Sweet, it doesn't make the blind bit of difference if you don't know where he is now. He'll be shacked up somewhere/someone keeping himself safe, he proves time and time again he doesn't think or care about you.
It's going to be bloody difficult but I hope you can speak to the police. You're such a lovely woman, who is scared, lost, confused. You deserve the world OP! And it's time you let people who show you and support you,that you are worth it and deserve it!
You owe it to yourself!! You opened up when you sought medical attention. You deserve to wake up every morning knowing you're free!
OP you need to escape all this pain, suffering, you're torturing yourself and you're allowing it. I've read time an time again what you've been through, this is your time to break free and start all over.
It's a scary thought I know, but imagine waking up, or going out to the shops or wherever and not having to worry what awaits you when you put you key in the door
No more going to the hospital due to internal bleeding, the repercussions of that monster.
I can't say I know exactly what you're going through but I've been through a situation that changed my whole entire life when I was younger,I never EVER thought I'd get through it, but you know what, with the right help and support I did ! You won't think it but you deserve everything, down to the tiniest little bit of happiness! It's easy to just sit back and put up with the abuse, the lifestyle you've been accustomed to, but NOW you have the chance to change it and for the better
I doubt you will but I hope you read this. If There is any post I've ever read on here that has effected me so much and I've wished would turn around and they got away and safe, it's you OP!
Be that caterpillar who transforms into the most beautiful butterfly! Xx