The mind numbing boredom of infertility II

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This is a thread for peole who really want to get pregnant but can't, who have tried pretty much everything, and are really fucked off about it.

Have you ever nearly punched someone for advising you to "relax", "go on holiday" or "just get drunk - that's what we did"? Well then this is the thread for you.

You won't find much sentimentality here and there's no baby dust, but there is empathy, a lot of swearing and a surpirsing amount of glittery dog shit.

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bip best of luck with everything. Will be thinking of you! I feel sad you are leaving us but time to move on I guess?...

Good luck karla. It's a long wait! I'll be thinking of you and hoping things go well.

PS nearly time for a new thread again! Are we living dangerously with "the mindnumbing boredom ... III"???

Bip you've been through the fucking wringer, you deserve a better positive time ahead. Best wishes to you and your DH. Xx

potatoes.... I'm still mind numbingly bored! If anyone can think of a better title am all ears!

19 eggs divided overnight so pleased with that. OHSS has been classified as mild - well FUCK ME if hate to see what moderate is like?!! Christ.

Chatted to a nice lady from Reading at the Victoria wing today who was in for a blood tests pre IVF - hiiii if you're lurking!

Currently bawling at Supervet as OH is out. I don't watch the birthing programme but the animals! The animals!

I'm still mind numbingly bored too so happy to go with III!

Icy - supervet gets me every time, he's amazing!
And YES to mild OHSS being underrated. Moderate must be awful, and severe... Well I don't even want to think! Lol. Xx

Bip - good luck with whatever direction you go in now. I read your thread around stopping trying, and hope that if we're continuously unlucky then I can be as brave as you. Much love, Xx

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Found this post on an online diary. I am thinking a lot of what she says about my Grade C's..

bip wishing you and DH all the very very best. You'll be in all of our thoughts

Karla embryo grading is absolute bullshit. All it says is how 'pretty' an embryo is. It says absolutely nothing about its genetic integrity whatsoever

I know women who had PGS and their most perfect looking blasts were chromosomally abnormal, and their supposedly 'poor quality' graded embryos were absolutely genetically perfect

It's a beauty contest, nothing more - and trite as it sounds, it genuinely is what's on the inside that counts, don't judge a book by its cover etc etc

banana always the voice of reason. I shall step away from Google. My 20minute daily quota is now up!
I should really be trying to find inventive ways of not covering my clothing in remnants of these progesterone pessaries.
I have the worst cold ever at the moment so with every sneeze.. I'm sure I'm about to expel a rocket shaped pellet down my trouser leg!

Karla thanks for that link. I feel so broken about how poor quality my embryos were but your right, they wouldn't have put them back if there was no chance and I have to hang on to that.

Good news on the dividing icy

Best of luck with life bip

Thank you Bip lots of love to you for what the future may hold. Really feel privileged to have got to know you on here and hear your story. Dog shit xxx

Adding my good wishes to the multitude, bip. I've always looked forward to your posts and you've been a great support to us all on here as I hope we have for you. Wishing you all the best for a happy future.

bean and karla if it makes you feel any better I had pre genetic screening on my embies and a whopping 6 out of the 10 that were duff were top quality AA embryos. banana is right - the way they look is irrelevant, it's whether the genetic material is there.

bip am in awe of you. Dog shit & all the very best for the happy and fulfilling life I know you'll have

icy well done on that killer fert rate!

Thanks stealth.

6dp3dt today and have all the cramps so sure period will be on its way soon. At least then I'll know it's over. Bollocks.

Could go either way. Keeping everything crossed for you.

Best of luck Bip

Banana how is it going?

*waves at everyone else

Pepper are you there??

Stealth Argh your genetic screen scare story has scared me! Going to run through the price list now ... do the genetic test before or after freezing?

Grumples you got a date for FET? What drug regime they putting you on for it?

Karla STEP AWAY FROM GOOGLE.

As for me, I've well and truly ditched my pcos protein heavy carb light egg producing eating plan. Every other meal has been chocolate and tonight I'm having WINE as I'm feeling so much better. Amazing what 24 hours can do - this time yesterday I was uncomfortable as Hell; now, although my belly is still swollen, it's definitely going down. Getting a hospital letter to sign me off til Monday though, so tomorrow is a scan, dentist, Ocado delivery.. making the most of it eh.

Oh - did a poo today, first in ages [applause]. It was pretty terrible, like rabbit droppings, but at least the gut is moving again.

On that note, glittery rabbit droppings to all; they're solid like bullets, so you can achieve quite the velocity when lobbing them at deserving cunts.

Best of luck for the future, Bip (I feel like I've just said the sort of uninspired message that I write on leaving cards at work but oh well...)

beanhunter - period-like cramps mean nothing - the only time I've ever been pregnant I had period-like cramps. It's nature's way of fucking with you - most of the symptoms for a period are the same for pregnancy.

icy - congrats on the bumper egg harvest. It's like Easter has come again, but with (a little) less chocolate.

Hi to everyone else. Still waiting for our initial consult. I did manage to get my GP to agree to most of the blood tests needed so that's a fair bit of cash saved.

Oh god I just made the mistake of rambling round mumsnet outside the Barren Ghetto. MISTAKE. Threads about 'is my DH an idiot for talking to MIL about our choice of NCT class', 'what are you memories of the first 10 days of having a newborn'.

Just FUCKING SIIIIIIIIIGH

icy brilliant news - on the deflating, the chocolate, the wine and the poo. Thumbs up all round!

We’re having genetic screening done, they’re doing the biopsy on day 5, before they whack em in the freezer. We’re also having our frosties tested, and batching the biopsies from both lots (if we get anything to day 5 this time, that is!) together for testing. It’s definitely preferable to do the biopsy before freezing, as it’s much riskier to thaw the embryos, biopsy, refreeze and then re-thaw for transfer. The lab say however that chromosomally normal embryos do generally survive the thaw - it’s the abnormal ones that aren’t so hardy.

Vixx I spied BFP-shaped news on another thread - how are you doing lovely?!!

bean - what stealth said. I had cramping at about the same time (4dp5dt), and felt very periody - turned out to be mythical implantation cramps. Everything crossed it’s the latter

Grumpel have you had your scan yet? Updates needed!

karla hope the fanjo bullets haven’t taken too many more garments hostage…

pepper hope everything went well - don’t leave us hanging!!

potatoes cor, nearly new thread time already? Living on the motherfucking edge, bitches!!

pebbles totally loving your zen, maaaaan.

AFM, it appears I am officially PCO again. 24 measurable follicles (and some tiddlers under 9mm). Consultant had to flip the scan into 3d mode to count properly. WHOA.

Glittery rainbow shite to you all

YES, icy!
Good to hear you're feeling better. How are all those embies doing?

Pepper hope ET went well. * Am sending you and karla* to help you through the glacial-pace 2ww .

Bean how you doing? Are you still cramping?

Banana hope the follies are ripening nicely and your lining is plumping up. Really not long till EC at all, all hail the short protocol!

FET prep going ok here. Had first scan today to check things are in place and body isn't going to forget how to do anything just when I need it to work. Which would of course be bloody typical.
They think I'm prob going to ov Tues or Wed so going back to clinic again on Mon to keep an eye on it. It's a natural FET so no drugs other than fanny bullets from a positive opk till they shove the frostie up there a few days later and I then get some Clexane and prodnisolone as well to stave off any potential clotting issues.

Feeling the pressure a bit now it's all on me to keep an eye on ov. Weed all over my hand twice trying to opk earlier. FFS.

24 follicles wow, when do you go back?

Haven't got my blood test until Tuesday so I am not getting excited yet especially as I have had spotting, boobs less sore. I am very apprehensive.

Quick, who's going to do the honours for MNBOI III??!

Hi grumpel - yes a bit and sore boobs but not so bad. In previous pregnancies I've had the mythical implantation bleeding so the lack of that so far makes me think the won't happen. Also I spoke to the clinic again and they've reviewed their stats for the last year and they had 2 pos pregnancies tests from my situation. And one was a chemical and the other a mmc at 8/40 so hardly feeling like there's any hope at all.

Good work on the wine and chocolate icy - I want wine so badly at the moment.

Banana - good haul on the ever confusing ovaries!