Don't worry glowworm I am a technophobe too. Have a book from library and am trying to learn a little when I get the time.
Also was a little uncomfortable about signing up to FB. Perhaps you could change your surname if it would make you feel safer?
Paperchain I hope your ok. I guess today you maybe feeling very low too. Please don't punish yourself. Your a courageous worthwhile person who is struggling to deal with more than they can alone. Is there anyone who can help you? Please seek support and help. It won't take your problems away but it will help you cope with them.
When I feel low and bad about myself I tend to punish myself by neglecting myself or not allowing myself any of the pleasures which make life more bearable. Alcohol has often been away for me to cope with pain. It helps instantly but causes it's own problems as well.
I hope your kind to yourself today and allow yourself the understanding I'm sure you would give to others. You need help from other people to cope with all the different areas of pain in your life. Talking to the Samaritan's would be a starting point.
Please keep posting. xxx