Can someone 'sit' with me?

[Youtwohumpedcamel]

I have MH problems. This week I've been especially unwell.

It's all come to a head tonight. And I'm wanting to SH.

I don't really know exactly what I'm wanting from this thread. I feel incredibly lonely and I'm struggling with all my thoughts. I don't know what to do.

Can someone keep me company please?

I do that with biscuits/cereal bars. I really need to eat better, I often go a while without eating and tend to eat once a day. Not sure what I'm going to cook in it today, I need to get a few more ingredients. I'd only bought half by the time I had had enough in the shop.

My son is at the childminders today when they come out, I'm Hoping I'll feel a little more relaxed and be able to talk a little easier.

A bit mad, yes!! She suffers from bad anxiety, I try to be sympathetic but it's all too much. Wayyy too much!

I'm thinking of setting a steps goal, atm I tend to do 10-15,000 I'm thinking of setting myself a target a bit higher so that I'll hopefully get myself out in order to get more steps.

A bath makes Mr feel a little better, as does achieving things. When I actually do something I struggle doing, I feel good for having done it. I told the APT team about your emotional bank account theory and how much I'd understood that, and thats what we're using as part of getting me better, helping me do things to top it up. They thought it was fab too.

I've upped it myself slightly, but I see the psychiatrist next week for a meds review. Hopefully they can up it properly.

I have been writing in the notebook, mostly lists. I've a big list of all the things I need to do and things that will help me in the long term. And smaller separate lists. It helps to have it all in one place.

I hope you're having a good week

I think you're great. Absolutely brilliant and brave and marvellous.

Write yourself some praise in that notebook. I was competent today - I fed my DC, I kept my DC safe, I made sure they were warm and dry and clothed. I made sure we have a home to live in. I made sure I got them to bed in time to get a good sleep. I made them feel loved. I am a good Mum and my DC love me. I'm successful and responsible.

I took care of myself today. I ate some good food. I bought more good food for tomorrow. I took some exercise/had a bath/ticked something off my to do list. I am a capable loving good person who can look after myself well.

It's a bit simplistic but you get the idea. It might help you to recognise all the things you do right and how able you are. You should feel pleased with yourself.

My week is fine. I like this sunny cold weather - It's better than everything being grey and damp. Everything else is just the usual routine.

Try meditainment.com twice a day, changed my life! Total calm and relaxation with lovely stories. There are some free ones or you can pay to unlock the stories. Welcome Wood & Serenity spa are my favourites

Praise in the notebook sounds like a good idea.

I used to write all my achievements down in my phone. It helped loads. I don't know why I stopped.

I'm low, not unsafe, just a baseline of low, meh, pfft, blurghhh. I'll eat soon.

I think I need to try and plan my week next week a bit. Try and go out, push myself to do things.

I realised earlier that I'm better than when I started this thread. Which means I'm making progress, it might be slow, but that's ok, because any progress, no matter how slow it is, is still progress. And that's a positive.

inthekitchensink I'll take a look. Thanks.

That's great - I remember recently DH feeling like he was never going to feel better and I counted out some things to him that were definitely better and it gave him courage that there was improvement. I think that's a good thing about this thread, it's like a diary in a way. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better.

I saw a Martin Luther King Jr thing yesterday or today I'll try and find it now for you.

Found it.

That quote is brilliant. It is somewhat like a diary.

Today I'm feeling.... Ok not just managing, but actually I feel ok.

I have sorted a major issue that's been going on with my son's Dad and he's now having contact. The first time in 8 months! And we've come to an arrangement about regular contact.

I saw my friend, and that was ok.

The house is tidy, children are content, and a beef and veg stew is bubbling away in the slow cooker.

I know it's still a way to actually being better, but right now. I'm ok. And that's really good.

I'm so pleased to read that. Really delighted for you.

Hope you've had a good day today, Camel.

Just checking in to see how you are.

Very pleased to hear you’re doing well OP.

Thinking of you Camel.

Hi,

I'm sorry I haven't come back for a little while. We've all had a virus

I'm doing good, actually good. I was discharged as such from admission prevention team today, 2 weeks earlier than first thought

I'm doing good, and I'm recovering. I had a good appointment with my psychiatrist and I'm really positive.

I've been through so much in life, and it's always going to be there, but I can't let it drag me down, I've got my 2 kids who need their mum. I'm sorting out our routine, have made some more time for myself, and I'm planning things again. Things with the kids and things just for me too 😁 I'm going to the cinema tomorrow and I can't wait. I'm hoping to go to some groups and meet other mums.

I've had so many people try and drag me down and it's time I turned round and told them to STFU. I am going to do this, this year I'm going to focus on my children, being a family, eating right, getting some exercise, have fun and enjoy my kids, making friends, making memories. I'm going to cut out the negative. And top that bank account right up.

I've got this, I can do this, and I deserve it just as much as the next person, I think, that's a work in progress! But I'll get there.

I can't thank everyone enough, i think Mumsnet may have saved my life, I still have a way to go, but I'm positive I can get better. I'm positive about the future and looking forward to it.

I'm going to see my CPN more until I'm a bit further along the recovery road, but I've had a good week and I'm no longer in that deep dark hole.

I am so glad for you! You sound really upbeat. Sorry you've all had a virus though! And don't feel obliged to give updates, as before just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you.

I love you saying I deserve it just as much as the next person because you most certainly do and it's great to hear you saying it. Sending you loads of good thoughts. I'm really really happy for you. Well done to you!