.

owl how's owlet doing the cheeky monkey?!! Surely not shy!! Come on owlet!!!

Clenches!!!! Oh god I keep forgetting! I really do need to fo better!

wiw I'm so sorry about Suki, that's really :( you must be devastated.

pink recieving baby things is scary. You're not alone in being so scared [see my post below] x

velvet I'm sorry stupid bookface upset you! Bookface IS stupid! I hate looking at pictures from christmas as it was about a week after our scan of doom, but everything was still inside me

I'm having a day too. Had text last night off neighbour informing us she'd given birth to a healthy baby girl. Obviously so pleased for them but I remember to clearly the night we had a text telling me she was pg as I was miscarrying. Dealing with her pg has been hard as its a constant reminder of our loss. And of course I couldn't help myself this morning so looked on fb to see a picture of her dh and baby. It just made me cry :( I just want to be able to be happy for them and nothing else, and yet I feel mostly sadness. I just feel an overwhelming sense of loss and I'm ashamed to say bitterness, that we should have had our bundle of joy weeks ago. I'm dreading hearing about how she's sleeping, and eating and growing because I know all I'll be able to think is 'i should know what it's like to experinence that', but I won't :( And then to add to that, rather than taking their birth as a positive sign that things can go right, I am just crippled with fear that this won't go right and that image of us and our newborn will never happen. Jeees!!! I'm so sorry to off load! I AM aware that this is completely irrational and I should be so very grateful I'm updiffed and so far without complications (see how this is always qualified?!). There are just some things you can't talk about in rl as noone will understand.

Think my hormones could also be at play mind! As I had a crying sob at dh last night as he went to plumb the bath in for me, struggled and almost hurt his back. Cue me begging him to stop, sobbing I didn't want one and didn't want him to hurt himself! needless to say after he fixed the bath, I had one, calmed down and dh teased me about it all night!

Ps good luck dachs for today

Quick pop in to say good luck to dachs for today :)

collie I know how you feel honey. You remember ages ago when I first joined there was a woman who was pregnant who knew we were TTC and said something like "aint you pregnant yet" to me? Well FB told me she had her baby Yesterday morning. No pics on there yet thankfully so have hidden her from my news feed for now so I don't get to see them. And indeed, instead of filling me with positive thoughts that things can go well, instead it just makes me think I won't get what she's got. Argh, the mentalness is driving me more mental.

And a quick message for mac Change ya name love, everytime I see you here I want burgers!

collie a close friend of mine was due a week after me so I know how you feel. I am finding that things are getting easier as her little one is getting older as it's further and further from the baby I imagined. However, she's 8 months old now and it still hurts my heart everytime I see her :(

After coming here from being on the recurrent mc thread, that pain will never go away. Time is a great healer though and things do get easier. ((hugs)) for us all eh?! :)