I drank almost a full bottle of lactulos due to the fact I've gained weight :(

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Hello. Thanks for reading.

Yes. I'm serious. No I'm not joking. Yes I understand this was a bad idea. But I am very logical person but I had a moment were I weighed myself. Realised I'd gained 4 lbs. And I started boiling over. I grabbed the bottle poured it into a cup and downed it. This was 2 hours ago. I've had lactulos before but usually the correct amount and didn't start working till next day. In this case I've been sat on the toilet for 30 minutes going like water.

I was just so angry. I have weigh in at my gp tommorow and I've put on 4lbs!!! I'm so upset. And no. I'm not shallow. It's not even about how I look. This is just not going well. I don't abuse laxatives usually. Only done it once before recently maybe three weeks ago. But didn't drink this much. When I was younger I had extreme issues with making myself sick. But don't do that now. I have no idea why I did this with lactulos. Or how I lost that much control to drink that much. Now my tummy is killing me. You wouldn't believe I'm a mother. ( no my kids didn't see me do this they are with there dad) but I'm not a teenager anymore. So I shouldn't even Consider doing this. But I didn't even think.. What is going on.

I'm just going to say how much I weigh on here really Olivia? :p think I'm humiliated enough hehe.

I lost don't you worry! I'm an adult it is my responsibility to research before taking advice online. I apreciate the advice. :) don't worry I'm not doing lighter life. But I really apreciate ideas and options. And it's very nice of you xx

Olivia. To start my goal is 2 more stone. Il be happy with losing two stone. And then the rest il get of slowely.

My goal weight for the future say years down the line is 8 stones.

My realistic goal before I do the slow loss thing is 2 stone. And a little bit.

But the not beinf able to lose weight because my metabolism is very slow due to my dodgy eating habits is very real and true. Take that four lb weight gain even though I was eating under a 1000 and only eating 2 out of 5 days. My body is just so slow.

No, your body is reacting to you starving yourself. That's why you gained.

Losing 2 stone really quickly won't happen, and in the mean time your mental and physical health will get worse.

Sorry to be blunt but this is the disordered thinking.

Please don't feel as though saying your weight would be humiliating. I appreciate its personal, but no one will judge.

How tall are you op? I doubt 8 stone is a realistic or healthy target, you are aiming to lose at least 1/3 of your body weight in just a few months. It is simply not sustainable. Diet and weight loss are only part of the picture. Have you discussed your overall objectives with the HCPs? Crash dieting etc will only skew your blood tests further and clearly is messing with your mind.

Oh no. Not planning to get to 8 stone in a few months. I'm fine with that taking years. I'm realistic about that.

Just the two stone. I don't want to take years

I'm very short.

And liz no my gp I said my goal is 2 stone which is true. :)

8 stone. Is still within normal range for BMi

I think I'm just getting to old to live like this. Or my body is shocked as I've not done this in a long time. Because despite how long I did it I mean more than 10 years my bloods were always normal. So this is bizzare how it's effecting me now. But it is scary. So I will stop with the biggest habits previously mentioned.

Next week Monday. Il try excersise and eating more.

The problem with crash dieting is that you lose a lot of muscle - and muscle is great at burning off calories. Losing that first 2 stone incredibly quickly runs the risk of making the next however many stone harder to shift.

I understand. I ate three meals today. No attempts to remove it from my body. I'm working on change.

Three healthy meals

Excersise equipment coming tommorow.

I've entered calories for tommorow. And I'm at.. One min 595 calories. For the three meals. Today I was in at. 708 :/. I will eat every single day this week. And see how bad this will be. No diet pills. Or laxatives.

I hope someone can put the excersise equipment together . I think il try to excersise three times a day.

All the meals in Container for tommorow and the day after. I can't just see how I feel when I get to the fridge. I've written everything down. So I have food organised for the week.

Glad you have a plan op, but I am worried you are obsessing over calories.

Also, Please don't exercise 3 times a day if you are eating less than 1000 calories, it's not healthy. I'm worried you are obsessing over exercise.

Have you contacted any of the charities?

Oh no not obsessing over excersise. I haven't started yet! I just worked out. Three meals three goes at exsersing so I won't gain. And well I rang one charity. But I didnf say much. I felt a bit silly. Will try again another time. Bit harder talking on the phone. I can't say anything

How are you Olivia?

I did realise yesterday that from what youe all saying. I do have a problem with just wanting a quick fix. And because I've been so lazy and not excsesising ( well not in this cycle) thats why I've been doing really negative habits. But I know you need to excersise and eat food. Not just not eat etc or do those stupid things. Usually I never do excersise till I'm alot smaller but maybe this will help. Me stop pushing myself to the edge. I've felt miserable eating today. I'm just feeling so crap.

I'm fine thank you for asking.

Please don't equate eating with the need to exercise the same amount. That is your disordered thinking again I'm afraid.

Be kind to yourself too. You sound lovely, I'm so pleased you did call up a charity. Did it help at all?

And yes you are right that it's not a quick fix.