Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 2 xxxxx

[barbie1]

Hello to everyone coming over from the previous thread and for all the new girls who will sadly be joining us...
You will not find a better bunch of girls to help you through such a hard time, we will get through this with the help of each other xxxx

Hi there. Hope everyone is doing better today. I've officially survived the first day back at work. My boss was lovely and I told a couple of people on my team. I got through with just a few wobbly moments. I'm glad your day went okay Jonesy

Great news on the blood tests VJ and on DH's job Barbie. My boss is just back from Dubai and says that alcohol cost a fortune so there's another great reason to get preggers

Lilac it's so hard to just get on with things isn't it? I'm all over the place at the moment - one minute I'm joking around and feeling like me again. The next I'm unconsolable. But worse is that feeling of total emptiness when you remember and accept that it's happened but just can't imagine ever feeling right again. Maybe we just need to not expect too much so soon.

I have high hopes for next year though -for all of us.

Justbeme how are you doing today?

Hi Curley and Blue, hope you've had good evenings.

Blue - ceremony sounds very thoughful.
Curley - glad you've had support at work.

I def agree with the guilt at feeling ok, then remembering, then thinking is it ok to feel ok

Off to bed now, well watch tele in bed.
Nite 2 all. x

Sorry, meant to say barbie - agree with the guilt of feeling ok... too tired to concentrate, unusual for me (night owl).

Hi everyone,

It is a strange kind of acceptance that you are left with, being on my 3rd mc now I have to accept what comes to an extent.......if you don't you will go mad, trust me. We know we have to give ourselves time to grieve the problem others don't always allow you that time and it is the weeks, months, years that follow that can prove the saddest. We will get there and we will all have our positive outcomes, we have to cling onto that hope otherwise the future is unbearable.

barbie I should be able to meet on Saturday afternoon sometime after 2 o'clock, dd has dancing and swimming before that and dh is away racing in Carlisle all day. I tried to do a contact to you but it looks like your profile settings won't allow it, I think I have set mine to receive contacts if you want to try.

mm sounds good! have you paid £5 to use the cat in order to get contacts etc?

No but will check it out

i think we have to pay?! im sat in bed now and after reading what a fuss i go through to get here im sure you understand me when i say i dont want to get out! So ill pay my money tomorrow and then we can CAT away!

No problem, I have just signed up and I think it sends to your email so let me know tomorrow if you receive it. Sounds like we will be seeing each other on Sat, I can't believe that we will be the first to meet, but then again knowing us I can. Hope you are feeling better hun......counting the days till your hospital appointment.

ill let you know tomorrow, exciting eh> night night xxx

Sweet dreams hun xxx

Just a quick post to say hello to all and hope everyone is well

barbie and mm so exciting that you ladies are going to meet!

I'm having one of my feeling-the-emptiness-physically days. I would have been 18 weeks, just wondering what I would have looked like. I seem to be putting on weight, and dont have a baby for an excuse!

I'm sure reading posts on here later on will cheer me up....

Good morining all, I do hope you meet up mm and barbie, it is exciting.
I'm going to spend the day studying today, I'm trying to get back into the swing of it. Have a good day everyone

hello and good morning to you all! Im having to work until 10pm this evening why cant christmas shoppers just shop at normal times!

mm i received your message hun, i havent got the time this morning to set up cat but you can forward me your number if you like or i could email you on the address in the message? left me know!

Girls one day we will all meet, ill just have to save my one flight a year home for all of you xxxx

barbie Good the message worked, will send you my number tonight, at work atm so will do it when I get in tonight.......getting excited{grin].

sabs sorry you are feeling down today, hope we can all cheer you up on here today, take care.

vjay good for you getting back to your studies, hope we don't distract you too much.

And like barbie says we will all meet up and compare good news stories/ bumps etc .

Morning everyone, been to the gym and feeling ace,but very spotty, curses spots and wrinkles.
morning sabs down days are so raw - when I have them I just bury myself in a book on the sofa and try not to feel guilty. I am geting close to giving myself the sack and employing someone else!
barbie and lilac yep know Plymouth well, but I am much further down the coast where only mermaids frolic!
mm buy yourself both a big hot chocolate when you meet up on saturday. I had never frequented forums before and it is lovely to see the heartfelt care and support that has come through on these threads.
curly well done for surviving work
vjay I miss studying, all that adrenaline of deadlines which bings me neatly to vm hope you are ok today girl.

Hi everyone! By some miracle I managed to write a thousand words yesterday and another thousand this morning, so that deadline is now dead! .

mermaid, just love your funny posts; I think you should be the writer, not me (the bit about the postit notes nearly killed me!)

Circular, I used to be a teacher but gave that up two years ago to write full time. My short-term deadlines now are all journalism...
When updating your profile on barbie's list just put that you are 25 (like me - 25 is definitely the new 40!)

VJay, brilliant news about your test results - what a relief that must be. I really hope that next time proves to be a long and boring pregnancy for you!

barbie, congrats on DH's Dubai contract, that's wonderful!

lilac, I found what you wrote a while back - about not being pg suddenly overwhelming you while you were just going about your business - very moving. It's the same for me. I think it takes time for the subconscious really to accept it; when the end comes, it's so abrupt that it's hard to take it in on every level.

mm, enjoy your Saturday meetup with barbie - remember to tell us all about it, girls! How are you going to recognise each other, BTW?

OK, back to a few other chores and tasks that are waiting to pounce... ((hugs)) to everyone.

Ha ha, I should add: I wrote a thousand words and NOT on Mumsnet for a change!

sabs, I meant to send you a ((hug)), sorry you're feeling low.

vm I have tried to write before with we all have a book in us approach but I became overwelmed with the whole process, its very hard and I admire all those who manage it, let alone those who get past an editors bin. Post it notes is about my limit.
right off to do some work, bypass mn, ebay, new car web sites and the junk mail.x

Hey everyone,

Hope your work is going OK Jonesy and curly VM - what magazines do you write for? I'm a regular Red reader. Used to read Vogue but way too frumpy for that now - sigh.

Nothing much doing here today, Just mooching in 2ww land. Going to go out for walk later as its actually dry and sunny .

barbie - as an expert on Estee Lauder - do you recommend their night serum? I'm thinking of asking for it for my xmas as my skin is rubbish just now.

Hi again,

vm well done girl, you have kicked that deadline into touch. You should be very proud of yourself, I know we are.

mermaid Looking forward to the hot chocolate with barbie. I have never bothered with forums before either, tbh on here is just nothing like I imagined forums to be, I think we can all agree about the support just shinning thru on here.

blue Glad it is dry and sunny where you are, hope you enjoy your walk.

Hope everyone else is good today, I'm sure I will be back later to check in on everyone.

mm and barbie of course you could both clutch a copy of vms book so you recognise each other
bluesatinsash I think my mermaids scales have gone way past night serum, we should have one of circulars saunas and sit here with a face pack on tonight, I'll supply the chocolate if you bring the pop

Hello ladies, its a bit quiet in here tonight...or has everyone gone to sit in the sauna with a facepack on, reading VM's book whilst drinking hot choc???

Thanx for everyones kind words, just kept myself busy with work...sitting down now with a box of after 8's

vm looking forward to your next book (no pressure there then!) which reminds me to get on amazon to order TBM!

barbie hope the shoppers didnt tire you out too much!

Hello girls, Just to let you know that my broadband and BT vision is down at the moment and I can't catch up with the posts and do my own mammoth message whilst at work.
So Barbie I'm OK, to save you stalking me (I so love it that you do by the way)

Hugs to everyone especially those feeling down, will hopefully be back in the land of MN very soon as it feels as if my arms and legs have been cut off!

MollieMooma get your connection fixed soon, we miss you!

I have to tell you all about a dream I had last night. I dreamt that I gave birth to a baby girl. She was such a big and bouncy baby. My dream was so vivid, I can still see her clearly now.

It wasnt my lost angel (who I am convinced was a boy) but (hopefully) my next pregnancy and baby. I always tell my DH that our next baby is going to be a girl.

Anyway thought I would share that all with you. Hopefully I will meet my baby real soon...

Hope everyone is having a positive day

Sabs, what a lovely dream - soon to be a reality I hope!

mm, thanks for making me feel good about myself as you always do!

This is another quick one as RL is kicking in with a vengeance - just realised there's so much I've been neglecting thanks to the post-mc blues. Aaaaah the thought of sitting in a sauna with hot choc all day (what would that do to the inner thermostat, I wonder?!) sounds good though! x