Can anyone chat to me? Desperately lonely.

[Needalisteningear]

I am so lonely. This is going to be long.

My mum passed on xmas day last year. She had cancer and wasn't very old. She didn't die of cancer though, it was medical negligence.
My dad couldn't cope and moved to another country.
My ltr has just ended.
My kids are at their dads.
I have no friends. I've realised that. I have acquaintances from my dc groups. I've never really fit into friend groups. I was and still are, I suppose, hanging onto friend groups.
My past is an embarrassment (not my children) and I am so desperate to be happy that I just allow things that shouldn't happen in a relationship, to happen.
My life is a joke. The only good thing about it is my kids and tonight, I'm really struggling with loneliness.
I have no family left and the people who I have reached out to have finished the conversation after a couple of messages.
I suffer with ptsd and other mental health issues that stem from past relationships.

Is anyone around just to chat. Just so I can stop crying a bit?
Well done if you managed to read this far! And thank you x

Hello!

I'm not very good at making friends. I have lots of people I can chat to if we are at the same thing at the same time like kids activities etc but no one I do anything with outside of that.

I'm happy to chat about anything you like. To start us off I am currently trapped under my cat and really want to move because me feet are in a draft andnI am worrying about my oldest DS as he has went to nearby big city with his girlfriend and he isnt very street smart. Apart from this post what are you up to?

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way and I'm sure to your kids you mean the absolute world.
What I have found in life is that negative thinking breeds more negative thinking ( I have and still am guilty of that) but the opposite is also true.
Can you start by doing one positive thing tonight? Write a list of the hood things you have going. Then tomorrow write how you would like your life to be, the next night how you think you could achieve that. Take baby steps and slowly the positive thinking will over shadow the negative.

Hello! And thank you 😊

Oh you poor thing. Loneliness can be so hard.
I'm going to try to switch your mindset. You can tell me to piss off.
You have your lovely kids. I know they aren't there today but you have them and theyre yours and they love you and you love them.
When you have time without them, rather than focus on the negatives focus on the positives...what can you do without them? Watch grown up tv? Play grown up music? Go to a gym class or a craft class?
What do you like doing? Happy to chat

Hi @Needalisteningear I'm around for a bit.

You are not alone

Hi OP, I’ve been in a similar boat before.

Do you work, and what are your interests?

If you like reading look for a local book club, they’re great for meeting people and reading the book could be a good distraction for the evenings your kids are at their dads.

Hi! Life is shit sometimes. Very very sorry about your DM in particular and also that you are feeling so down.
what would you like to chat about?
Would you like to say more about how you are feeling? I’m listening.

Hiya lovely I am really shitty with words but I'm sad to read your experiences recently.
As I'm shite at constructive conversation and anything meaningful I'll perhaps ask a random question.
What's your coffee shop order?
I've recently fallen for a four shot blonde latte with coconut milk white mocha sauce and vanilla syrup my husband refuses to order it as he knows he will somehow get confused and just order black coffee 😆

What sort of things do you like to do? Do you like a bit of TV or reading as others have said? Must be tough feeling like that 💐

Hello!

I really enjoyed Ludwig on tv
It's on i player . Might take your mind off things ..

You can PM me if you like. I have been through PTSD and the cancer death of my mom, which I also believe had an element of medical negligence to it. I also ended a very long marriage several years ago.
So I understand what you're going through.

I'm here op, what do you want to chat about? X

Hello love. Have you watched any series lately? Like a pp I'm really enjoying Ludwig!

I'm so sorry OP. It sounds like you've had a really tough time of it. What kind of things would you really like to do if you could? I'd love to learn to draw, paint or learn to play the piano. It's on my list but it never gets near enough to the top. Maybe one day.

Here and listening.

Just to say too, keep up the effort with reaching out to friends. You may not get much back tonight as Saturday night is often family or going out time, but you will hopefully see results longer term if you keep at it. Building good friendships takes a lot of time and effort and often making the first move more than is your fair share too. Hang in there.

https://www.comedy.co.uk/tv/ludwig/

I'm thinking of you xx

You sound very similar, although I've never been part of a real group of friends. Always feel slightly like the outsider. They're also not people who I can cry to and share emotions with!

Aw, I love cats. I have just got two kittens and I'm trying to work out a way that those and my elderly dog will get on. I've had them for four days. I have a girl and a boy and they were just going to possibly be put down as nobody wanted them. I always planned to get a cat, just maybe not two and when my dog passed away. It's all a bit chaotic.
It's freezing tonight where I am in the UK, I'm not sure about other parts of UK/world! I crumbled and put the heating on and I'm sat under a blanket. It's also pouring down
Oh no, does the worry about your dcs ever go? My mum said she always worried even when I was an adult with dc. I always thought she was being daft. I can see where she is coming from now!
I've just kind of been crying with my dog (who is probably crying with me about the arrival of kittens) with a cup of tea, trying to motivate myself to move a half shut monopoly board on the table after a pretty fraught game with the dc. It only lasted 10 minutes today before it started getting tense and I am going to get rid of the thing, it causes so much stress.

Sorry for the very long reply. I'm trying to keep my mind busy.

Thank you so, so much x

Just wanted to say hello. Easy to think everyone else is having fun in situations like this. You aren't alone. Lots of lovely people here care and wish you well

You sound at a low ebb. Losing a parent is so hard. You’re grieving, please cut yourself some slack 💐

Oh heck monopoly causes the same level of strife in my house. Two kittens sounds lovely. I love cats as well.

Wow OP two new kittens! That sounds a handful but also very cute.

Also agreed, monopoly is a terrible game!! What ages are your children? Maybe we can suggest some new ones

You'll have to share a kitten pic now op! X