I don’t think I want to be here anymore

[Wafflingonagain]

Oh god I started to type this out but there’s so so much I can even include it all. I just thought I’m done

Hello Waffle. Glad you’re still here.

Well done for getting to the GP. I’m sorry you’re still struggling with stuff though.

It’s bloody hard isn’t it?

I am really glad to hear from you @Wafflingonagain. Good news on the meds front. Hoping you feel the benefit soon.

It must be hard right now. Is there something you can do that helps distract you, and provide the outlet you need? What has worked in the past?

Hi @Wafflingonagain I posted after your original post last week. Haven't been on MN during the week so only seeing your updates now.
So glad you got to the gp and your meds have been tweaked. Once you get the balance right it will change your life, the dark thoughts and dread will leave you. I know because I've been in the same situation and also had young children at the time.
At my worst, it was the mental health boards here on MN where I found the most support. Family and friends cared, but didn't understand. Here on MN I found others who had been through and were going through the same thing and it was so good to have someone who really understood.