Problem/Dependent Drinkers and Alcoholics (recovering or active) Support IV

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Hi all. Hope you're all doing okay. Just wanted to let you know I haven't fallen off the planet, but I have been really, really poorly with proper 'lady flu' (as opposed to the man variety!!!) Hence, haven't even felt well enough to be in front of computer reading, let alone posting. Am now feeling moderately better, although still hacking and coughing like a '5 pack a dayer' and sound like Mariella Frostrup when I can speak at all. Am going away on holiday tomorrow with all my non drinking in laws for a week....aaarrrggghhh! Am really looking forward to the break although getting ready for a holiday when you feel dire is pretty grot. There is supposed to be internet access at the place; if so wil try and catch up while i'm away, failing that, will be back bright eyed bushy tailed and feelin' fine a week tomorrow. Love to you all. xxxxxx

Hi, can I ask something? Before I got pg I used to drink a lot, fairly regularly. Probably a bottle of wine 4 or 5 nights a week.

Anyway, I knew it was too much. I had stopped for set periods in the past, e.g. a month.

Since ttc and getting pg I haven't drunk at all, so I've not had anything to drink for 5 months now. I haven't found it hard not to drink, but I do find myself looking forward to being able to drink again.

I'm hoping that between b/feeding and looking after a small baby I won't be drinking anyway (certainly not that amount). But I just wondered if there was a way I could use this time to try and change the way I feel about alcohol. I still find myself thinking of it as a "treat" but I don't want to think like that anynmore.

HI- do you want to explore the way you perceive your relationship with alcohol? ie the emotional element of it?

Do you think its wrong to see it as a treat for yourself, or are you worried that you may fall into old patterns?

Sorry if this sounds garbled btw

can I say a quick hello?

PCx

Has anyone here had any experience with Campral?

Some paperwork arrived from the alcohol service. They also offer assisted medicated detox.

I bought cider tonight. Have had it here staring at me for the past 3 hours.
DD2 bought me up a can when I was in the bath, it's still sat up there now unopened.

Will see if I can get through the night without touching it

How's everyone doing?

helo.i was giong to bed but cant be bohthered.

Am still here IWNLTBM.
You still around, if you fancy a chat?

hi htere.sory am abit drunk.

it's okay...how are you feeling?? apart from drunk?

do you feel you are addicted, or fancy a binge now and then? I'm in the same boat so can we row together

oh i drnik to forget evrything.i dnot nknow if ive got a real prpoblem or not tbh.

how much do you drink hun?
is it every night?

sorry for all the questions. I'm an every day kinda drinker, used to drink to forget everything, numb the pain...now it's just a pain in the arse that I can't kick!

could you tell me a little bit more about your drinking habits, and maybe we can work through it together?
And I'm very sure some of the other posters will be along soon with all their knowledge to help you better than I can.

i drnik a botle or 2 a nihgt everynight.i drnik alone.i am alne.ive got alot on tbh.

every night for how long hun?

I'm a solitary drinker too, and every night although getting better now.
Have you thought about going to AA, or making the most of your local councils alcohol services? Or even going to see your GP.

A bottle or 2 a night isn't good, and I'm sure if you didn't think it was a problem, you would'nt be posting I'm sure.
How do your dc's feel about it or are they too young?
Do you have a job?

I've been drinking solidly pretty much for 3 years or so, every night, alone. I am alone in rl too..just me and the dd's.
You are not alone anymore, please keep posting x x

I'm worried now. I drink every day. Sometimes in the morning I think that I won't drink tonight , but come the evening I have to have a drink or 3 (usualy more) to relax. I am a bit drunk now.

Hi weebee, how's you? Nice to meet you.

In the morning I really punish myself for the night before. Guilt for my dd's, not getting anything done. I always tell myself I won't drink tonight. Usually the drink wins. BUT, saying that, the very few nights I have been to bed sober (that thought terrifies me in itself) I have woken up the next day guilt free and ready to tackle anything. Even answered the phone to creditors, wrote letters, posted things off etc etc, instead of spending the whole day in bed..which is my preferred choice.

God, I feel such a hypocrite posting all this and helping others tonight, when I've had a drink too.
I was never worried about my drinking before, even amidst the chaos, fractured fingers, broken toes and being a total feckin' loon that it brings. It was onyl when dd1 siad something...and subsequent things happened, that I have to do this.

it's not final, it's just for today. It does help, sometimes.

I'm the same. I always think it's bad to be drinking in the evenings but do it probably 6 nights out of seven, sometimes even early afternoon. For the same reasons aswell, to numb things.

Sounds bad , but iust poppin down to get a drink , back in a mo

Hi Bachelor and berrie.

I drink to numb things too, but you know what?
It never goes away. The anguish and depression, it never goes. It just gets worse and worse.
Having an alcohol addiction (which I freely admit to having) does not do wonders on the pocket either.
Weighs heavy on the heart and mind. The soul gets drowned in alcohol.

I always think it's bad to be drinking first thing in the morning really..to quell the shakes. That's one thing I've never done, although I opunish myself heavily for the night before.

How are you both doing right now? x x

HI purpleone, I have to be honest and say this is the first time I have ever even suggested I may have a problem. And even harder to admit is that it has taken me a long time to reply coz I am quite drunk now and have to correct my spelling etc

I've namechanged but you might recognise me, I'm shit to be honest. Today was the day I finally gave up on my marriage. I've got my best friend staying here with her 3 month old baby and they are in bed. I've had a whole bottle of wine and 6 bottles of beer. I feel shit.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=jG6TS2huZpI

2 month old baby god I'm drunk. What is wrong with me?

You know what?

I'm off to bed right now but think of this another way.

Somethign I used to enjoy, having a drink in a pub with freinds.
I journalled earlier privately. There is not one positive thing I have said on here or in my journal about drinking.
Can spend so much time on a habit that is gauranteed to make me feel like shit the next day without fail. The counsellor mentioned in her letter today that I also have to jot down a drink diary and feelings / associations I have with drinking.

I can guarantee there is not one damn positive thing. I'm sure others here feel the same way.
That one stupid little thing in a can has so much fucking control over me. My drink diary for this week is frankly appalling.

I blame Somerfields for thier 4 Blackthorn for £1.94 offer...it's my fault for feckin' buying it.

I'm going to bed before I analyse myself far too much and get confuddled.
G'night everyone. May you all rest well tonight, keep safe and KEEP POSTING x x

OMG Bachelorette, I do have a feeling I know who you are.
In fact after seeing that link, I DO know. And we met here.

Please, please please grab me on MSN, I have been worried about yyo