Hi again all.
Am feeling particularly bad, as a friend of mine who I haven't seen in years is going specially to Stockholm to see us, gargh. Fortunately he does know other people who'll be there as well, so it's not like I've just condemned him to a weekend on his tod in Stockholm! (I didn't know he was going til just now, as he's been out of contact in Oz for a while).
I just couldn't face it this morning. All the potential problems seemed overwhelming - what if the wheelchair didn't show up, what if ds wouldn't sleep on the plane and was horrendous, what if neither dh or I could physically manage to drive when we got there through tiredness. I had no idea what the apartment would be like, would there be enough space, would it be quiet enough for ds to sleep, etc. And to be honest, knowing that even in the best case scenario, the travelling was going to be very tiring, when already absolutely shattered, I just couldn't do it. Ironically now I don't feel that tired, but even so, I think I just have to accept that we can't go away. And since people won't come and see us here, we just will have to not see people. (Am dreading next week's counselling, she's going to have a field day with this one).
To be honest, three days at home will probably do me a lot more good anyway, but it's three days without getting to see good friends who I haven't seen in years.