I am falling apart

[Aveiam]

I can't calm down and I have the worst thoughts, I am actually just falling apart and I have no one literally no one to help me, I don't know why to do

You poor thing, do you think you should get checked out again if it was afterwards that you brought blood up?

Does he normally live with you?

And you aren't stupid

No apologies required here Aveiam. Have you thrown up blood today? Since you went to A & E?

Yes I been throwing up blood lots but it's happened before and I'm alright. He does usually live here yes

When you say before do you mean when he hurt you previously or because of some other condition?

I think it's when he has hurt me before.
He still hasn't come back yet I'm not sure what to do

Did you try emailing women's aid? We're all here for you x

I don't know what to write I don't think I can write it all down.. he has called me loads this evening and I feel sick and shaky

I think you should call again then. Leave a message with a safe time that they can contact you if they do not answer

Evening Aveiam, how are you?

I took some time to read your previous posts, oh luv what a difficult and traumatic few years you have had. So sorry to learn about your loss of your little girl and your Mum? (Sorry I'm not quite clear on your Mums situation.) Either way that's ever such a lot for a young woman to cope with let alone struggling with MH issues and the violent abuse you are coping with too.

It makes me want to scoop you up and take you somewhere very, very safe.

Any news regarding 'him'?

Sorry cross posting since your last.

I will call them again yes he's calling and calling and calling he won't stop calling it's making me panic I have had a massive panic attack already

The house/flat that you're in, is it in your name or his or someone else?

Are you working at the mo?

We're here for you every step. I wish we could just scoop you up and take you away from all the shit x

❤

How are you this evening Aveiam?

I'm still working the flat is in my name I haven't been able to do anything

Has he been back since? Have you managed to eat and drink today? X

How are you Aveiam ? Has he been back? Are you safe? Xx

He's still not come back I don't know what to do or think I am scared

Are you still throwing up blood, sweet?

Do you think you could call women's aid?

Keep talking to us! You'll get through this ! Xxx

I've been admitted to hospital x

They think there is an internal bleed somewhere

Oh sweetheart, I'm so sorry to hear that buy at the same time I'm so glad you're there. They will help you and get you better. Please PLEASE try and speak to someone there so you can get some extra help! And please keep talking with us

Xxxxx

I'm meant to see a sexual violence advisor and a domestic abuse worker I am just waiting here I don't know

Well just keep strong sweetheart! Atleast you're safe! I'm sure someone will be along shortly to see you xx

Have the doctors found out if it's internal bleeding?

Most importantly, how are you feeling? Xx