I would also like to shout out to Kerr too -he went through total hell last night with me and it must be so awful to feel entirely powerless and watch the person you love suffer so much. I joked with him, that if I don’t make it, I’m sure many single ladies of mumsnet will be forming an orderly queue. You’ve got to laugh!
He’s with me now. Have to say, I struck gold when I met this man. I feel incredibly lucky to have such a loving and supportive marriage. I couldn’t have done any of this without him and his unwavering support. You know you’re loved when your poor husband is giving you a bed bath and holding your drain bag while you pee!
Jacob’s still at home with mum just now, we thought it best that I got my first chemo in. There’s also been a fair amount of bad moments I would rather they didn’t see. Also some logistical problems with mum’s mobility, accommodation and getting them round London to visit me when I am still in hospital, my mum’s in her 70’s and I have to be mindful of that. So seemed like an extra stress for all. It should be easier when I’m an out patient and we can organise something local for them beside my friend as it’s just not going to work well otherwise.
Anyway, all hooked up now for next few hours. They keep telling me about how sick I’m going to feel which is something I don’t want to contemplate, but as long as this massive tumour (and the smaller ones) shrinks and hopefully completely dies. Keep imagining it like an alien inside me, Sigourney Weaver style. Can’t wait to slay it!!
Anyway, here we are, always together in faith, hope and love ❤️
Thanks for all your posts, I’m about to read all the latest now. You again, keep me moving ahead. Keep me sane at times actually. Pics so lovely, your thoughts and cares truly make me feel less alone in the world. It’s such an isolating journey and you this community is so wonderful. I hope whoever else on here who may be going through a difficult time for whatever reason also takes heart and faith in the goodness of life and people.