General support thread - come on in

[Kielyflower]

I couldn’t see a recent one of these so thought I’d start one.

I just feel I need to do something positive so will hopefully share some more thoughts later that I hope will help - others as well as myself.

In the meantime, feel free to check in as, if nothing else, it helps to feel less alone.

@Ilovedogs1 I hear you but in my experience you need to do what you need to do to ease it at the time. There's always going to be something to worry about so If you can ease one thing then I say sod it x

@Jk24 going back to your challenging the thoughts thing the last time I suffered with this theme the therapist I was seeing at the time said about challenging these thoughts. She said if I had put a cat in the bin to ask myself 'where did I get it from' 'what colour was it ' etc and that I wouldn't have any answers to this because it hasnt happened. I'm just so exhausted fighting this every day atm.

@Ilovedogs1 she's right there's no evidence there's a cat in the bin. I challenge all my thoughts but just thinking If it's one you can rule out physically it helps me sometimes. Well done for reaching out though. I'm having a shit day too it's hard isn't it x

Evening all. Another one having a hard day. Trying to apply for assistance allowance (think that’s what it’s called) for my mum and put in place what she wants to happen if she becomes really ill. I’m shattered and sore now.
Hoping tomorrow is better for us all. Looking forward to a dog walk in our favourite place.

@Wolfiefan I hope you manage to get everything sorted. Plenty of rest tonight x

Hmm. Rest? Dogs were awake at 4:40 this morning. Right now it’s wine and a good book!

Oh no!!!! They would have gone out for a wee and back to bed 😂

Er no. The giant hounds would want cuddles, breakfast, cuddles, wees. And then the cats would want feeding, medicating, to go out and then come in. By which time the teenager needs to get up for school. 🥴

Oh gosh. I feel for you. My boy would sometimes get up in the night and would go for a wee and back to bed thankfully. You must be shattered x

How is everyone today?

I'm due on my period soon and my anxiety is sky high.

I'm sensitive to sounds, smells.

Everything is too loud.

I'm annoyed and overwhelmed. And I have a HUGELY busy day.

I hope you're all having a good one.

Feeling very anxious today. I would like a quiet, peaceful brain that isnt constantly questioning stuff.😕

On my own with DD today and she’s making life very difficult for me and won’t nap! I even drove her in the car for 30mins but she wouldn’t fall asleep! Just had a little cry because everything just feels so hard atm and I feel like I just want to run away and not be a mum anymore. It’s too much. Having to deal with all of this anxiety, OCD and depression and then my 2 year old DD all on my own. How am I ever supposed to work on myself and get better if I cant even get her to have a nap. Ready to give up at this point I’m so done with fighting every single day xxx

Sorry I can't be positive today I've had a tough week or 2 now. Cried last night and was awake every hour. Keep overthinking my convo with wolfi last night and wondering if I was a proper shit dog mum and when he scratched at the door at night did he want more than a wee and I've ignored his needs because I was too tired....

@Riley1989 can you take the 15 hours free childcare being offered and put her in nursery a few mornings? X

Of course you’re not a bad dog mum at all. Dogs naturally wake and move around during the night. Their sleep patterns are different to ours. If he really needed something he would have definitely let you know!
There’s a reason sleep deprivation is used as torture. It’s awful. Do you have any childcare at all. Is home start something that could help? My eldest wouldn’t nap and it was bloody awful.

Thank you @Wolfiefan my ocd has heightened a lot since losing my boy. Blaming myself. Thinking I was a shit dog mum for mistakes I made along the way etc. Torturing myself. Hope you're feeling better today x

It's really normal for grief to exacerbate mental health conditions especially ones that involve our thoughts.

'If only I...'
'Could I have?'

Your boy is at peace now and I hope you'll be able to find some peace soon too.

@JamSandle thank you. You're right. It's just so difficult. Constant doubt and self hatred.

How are you today? X

Morning all. How is everyone doing?

I'm a bit jittery but happy it's Friday. The sun is shining. I'm grateful for that. How are you feeling? And how are all of you lovely people feeling?

@Ilovedogs1 I was in a&e at 6am with ds hes got croup again! I'm exhausted so my thoughts are wild today. How are you?

@JamSandle well done on the positiveness! Have you got any plans for yourself this weekend?

I'm ok. Anxiety levels not to bad but intrusive thoughts still bothering me. I'm managing to keep them on the back burner for the most part and get on with stuff but I want more than that. I want clarity, calmness and peace of mind. Maybe I'm trying to rush things after being so ill last year. It's just that whatever thoughts I get and whatever I do to challenge them my mind always comes back with a counter argument, it always has a 'what if'. 🥱

@Ilovedogs1 I'm with you! Mine are mostly based around self blame though. What if I would have done xyz instead etc. Sometimes they're what if I accidentally ran someone over/hurt someone are can't remember but mostly atm it's all self blame.

You are coming out of a terrible time last year so give yourself a break you're doing great x

@Jk24 thank you for your kind words. Regarding your dog, you absolutely did the kindest thing for him although I know making that decision must of been so hard. X

@Ilovedogs1 thank you too. Yes losing ddog is always at the front of my mind amongst other things but thank you for saying that. How you feeling now? Wine time? X

Hi all, hope your day’s going ok.
my thoughts are a mess, I’m really struggling to think straight. I’ve a follow up f2f appointment next week and I really don’t want to go- I could barely talk the last time I spoke and I don’t think I’ll be much better this time. I have so many thoughts and feelings swirling around that I’m worried it sounds utter nonsense when I do speak. I’ve spent the last few weeks hiding away and avoiding people as much as possible. I feel really self conscious right now, I don’t know whether to cancel the appointment as it’s making me feel really anxious.