General support thread - come on in

[Kielyflower]

I couldn’t see a recent one of these so thought I’d start one.

I just feel I need to do something positive so will hopefully share some more thoughts later that I hope will help - others as well as myself.

In the meantime, feel free to check in as, if nothing else, it helps to feel less alone.

@Takemeback2thestart sorry I've had ds bday party today its been manic. Who's your appointment with a therapist? Please don't cancel, give it time. I honestly thought mine was a waste of time until we began intervention around my 4th appointment and its really helping. Hang in there x

I agree don’t cancel your appointment @Takemeback2thestart

Happy birthday to your DS @Jk24 did you cope with the party ok? I used to find them so stressful.

I am in really bad, quite angry, mood tonight, it’s been brewing all day. I have started eating really unhealthily too and sitting around too much. I’m convinced some of my bad habits are a form of mild self harm. Urgh.

Hopefully the start of a new week will help.

I hope others have a good start to the week.

@Kielyflower thank you and it was stressful as I'm full of a cold too so I nearly didn't go but how can I not go to my sons party...

Sorry you're feeling like this. Has anything triggered it? X

Hello ladies. Sorry haven't been about over the weekend, I've been working.
How is everyone today?
@Takemeback2thestart I agree, don't cancel your appointment. I've been to many appointments and just wailed my way through them. MH professionals have seen it all.
I'm wondering if there is such a thing as total peace and clarity. I'm doing ok but just got this constant, nagging anxiety feeling always there. X

Hiya all. I’m taking it extremely easily today. Completely overdid it yesterday. Took two dogs to Crufts. Both placed. I was really nervous and it’s brought on a real fibro flare up but I had such a great day!

@Jk24 no problem. Hope your lo had a lovely birthday. My appointment is with gp- I’ve not actually seen them for a while( just a brief phone call a few weeks back). I don’t know why they need to see me to be honest, I’ve nothing new to say; but im not sure they’ll keep prescribing the medication without seeing me.
I hate myself so much, I’m a pathetic failure.
I feel so sad.

@Jk24 hope your cold gets better soon.

I’m feeling a bit better now than on Sunday. A couple of triggers and I’m trying to think of the silver lining being that I am aware of them which is the first step to dealing with.

Hope those with appointments coming up get on ok.

Although it’s a stupid thing to say in many ways with mental health I do think it’s important to try to find silver linings and cultivate glimmers of optimism. Nearer the beginning of the thread someone spoke about glimmers and lots of us found that useful.

@Takemeback2thestart do you suffer with ocd? I resonate with some of your thoughts which is why I ask. You're not a pathetic failure at all. I wish you could see that. Please keep your gp appointment and ask about talking therapies. When is your appointment?

@Kielyflower glad you're feeling a bit better. You're so inspirational with your posts but don't always feel you need to be. Were all here to support you x

@Takemeback2thestart you are not a pathetic failure. The very fact you are reaching out and fighting shows your strength. X

@Ilovedogs1 @Wolfiefan hope you're both better today x

@Wolfiefan well done on Crufts. What dogs do you have?

@Jk24 thank you. Still feeling quite overwhelmed. I feel like my brain is on constant high alert, constantly thinking, analysing. Its exhausting. Not really sure how to deal with that other than to just try and roll with it. X

I feel like that too @Ilovedogs1

thanks everyone for the support and kind words. x

I'm in a poisonous and angry mood today. I feel I can't lean on or depend on anyone. I just want to push everyone away and tell them to F off. Feeling very angry about my luck lately.

@Jk24 appointment is tomorrow. I don’t know about the ocd- it’s never been mentioned. My only diagnosis is in the past has been GAD and depression.
Im just feeling incredibly self conscious at the minute and struggling to leave the house. I feel like everyone is judging me and thinking negative thoughts about me. For example, if I’m out and someone looks at me I automatically think they’re thinking I look ugly/ weird or stupid . I wouldn’t tell a doctor or therapist these thoughts because I’d then feel like they’d be thinking the same, or pity me( which I don’t want) .

@Takemeback2thestart that sounds like intrusive thoughts. It could be useful to mention them if that’s what they sound like. There are things you can do. And it’s a doctor’s job to help. They honestly don’t care what you look like. And it’s not weird to be unwell.

@Ilovedogs1 I have two wolfhounds. Adore them!! Exercise and being outside helps me. The dogs are great therapy!

@Takemeback2thestart I have a friend who is similar. She was diagnosed with social anxiety. Even popping to the shop for a loaf of bread completely stresses her out. The doctor won't think badly of you . I think well over 50 % of a Gp's caseload is probably MH related. X

Hi all, feeling so desperately low today 😢 trying to be present for my children but it’s so hard, I just want to curl up in a ball x

I'm going to try and answer everyone in one post so apologies if I don't cover all.

@Takemeback2thestart I often think this even at my place if work where I've been for nearly 13 years I think people are gossiping about me and making things up. I'm no gp but it could well be some ocd traits. Please be honestly with your gp. You wouldn't believe some of the conversations I've had with mine.

@JamSandle I'm sorry to read this. Can you speak to your dB? I'm here too if you want to pm.

@Wolfiefan hope you're fm is better today. Did you enter at Cruffs or watch?

@Ilovedogs1 would you benefit from some more talking therapy? Also pm if you want to speak to me ill be on and off tonight

@Whycantgiraffesdance I'm with you tonight hun I'm sat here crying while ds watches cartoons luckily he's not realised. Anything you want to talk about? X

Thank you @Jk24 I think I’m just fed up of feeling so anxious all the time, some days there’s just no relief from it! Waiting patiently for new ADs to kick in and currently not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel! How are u today? X

@Whycantgiraffesdance which meds are you on again and how long? I'm just in self hate mode atm so happy to talk it helps x

I’m on venaflaxine, been on them a few weeks, was on citalopram for years which kept me stable but they seemed to loose their affect so switched. Tried Setraline first but side effects were too awful so stopped those!

They can take up to 12 weeks I believe but for me they only do half the work. Anything particular triggering you today? X

I’m newly diagnosed PND and been under the home treatment team for a few weeks now, so no real triggers just still very early days in my recovery!

PND is tough. You're on another thread with me I forget my old user name is on this thread. I'm also under helplessandheartbroke. My intrusive thoughts kicked in 10 fold after my ds was born x