((Hugs)) for lily I can not imagine what you have been through but you are an inspiration. I know it is normal to go through being angry at the person who has died and it's important if you canto keep sharing. I recently if a bereavement course through church as I still had lots of emotions hanging on after my mums death. The lady who led it, who I know reasonably well, her husband died when she was pregnant with her second daughter and I thought of you a lot when she talked about what had happened to her. It must be very tough.
One of the things I had to let go was a good friend of my mums who obviously had been a big part of my life, said to me " dealing with it with your stiff upper lip as usual". Little did she know I was breaking inside and thinking I had to cope for my dad as well as my family as my exhusband was not emotionally supportive and if I had buckled the whole lot sold have come tumbling down. She didn't even bother to actually ask how I was, no one did, if they had have done perhaps I would have buckled.
Anyway I have just written to her. 6 years on. It has taken me that long to forgive that comment and it was the bereavement course that helped me get over it.
It might seem silly but that comment really hurt me.
Sorry very heavy for this time in the morning. You jus made me think of all those things lily. (Obviously they are at the forefront of my mind because I wrote the letter anyway)
I am knackered. DS1 up at 3 asking to go to the toilet! I coldn't get back to sleep till after 5 then O up at 06:30 and I do Sundays.
I miss mm and izzy too is never the same without a full compliment.