The mind numbing boredom of infertility II

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This is a thread for peole who really want to get pregnant but can't, who have tried pretty much everything, and are really fucked off about it.

Have you ever nearly punched someone for advising you to "relax", "go on holiday" or "just get drunk - that's what we did"? Well then this is the thread for you.

You won't find much sentimentality here and there's no baby dust, but there is empathy, a lot of swearing and a surpirsing amount of glittery dog shit.

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I am still here! Last night after work I went out and had fun, yes fun with my friend! No booze though!!!! Will catch up and reply when I am home ladies. Hello newbies
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Hello ladies may I join you?

I'm 34, my husband will be 39 this month. We are in year 4, ttc our first. I'm bored, stressed and am just totally sick of the whole ttc business.

I have pcos and issues with thyroid antibodies. In the years we have been ttc I've been pregnant twice, but lost both. Currently on cycle 3 of clomid and also on a medical trial for recurrent mc. My consultant seems to think I'm an ideal candidate for clomid and was certain I would be pregnant by (last) Christmas (so at least someone has faith - or is a good liar).

The only thing that is keeping me sane are my two Welsh cobs, they often have a soggy neck when times are hard!

Pinkheels we also waited a year and a half after our wedding to ttc, I honestly don't know if I regret it or not as we did have a wonderful 18 months (ignorance is bliss and all that).

I think I'm out been feeling like I am getting my period and there is blood when I wipe. Fuck.

Oh meh what a day for you. How long till otd? I spotted then got a bfp, not that knowing that will help or make you feel better. for tonight.

So close!
Hopefully ovulation is near. This will be a short cycle! My last cycle was 72 days and I'm currently on CD 28. Fingers crossed!

Oh meh :( what a shitty day, hopefully test day soon to get a definate answer not that that helps right now..

Hello to everyone new and old.

This evenings entertainment as casa biscuits; period pain or IBS: guess the symptoms!

I'm delightful. DH is sooo lucky..

Hi super, welcome to the board.

and for you meh if this is indeed AF making her appearance

Sorry for your evening plans biscuits, hope you feel better

Thanks ladies. I just want to cry. Mr Meh says not to worry and has been great. I just feel all of the tell tale AF signs (really bad backache, period pain) keep want to run to the toilet but scared of what I will find. A lot more blood when I wiped etc. OTD is Thursday

If it is, I can't even drink til after next Thursday (mourning period)

Fucks sake. :(

meh feel sick at the thought of what you are going through right now. It's like the hope is dashed within a blink of an eye isn't it. What utter shit.
Hope you and Mr Meh get through it if it is indeed bad news.

Oh meh, I'm so sorry. I really hope you're wrong, but if not then please take care of yourself. It's so hard. Xx

I've missed a lot ladies. We really are moving fast.
bip I was sorry to see you didn't get the no. You was hoping for. But was glad to see your consultant is going ahead with EC. My biggest fear is getting through stims then it being totally abandoned.
Can you wear your best lippy and a flick of mascara for it? However your appearance in the day, I am sending you lots of luck for it to go well xx
meh you have done the best thing not bottling things up in side. That would have been worse for you. Tricky decision whether to test or not! I'd have caved by now. But just 2 more sleeps...nearly there!
vixx hello you! I too haven't been on the thread much. I wasn't getting anywhere with treatment or on any meds like the others so felt daft being on that thread. But I pop in now and then to wish the ladies well.
laura your cycle is officially this month! You must be a buzz with emotions. Don't go starving your self before you leave. Hope the time flies for you.
I know I've missed people off but I am on my phone. Need to read our chatty thread again.
Shitty glitter to everyone

Hey ladies, thank you all! I feel like crap...trying so hard not to fall apart etc but there is still blood. It's not a full on period but it's more than spotting.

Part of me is still hoping this isn't bad news and that we get a positive tomorrow...I highly doubt that though. I really do feel like my period is coming :(

I fucking hate this and my body - this morning there was no blood and I thought maybe yesterday was an anomaly...but the bleeding is back again. I have called my clinic, just waiting for the nurse to call me back. I don't think she'll say anything reassuring though!

Nope, not yet. I keep staring at my phone...trying to distract myself but it's not working and I veer between wanting to go to the loo and check or avoiding that completely.

Last night I dreamt that I missed my first pee of the day and couldn't test again...I'm losing it!

Hello all! What a great idea for a thread!

I don't know about you, but the thing that irritates me the most is being told about the bloody Miracle Couple. You know the ones. They had 17 years of IVF and then just stopped trying, moved to Milton Keynes for a change of scenery, took up wake-boarding and woohoo! 9 months later...

I cannot possibly count the times I have heard a variation on this story. I want to punch anyone who starts it, so instead I smile politely through cold teeth and moan incessantly afterwards.

Also, lots of love to all of you in a similar shitty situation with little hope. Glad to have found you all. Xxxxx

Hello! Ah if only - I live near MK and would consider a move if it guaranteed getting preggo!

Meh any news yet? I'm holding my breath for you.

I have zero idea what protocol I'm on (and is it bad that I feel clueless going into this process)?! Someone mentioned long but 12 days of jabs doesn't feel long to me! Ask me that again on day 3 though....

Woke up feeling very sick this morning that today is my last day on the Notheristone and then I'm just waiting for period to arrive. Feel completely out of my depth all of a sudden!

Victoria a colleague at work had that - been trying for 10 years, apparently had IVF and nothing worked...they gave up and suddenly they are expecting (she's in her mid 40s I think). They defo don't live in MK though!

Just spoke to the nurse, she said that the bleeding is usually a sign of it not having worked...but to test tomorrow as planned because you never know. I was told to prepare for the worst and hope for the best.

These next few days are going to suck

meh you must feel awful about all of this on top of your grief. I hope the nurse has got back to you. Really hope things work out and it's not AF arriving.
laura so do you have your flights booked etc? It may be best that you are a little clueless going into all this. Sometimes knowing too much can be overwhelming. Just take one day at a time and follow the clinics advice day by day.
biscuits have your symptoms calmed down? What was the winner? Hope your feeling better.
fractious I pestered the hospital for my op date. They did call me with a cancel as promised but it was 3 days before Xmas, they must have thought I was that desperate. Keep at them. Are you NHS or private? If NHS why not take advantage of the system like so many other people do, but for the wrong reasons and if your private your paying so why not?!
harold hope the 2ww isn't killing you!
garlic sorry if I've missed a post, are you on meds for ovulation a or trying the good ol fashion way!
Hello super I too have PCOS...I think. You must be well and truly pissed off after four years. Really sorry for your loses. Are you on a monitored clomid cycle? Hope the medical trial sheds some light on things. Is this your final go on clomid? Your consultant sounds optimistic, that's always reassuring.
No news from me, waiting for the post man to bring me some good news and a bloody appointment date. Only been 8 WHOLE days since our application!

Oh, Meh. I have all my fingers crossed for you. Suspect mine may be heading the same way, for the same reason. All my love to you right now.

Sorry I crashed in with something completely unrelated- I didn't read the last page of the thread which meant I looked really insensitive. So sorry about that.

I actually got told by a close friend today that maybe I should see a councillor as I am probably stopping myself getting pregnant due to issues I've had with my family.

Meh I am really sorry. Until that darn AF shows for real though don't give up hope!

Vic I am googling Milton Keynes.

I definitely want to get therapy if this cycle fails. I want to start putting all this behind me, lose the weight I've gained with four years of comfort eating, and remember who I was before this took me over. I think I'll need some serious help with all that. Love to you, Vix