It is one o clock in the morning, I need the night shift to mind my worries whilst I sleep....

[NaomiFromMilkShake]

I am 50% of the way through chemo. (second time around)(different primary)

My DS (18) has just been diagnosed with depression I think me being diagnosed again was the tipping point.

Due to above I am having to delegate Christmas, it will get done, it did before just not my way.

DH retiring in three years, should be more than enough to live on, but at the moment I am worrying (Like I couldn't worry about that closer to the time)

Sausage rolls, my job, ditto mince pies.........if they don't happen my DH and my DS will suck it up. Just me worrying.

DS struggling in college and have to go to a meeting on Wednesday

So if some of the night shift would like to come and mind my ,worries whilst I attempt to sleep, it would be gratefully received.

Feel free to add your own, just writing that down has helped.

I've been watching flash mobs around Europe. Very uplifting and calming at the same time, so feel free to leave any worries with me folks.

Sleep deep and sleep well.

I sleep better knowing my worries are here . Please can someone hold them till the morning. Same worries as before all wrapped up with health in some form for me and various members of my family and the mental health of my children and nephew. This close to Christmas is an easy time for my worries to come out and they just need minding they don't get out of hand .
Thanks - I can take some again to watch in the morning .

Go get some sleep girl. I’ll keep a close eye on them for you.

The santander Beethoven's 9th flash mob is lovely. It's in the town not the branch on the high street.

@girlofthenorth I can mind some. DH and I have had a huge argument and even though we’ve made up I doubt i’ll sleep much. I’m happy to take any worries to bed to keep me company in the dark while I plan Christmas.
Any others are welcome too, the more the merrier whilst you all get some rest.

I had a calm day, worked really hard, harder than my energy levels dictate.

Collected the ham, picked up the Champagne.

The lights are on the tree, the baubles are going on tomorrow, most importantly I have made sausage rolls.

Last year before this diagnosis landed, we went out to dinner with DS (18)and we got him low level pissed, in return he told us what was hard for him the last time around, in the middle of all the trauma information, he said and.......and ....... that was the first time in my life we didn't kick Christmas off with homemade bockety sausage rolls.

So I made sausage rolls from scratch.

I then did loads of invisible bits....

Decorating two mantelpieces and two hearths picked DS up from work, waited while he got a takeaway, (on my dollar )

Hoovered

Just invisible stuff..............

Point being I am suitably tired enough to take someone elses worries to bed with me.

DS is out with his friends and happy.

I am more or less ready for Christmas.

So bring it on...

Naomi your post made me cry. I can tell how hard you worked and how much intention you put into every step. That's love. Right there, love.

Sleep well. You earned it ❤️

Checking in. Night all.

Well i feel foolish. Was tossing and turning all night long, and kept thinking I simply needed to post and ask for help. But never did it. I knew I was worrying needlessly, quite pathetic.

I'm hosting a tea party for about 12 of my female staff in a week. A week. Some are vegan. I have recipes pulled and good ideas where to shop for ingredients. I need to pull the pretty China from the garage. Etc. Etc.

All night! When I fell into sleep I dreampt that it was today and I was unprepared. Bed not made. DH in the way cleaning the kitchen. A nightmare!

I bet this worry rose up to hide the big ones. Sheesh.

Thank you one and all

I'm away, ready for DM's funeral tomorrow, the arrangements for which were my original presenting problem. All not sorted.

Today, though, it is as if a switch has gone on for DH. It is as if we are back to how I thought we were, before his worries loomed.

No idea why, maybe the AD have actually kicked in and his brain chemistry is back to normal. So, so grateful to have the man I married back.

I'm bc about to go to sleep, happy to mind any worries that anyone would like to be soothed. Good night all xx

Good night Finally!

Ah 2018 don't feel silly hand over all your worries, big or small and just come back for them when you're ready. I'll be here, minding them and gently shushing them down along with my (mostly) sleepless babe.

Naomi you sound like a wonderful mum! I hope I am as lovely as you as my DS grows up!

@FinallyHere sorry to hear about your DM
I should have been on to say I would mind some worries during the day but had hectic day feeling very post viral and struggling to look after my DF who now has it from when he looked after me last week ! He's old and I'm worried.
I may need someone to mind mine later but for now can take quite a few which can nestle down in the wrapping paper for a few hours .

Good evening everyone.
Drop your worries here with me, I have a nice peaceful spot set up for them, I’ll tuck them up and keep them warm and safe until you’re ready to pick them back up.
Sleep well.

Thinking of you for tomorrow finally

I'm here and happy to mind overnight, it would be quite nice to have a distraction from my own.

I've had a year of worries, the biggest one still not resolved but I'm determined over the Xmas period to put it to one side.

Am I able to join? Not really wanting to go into much detail but am really struggling mentally atm. Partner won't be here for Xmas day and I'm allowing him to have the kids (3&2) for Xmas day so I'll be alone and the thought is just killing me. I haven't eaten in days and can't sleep. Everything I eat comes back up (sorry)

I have name changed as I don't want this linked to my normal name.
I do really want to do a post on what is going on atm but feel it's outing and have family (my side and partners side) and feel it's to outing. I have no one to really talk to who isn't close to me and I just don't know where to turn or who to speak too.

Sorry.

@serialnc that sounds really though. I’ll look after your worries for the night, so you can get some rest and hopefully feel a bit better for it.

Come on sorrow and worries, you can stay with me for now and leave poor serialnc alone till she’s ready to pick you lot up.

serialnc if course you can join in, you're having a tough time. Throw a few of those worries over here. I'll help Pepperama look after them for you tonight.

What a beautiful thread.

I’m here and watching tv. Send your worries to sit with me.

I need to sleep and can't , can I leave some too?

I'm using this thread like worry dolls but thank you. @serialnc I hope you get some rest.

girlofthenorth of course you can. Wishing you sweet dreams, from another girl of the north

What a beautiful thread.

I promise I'll take my turn minding the worries but could I just leave mine here for a bit?

Nothing compared to what some of you lovely people are going through but I'm feeling a bit vulnerable about a new relationship.

Of course you can, JenaWren. I'm happy to take yours on as well tonight. Sleep well.

I'm struggling to switch off.

DH is depressed and I said it out loud to him a couple of nights ago. He agrees. My heart broke for him.

My maternity leave is about to be cut short soon because we need the money and I'm determined for the new year to be nothing like the current year, which has been the most difficult for us financially.

I have no idea if I'll be able to pump enough milk. I have some milk frozen but realistically it won't be enough for the month if I can't pump anymore. I have no idea how I will cope with going back so soon. This will be the earliest I've gone back.

Christmas plans are overwhelming and I have a family telenovela going on on my side of the family and I have no idea how much will be revealed to DH's family during their stay over Christmas.

And everyone in my house has a brand new cold.