Fab Feb 2009: baby coos, stinky poos - three months on...

[dinkystinky]

so here we go again

Morning. How are we all today? How are dc's? What are we all doing today?
I've been invited to my friends nieces communion, but don't think I'll be going as forgot to buy a pressie and don't really have anything nice enough for me and the boys to wear for a church occasion, plus it's at 10:30 in Fulham and won't make it. She said I could go to the after bit at the house, but don't know if I can be arsed with public transport on a sunday.
Might just go to the park if Luke cheers up.
Little grump bag

I am so tired. DS has been up all night and ds is now giving me grief (nice grief but grief all the same).. at you all throwing caution to the wind. To use a phrase of sorky I would rather eat my own arm then be pregnant again......

Do you like my new name? I have no bump anymore just lots of lardy rolls!!

LB here sorry should have said

Yup, good name LB. been up all night here too but nothing new there.

Lovely sunny day, might force me to do a bit of gardening!

I am going to see my new niece this afternoon so need to go into town this morning!!!

Ha ha Pink!

Lovely day here. DH spent hours last night putting up dd's trampoline in the garden, she was so excited. She went out on it first thing this morning, saw a wasp and now it's all over. She's refusing to go on it again and I am furious. I hate the bloody trampoline, it takes up the entire garden and gets in the way of the washing line and now she won't even bounce on it.

Aside from that we are doing Irish dancing lessons and then home to lie in the garden in the sunshine.

DH and I are going out tonight! To a gig!

My Dad is coming up to babysit, hope it goes well, we're not going out until F has had his bedtime feed and then hopefully he will just fall asleep on my Dad. Hopefully. That's what I'm hoping...

sorry for lack of personals, can't read too well through the tears. Checked my hotmail first thing this morning and got an email from my brother basically saying my mum died yesterday. Feel so gutted, particularly as I hadn't taken Harrison home to see her.
You may recall that she was in hospital for nearly 7 weeks after he was born and I kept saying I should have gone back then but for some reason I allowed myself to be persuaded not to. we were supposed to be going home in just over two weeks and had planned on driving straight down that morning. Am devestated that I didn't let her see her grandson and will never forgive myself. For obvious reasons won't be around for a while I imagine.

MOS I'm so sorry to hear that

Sending you lots of love xxxx

MOS so so sorry, sending you lots of love!!!

Oh MOS, that's devastating. So sorry.

{{{{{hugs}}}} mos

it's not like she lived around the corner sweetie, travelling back to england is a huge trip with a new baby and a toddler and you were hardly expecting this to happen so soon, you couldn't have known she wouldn't make it to summer. and she can see H now from wherever she is, i bet she was right there with you the instant it happened to take a peek at her new grandson.

i'm so sorry for your loss... in holland we say 'condoliert'

Gosh I'm so sorry for you MOS. We'll be thinking of you but take care.

Oh, MOS - I'm so sorry. You really musn't feel bad that you didn't travel here as soon as H was born. PT is right - it's not like popping round the corner for a cup of tea, traveling with babies and toddlers is no mean feet and without a crystal ball, there was no way of knowing what was coming. I'm thinking of you. xxx

PS - and sorry for the triviality amongst this mornings sad news but DD has teeth poking through......DS had them at 19 weeks so I'm not surprised but my little baby is growing up

bnjp - nice name!

lbb fark off . First, you need to have sex to have a baby, which is so not on the cards right now, and second, MS is gonne be the first...

dinky sorry to hear about you Uncle. Thinking of you and your family.

My cousin called last night to invite me to go shopping with her and have a girlie afternoon while someone had the kids, but my mum has just flown to Dubai for work, my sister doesn't drive, and John has gone to work, and so I'm off to Bluewater with:

1x 9 year old boy
2x 2 year old girls
1x 3 month old girl
1x 8 month pregnant woman!

Good luck me!

bumps like the new name
MS Have a great night, is well deserved.
mos I am so so sorry I'm sure she's looked in on H and made sure he's ok . If there's anything we can do or anything you need especially when you're over here, we're all her for you.
herb ahhhh. At least the pain will ease up a bit now.
PSL don't envy your day!

thanks girls for all your kind words. PT, in particular your message has made me cry but made me smile at the same time if you see what I mean. Feeling really shitty and missing my best friends who are miles away. Guess I'm lucky to have virtual friends though x

Oh ((((MOS)))) So so sorry

MoS - am so sorry to hear about your mum and sending you huge hugs. My thoughts are with you and your family at this terribly sad time: please dont beat yourself up for not being in the UK before now - as others have said, your mum clearly loved you and all her grandchildren very much and is surely looking over you and your little ones right now with great pride.

Markstretch - have a great time tonight at the gig. Most

Bump - love the new name. How was your little neice? As Danny is now plumped up nicely I'm rather missing little newborn cuddles and starting to get broody again - though clearly nowhere near as broody as Spotty, Pink and Markstretch as just can not summon the energy to think of bonkage at present (Danny going through a waking 4 times a night for an hour a time and up at 5 am stage).

PSL - hope you survived your shopping trip without incident! Your cousin is really lucky to have someone as lovely and kind as you around to help her and her kids at this trying time. But make sure you dont wear yourself down to the bone...

Herb - wow at DD's teeth! Hope she's a happier bunny now. Cheers for the advice re the tyres. Hope DH hasnt discovered the dent in the car yet...

Had a much nicer day today than yesterday - out this morning to take DS1 to a dance show at Sadlers Wells (which he loved) and quick shopping spree up in Angel and then over to London Zoo along with the rest of London by the look of it where DS1 spent ages splashing in the animal adventure area and running around loving seeing all the animals. Danny even slept a bit during the day (amazing as he is going through a sleep is for the weak phase at present and too worried he'll miss something if he snoozes) then home to play in the garden with homemade ice lollies. This is what summer is supposed to be like...

P.s. June London Meetup - have been in touch with Nkweto who is back at start of June. She can do any day other than 10 and 18 June at moment.

Soooooooooo, how are people fixed for a meet up the week starting Monday 22 June? Could do Corams again, or Serpentine Lido - or if weather continues fine a picnic in a park somewhere where wine can be imbibed by those lucky ones not on frantic toddler runaround duties...

dinky Glad you had a good day. Very brave to go to London Zoo on a day like today!
dinky I'm easy (don't tell all the boys!) re meet up. I will be on toddler duty, but could still manage 1 glass

We also had a lovely day. I will add, I am not a summer person, I hate the summer, I get hot and sweaty, I get the shakes, I feel light headed nd physically weak when it gets hot like this, but me and the boys met a friend and her ds in the park, which was good, ds1 and friends ds ran around like crazy people (which they are and me and my friend had a good old natter. I took ds1's bubble-gun so they played with that for ages. We then went to this friends house and she got the paddling pool out in the garden. The boys played so nicely together all day and only started getting a bit mean when they were both so tired (friends ds is 3).
Luke fed at 9:30 this morning and then not again until 3pm!!! Think the heat must have knocked him out a bit.

What are you all putting babies to bed in now it's warmer. It was so hot when I put Luke down, he is wearing just a vest and is under 1 layer of sheet. I'll put another layer of something on him when I go to bed. He does always seem to be hot though

morning all, thanks so much for all your kind words yesterday, it really helped.

MS, hope you enjoyed your concert.

Ref meet up, I'll be around from 22nd June so could probably make one of those dates. Week after would be good too as DS1 will be back from KSA too and could help with crowd control and I could then indulge in a bottle or two of wine.

Sorry that I'm doom and gloom at the moment and don't want to drag you all down but need to offload. Have decided I hate DH who is being an arse. He came home from work yesterday morning when I got the email from my brother. I forwarded it to him and said I was scared she had died (subject title was 'times up') He said I was being melodramatic but he phoned my brother as I was too scared and I was right.
He then went back to work, sorted a few things and came home. I was obviously devestated but did have 'sane' moments when I tried to think logically about what we (my brothers and I) need to do and made lots of lists etc. (dad died 4 1/2 years ago)
As some of you who have also lost a close loved one will know, grief comes and goes. last night was a late night as on the phone to my brother in UK for quite a while. A bit worried as it seems that my mother made a new will fairly recently (her and my dad had made mirror wills a few years back in my old firm and I know she was happy with the contents) well it seems that one of my brothers somehow persuaded her to make a new will and give him power of attorney and a few months ago when it looked like she was going into a home he withdraw large sums from her bank account. Am obviously very concerned about this and the contents of any new will she may have made. He was adamant she'd made a new will but knowing her it may not have been executed correctly.

Anyway, trying to get some sleep last night and I couldn't and my crying woke DH up. His first words were 'what has happened now?'. When he realised I was crying about my mum he basically said 'oh, I thought something else had happened'. He then turned over, turned his back on my and muttering 'for christs sake etc' went back to sleep. Please tell me I'm not mad and he is being complete wanker.
Am so angry with him. He is going on about taking DD and H to see his mum and dad in a few weeks when we are home (he is taking a few days compassionate leave to hopefully come to funeral when we know when it is) and I'm so angry. I admit I'm jealous he still has his mum and dad which I know is childish but feel so angry that when we told them we were expecting H they simply said 'what do you want to do that for' and were really negative about the whole pregnancy. My mum on the other hand was over the moon and kept asking about the baby throughout my pregnancy and was overjoyed when H was born, particularly as his middle name was my dad's who we had lost.
Sorry, know I'm rambling but I hate DH so much at the moment.
sorry for being so miserable.

LBB, you should try summer here, around 45 degrees at the moment

OMG I'm so sorry about your Mum, MOS. As others have said you musn't beat yourself up about not travelling all that way with H. You weren't to know this would happen. And you had a CS, so travelling would not have been advisable while you were recovering - didn't you have an infection too?

I must say I think your DH sounds incredibly insensitive, I am really .

MOS my mum had the same issues with my father when she lost my Grandma. He used to actually sigh and say "still" rolling his eyes, less than a week later. I used to want to punch the knob. It is appalling that you should have to explain at all why you are upset when something so devasting happens. Very insensitive. Does he not have a close relationship to his parents?

You are allowed to feel the hate anger and jealousy. They are perfectly normal (especially considering his behaviour) and part of the grieving process.

feel so and on your behalf.

sending you more hugs xxxx