Hello ladies, have been reading all day just not posting. Am still quite numb and tbh not thinking about things, I can't quite get my had around the fact that I won't see my dad again? I got all short of breath and my heart was beating fast earlier which I think might have been a panic attack, also my ocd side has come out a bit more which means my kitchen is super clean

Ok I have a question (am thinking a bit too far ahead here) - should I/would you take A to the funeral? I don't even know what 'kind' of funeral it is going to be but I'm unsure, it'll be weird with ow and her family, plus I am dreading it and dont want her seeing me upset (I will be bawling).
ledkr I don't actually have a contact no for ow, she prob is nice but I have no feeling that I want to ring her, I get what you mean though. Am expecting phone call from her dd's/ds this week. A loves tv especially in the night garden etc, but we have the tv on all day pretty much
need to stop that and get some music on instead. How was the dahl?!
reastie I've had a quick read of your thread but not properly, will read it again but think it does seem like the standard 'leave the bastard' mn response. It s hard to get your whole relationship of however many years down on screen isn't it. Shouting at a baby is not acceptable imho and maybe you need to think about the long run and do you want A growing up in this house... don't think you need to leave him though think he needs to change. He has to want to change first though. I'm waffling a bit sorry...
Four4 I can go to sleep ok its just when A wakes up in the night for her dummy, then I'm awake and can't get back to sleep, bah. We watched the marathon earlier, my mum wanted to watch it and I was a bit
but it was really good! saddo
deb your comment about your dd emerging from fanjo made me
properly, thanks! A is a choclate monster, just like me then :) I was a bit disappointed by the end of the killing too, liked the series as a whole just not the very end.
Robin we do have quite a few pics of my dad and A, I havn't shown her any b'cos she'll prob smile and laugh, then I'll cry
but funnily enough at xmas he gave me a massive blown up print of a photo of him and A being cute looking at each other, we took the piss out of him because it was a bit random
and joked we'd give it pride of place on the mantle piece, now I can't look at it but might see if its wanted at the funeral, is that daft?! I'm not religious either but believe he'll be looking after A from somewhere. Think blizy you think the same sort of thing too?
Right hello everyone else, its taken me ages to write this and I do feel I've rambled on,I'm sure over the next few days you'll feel like you all knew my dad a bit too the amount I;m going on about him! He was fab though :)