Just mumming (viroids 1)

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So we don't scare the viroids on the antenatal thread with horror stories of no sleep, chomped boobs and endless laundry or make them envious with tales of cuteness....

Oh BamBam I remember those early structureless, drifty days well(ish). It does get better soon, honest.

DD is over the pox now thankyou. She's still spotty, but they've started to heal and she is safe to take out in public again. Hurray!

Esk, how did your meeting going? Not as badly as you were feeling about it.

Aww Bam, it does get better v soon. Actually feeling a little sad that my little lady isn't up for snuggles and cuddles any more. She is v businesslike about feeds, 10 min then she wants to be off and playing, not hanging around with boring old mum.

My meeting went way better than expected thanks. I'm going back 2 days a week from June, but still looking for a new job for September, though if I don't find one I do have a permanent contract at this one. Really no need for getting myself into such a silly state last night.

Don't worry, Bam - just take it in your stride.

I think DD has got a proper cold - DH decided that he would come down with one on Thursday evening, and spent yesterday in bed. it was his day off, so he was able to. He's had to go back to work today.
He did choir practice last night, and went to bed straight after we got home. he was feeling really bad.
Now DD keeps coughing. Along with her little growth spurt that's appeared at the same time. she's dead snuffly too - not just when she's lying down, but all the time, and she's grumpy and crying a lot.
:(

I'm just using my magic boobs to try to make her feel better (which isn't so good when she's crying onto my boob rather than latching and eating! )

Thanks everyone. I know things will improve (and already have in very small ways TBH). I think I'd just forgotten how hard it is at first, and also having DS1 to look after now has made it all more difficult. This too shall pass!

Glad your DD is better feijoa, and hope your DD feels better soon nickel. I swear by Karvol capsules when they are all snuffly.

How was everyone's weekend? Ours seem to fly by far too fast, never enough time to get things done.

We tried js again. Got a bit further than last time, but still v uncomfortable. Guess we just have to practise

Dd has morphed herself into a perfect Gina Ford baby. Heaven knows why, nowt to do with me. She naps on time at 9, 12 &3 for the "right" amount of time, in her cot and annoyingly refuses to sleep in the buggy. Tis very weird now I wish she'd hurry up and sleep through the night. She woke 3 times last night but it was freezing in her room. DH put a heater on in there, and I spent ages worrying that she'd overheat or that the funny smell (just dust burning off) would asphyxiate her.

nickel, DD was a total pukemeister - I rang the HV after a day of numerous projectile voms one day, but it was normal. If it's not causing her distress and she is puttong on weught and has decent nappies, it;s just a hazard od new babydom! Wait til you get weaning pukes - Isobel threw up a stomachful of scrambled egg in Ask the other day and we had no clean clothes for her, so she just stank of sick all the way home.

Sorry to hear you're doing it tough bambam but congratulations! I hope things keep improving.

Isobel is eating loads at nursery but only wants milk at home, the little monkey - but she's also sleeping loads in the day and running little temps, so I'm thinking it's more teeth. I hope she wakes up soon as i need a new dress for DH's 30th and Isobel's christening next week and am running out of shopping days!

HV came yesterday - she's 11lb4 now.
not as heavy as i had expected, but trying not to worry about it.

except i gav her a mammoth feed earlier and then she did lots and lots of puking.

(ie 3 bibs, one muslin, a teeshirt and the top of her dungarees!)

DS was a complete little posseter too . I put it down to the fact I never winded him It improved a bit when I did but he would constantly deposit little bits of baby vom on his nearest and dearest. I second the weaning puke TTL - it's a bit like the nappies now smelling of actual poo, the vom smells of actual vom.

Glad your meeting went well Esk - I am back in denial mode That said I must ring the nursery for a wait list update....

We have had a complete nightmare two nights. Ds has had constipation and spent from Sunday lunch through to yesterday constantly whimpering and straining. Got some Movicol from the doctors and have been feeding him nothing but prunes! No decent nappies but at least the straining has stopped. I also think his second tooth is emerging. As a result as had 2 hours last night and the night before of screaming and unsettledness. I didn't have this as a newborn so very by it and how appalling I feel at the lack of sleep.

DS was a terrible posseter, so I bought stacks of muslims before DD was born and .. barely used them! They are being used now we're weaning, but it made me realise just how much DS threw up when he was wee!

I can report that I'm all healed post birth and that there are no problems in that dept .

DD is over the pox now and her appetite has returned and then some! I can't seem to put enough in front of her at lunch and dinner. I shall have to ramp up the batch cooking.

Hope all is well with everyone else today.

Err I bought lots of muslins, NOT muslims!

god, we've got about a million muslins, and they all need washing now. (it's only been 3 days!!)
we use them for everything - winding, puking generally, using as a towel on the changing mat when we can't be bothered to get one (or at the shop)

DD is being a little fucking brat poorly baby at the moment.
I'm at the end of my tether!
well, at least I was last night.
It feels worse than it is, i'm sure, because I put 2 or 3 "positives" on my tick boxes when the HV came yesterday (the ones that say "i sometimes panic for no good reason" etc to see if you're a loon), so she said "I'm a little bit worried about your state of mental wellbeing, you must go to some of the groups at the children's centres" (yes, fab idea, why not make a woman even more stressed - when exactly do you propose I close the shop and haul my ass over to a children's centre to sit and talk to people that I don't know ?
drives me fucking batty.
I cannot leave the shop! I cannot get out to bloody stupid children's centres! and I fucking hate meeting new people!! I cannot do small talk, and i'm rather shy! It's different in the shop, because they're there for a purpose, so I don't have to do small talk, but if I have to meet other new mums, I am forced into a situation that I don't feel comfortable with.

So, DD didn't sleep much at all last night, cos she feels so poorly. Managed to give her her dose of Nurofen, but that's all she's allowed. it helped for 5 minutes.
she hates the nasal spray, and cries.

so last night, we went to bed. She cried for a loooooong time.
I tried everything.
I lost my temper a little bit.
I used a few swearwords (but quietly!)
and tried not to show her that I was stressing. (that was the hardest part, being all "ooh, poor baby, what's wrong?" when I just wanted to cry. :(
she wouldn't lie down at all , she wouldn't feed with me sitting up.
the only time she stopped crying was when I held her over my shoulder. A-ha! I thought! solution!. no, only worked once.
ditto every other position I tried.

In the end, I went walkies with her. that calmed her a bit. So, her calm, I went into her bedroom, currently with no furniture (we're using it as a laundry), she was calm, looking all around and stuff, so I thought! a-ha!
i grabbed my pillows from the bed, grabbed a blanket, got down on the floor to sleep for a little while. (cuddling her)
after about a minute of this calm.
start again.

managed finally to get to sleep on the floor of her room, with her on my arm.
we were fine, she was asleep.
I woke up.
i thought, ooh, i'll try to get back to my own bed with her.
which would have worked fine if I hadn't scraped her bloody hand on the door jamb as i walked through the door !
she screamed and screamed and screamed.
i handed her to DH, got him to hold the sore hand really tightly while I hared round the house lookign for germolene! I've got about 4 tubes of the stuff and I couldn't find any anywhere!
so I grabbed the arnica and rubbed that on. seemed to work.
she eventually managed to get to sleep on my arm.
later on, at about 6, she was grizzling for food, so, because she'd had quite abit of the boob she was next to, i tried to put her on the mattress on the other side to have the other one (now engorged!)
bad mistake.
bad mistake.

she wouldn't take the boob, and i couldn't turn her back to the other side (dead leg)
so eventually she cried herself to sleep.

then the next thing I know, the alarm's going off, and I can't turn it off and go back to sleep, so I have to wake this finally! sleeping ,peaceful baby (tied not to, but she woke when I moved) :(
and then she cried while I washed and dressed.
but at least this morning I managed to get her to eat!
All night, nothing could calm her. she wouldn't take the breast,and just ended up gum-biting my nipple!

and now she's sleeping.
ahhhh.

oops.

Oh Nickel, we have been there...there is nothing like those nights where you would happily hand your PFB to any drunken loon passing by...I am sure you will recall my moment of glory in public, not private, where I told DS to "shut the fuck up", supposedly under my breath but it turns out not so quietly. I too have fallen foul to walking the perfectly peaceful baby into a door

I hope it has improved today. As for the HV...it's all very easy for her to say get out! I know you said you don't like the whole meeting people thing, especially if you have to shut up shop to do it. Not sure how you feel but could you arrange a coffee morning/story time in the shop for local mums?

FVP still PMSL at Muslims!

We have tooth number 2 on it's way....!

hugs Nickel

Just seen the ophthalmologist and been told DS has an astigmatism in his droopy eye and will be prescribed glasses Also referral to Great Ormond St for possible surgery

oh, she's like a different baby today!

we had a beaver colony visiting the shop yesterday, and she got entertained for an hour, after having slept most of the day.
then she had a cluster feed in the evening, and had a really peaceful night (waking me every 2 hours or so, but not crying!) and she was happy as larry this morning!
what a difference a day makes!

it would be nice to have some mums come to visit me here. there are a couple of MNers who live locally, who come in sometimes.
:)

sorry about the astigmatism. :( I thought they couldn't operate on those? it would mean reshaping his eyeball!

Well today just keeps getting better

Consultant called with the results of the EMG he had last week which has shown some abnormalities in his muscle function

Told not to worry, he has his MRI next week (where they don't expect to see anything as this looks at the brain and nerves) and then he will likely be referred for a muscle biopsy.

It's likely to be some sort of genetic muscle disorder. He referred to it as myopathy. Google is not your friend as the first thing I read mentioned respiratory failure and death....

Cried, a lot. Even though he said not to worry (and I believe him).

DS is generally perfect (obviously, ) other than the droopy eyelid. He is doing everything he should. Even starting to raise his bottom to crawl. I just HATE this uncertainty. Can someone please fast forward to a completely insignificant condition that requires no treatment and results in a very health little boy?

Feel that up until 30 mins ago I was being precious about him wearing glasses.

step away from google!

do ask for as much information as you can though, best to be forearmed.

there's every chance that a bit of physio will make his muscles perfect. :)

Thanks :)

Oh, Val sorry to hear about Ds's droopy eye. When I first read about the glasses I got a picture in my brain of a cute little guy with cool glasses who is a bit smart. Think they suit his name. (I'm not very good at explaining the pic in my head sorry). I second the step away from google advice.

Nickel I was going to suggest you should try rounding up some Mummy's with little babies to come to you in the shop, but you beat me to it. That way you are in an enviroment you're comfortable in (and if you sell a few book, bonus!). By the way do you do Stripy Horse toys? I'm in love with him and am thinking about DD's birthday (which is still months away )

FVP our babies are not allowed birthdays!! They are not allowed to get older

PS thanks for the kind words x

feijy i can get the stripy horse toys, yes.
:)

Oh nickel and val what shitty weeks you've been having. I really hope all is well val - I hate Google, it really is your enemy. When is your appointment? I'm sure it's nothing to worry about, and much better that it's likely to be muscular than anything brain-related. I would have reacted the same way - hope all is better.

nickel that's not a good night. We have just had similar. Sleep training has suddenly taken a rough turn as Isobel has learned to scream if she doesn't get what she wants. And she really screams and screams at the highest pitch you can imagine, as if she's in terrible pain. She does it if she wants to hold her own spoon, if she doesn't want you to put her in the pram, if she doesn't want DH to rock her but wants me and vice versa, if I'm not feeding her every hour through the night, etc. It is a bloodcurdling scream. She did at nursery yesterday and she's been doing it half the night, and she's doing it now as DH is trying to rock her for a nap which she desperately needs. She won't eat properly. We've had her checked by the doctor and there's nothing wrong with her at all. Which is good, but I wish the screaming would stop!

I hope we have the same as you and get a good day tomorrow to follow this! Glad to hear it got better xxx