I drank almost a full bottle of lactulos due to the fact I've gained weight :(

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Hello. Thanks for reading.

Yes. I'm serious. No I'm not joking. Yes I understand this was a bad idea. But I am very logical person but I had a moment were I weighed myself. Realised I'd gained 4 lbs. And I started boiling over. I grabbed the bottle poured it into a cup and downed it. This was 2 hours ago. I've had lactulos before but usually the correct amount and didn't start working till next day. In this case I've been sat on the toilet for 30 minutes going like water.

I was just so angry. I have weigh in at my gp tommorow and I've put on 4lbs!!! I'm so upset. And no. I'm not shallow. It's not even about how I look. This is just not going well. I don't abuse laxatives usually. Only done it once before recently maybe three weeks ago. But didn't drink this much. When I was younger I had extreme issues with making myself sick. But don't do that now. I have no idea why I did this with lactulos. Or how I lost that much control to drink that much. Now my tummy is killing me. You wouldn't believe I'm a mother. ( no my kids didn't see me do this they are with there dad) but I'm not a teenager anymore. So I shouldn't even Consider doing this. But I didn't even think.. What is going on.

Are you going to be in a fit state to look after the kids when they're back from their dad's?

The 4lbs is likely to be water. You were probably dehydrated, just think how heavy a bucket of water is to lift.

Your doctor will hopefully give you some advice and refer for counselling or to a clinic and perhaps reconsider what you have been prescribed. It will help to be open with them and talk it through.

You must realise you're not thinking rationally about this. I think it could be linked to OCD or obsessive behaviour so don't think it's your fault. There's no shame in asking for help. It would be good to tell your family and friends if you can so you have as much support as possible.

Anyway I'm sure my head will be back to normal tommorow. Thank you all. Sorry to put this on you all. I do feel bad. I was just so confused as it seem to happen so fast. This is a sign of relapse but I won't let it be. Now I know. I'm going to try and stop

Stick dm. That's all fine. I'd never put kidd in danger etc etc. They are staying over his and he is taken them tommorow morning. Il not see them till tomorrow evening. Thank you though

You must drink water. Forget about your weight for now. You are at risk of laxative overdose and dehyration that can make you very ill. Can you tell anyone in RL what you have done so they can check in on you?

Tell my family and friends?!!!! Oh my. Never ever ever ever. Oh no. Goodness me. That would never happen. Ever. Something I would never considered. Especially for this minor blip. :)

Despite me telling the whole of the Internet about this embarrassing occurance. It might be hard to believe but I'm pretty private about my strange habits. And have withdrawn myself from my friends for the last hmm 2 months when I started noticing my mind going strange.

And yes I think your right. In regards to it being linked to my ocd. But I am used to the things that come with my ocd not related to my eating yiu know because I've had a break from that. So I can deal with the erational things that pop in my head. And make it logical and change it around.

But because I have not practiced an answer for this the way I have done with my ocd and my usual thoughts. If that makes sence.

Tommorow. I'm getting some diorolyre or something you take that replaces your electrolytes. This is just not the time for this because I also have bloods on Monday because my last thing that made me lose the two stone caused my bloods to show dodgy results so they want to repeat them . Such a nightmare. That's what shocked me into eating more. And now I have given myself another problem on my hands

You're right, it is possible to deal with your irrational thoughts using coping strategies and your doctor can help you with that.
Look after yourself. I have to go now but give yourself some relief from all this with a distraction for now, a favourite film or book?
Good luck with everything

Thank you so much I lost. Il watch some big brother if things settle down a bit. Your very helpful. Thank you so much

What will your GP do? They might suggest/review medication for your OCD. They might offer CBT with a particular focus on eating disorders. They could suggest self-help websites/books or organisations that you can contact. They will listen and support you confidentially, and answer any questions you have. They will have seen people with similar difficulties many times before and know how to help.

I went I wish I didnf. Was useless.

The laxative did nothing to shift the four lbs. I even wore a hoodie with my heater on at the side of my bed to try and sweat some water weight out. Nothing. I went and as I said it was 4 lbs I've gained. When I only ate a few days last week. I'm so pissed off. I feel humiliated for even going. I told her I won't be taking the useless tablets anymore. And she said are u coming next week I said not sure yet she said okay well make sure you cancel at reception if ur not coming . Thanks. I bloody will. What the hell was the point. Just so she can log my 4lb weight gain and for her to tell me to keep at it. And that it's unusual to continue at the rate I was going I bloody barely ate but didn't make my self sick. And when I did eat I didn't go over 1000 calories. And yet here the freak I am. 4 lbs heavier. I tried but I'm not going to come next week to be humiliated again if I don't lose this stupid weight I gained. I feel like crap.

Was this a nurse you saw today? Can you make an appointment with a GP, even if it's a telephone appointment so you can just chat to them from your own home? They may have a different perspective. Please don't be put off by today's appointment, you deserve to get better!

There are other organisations you could talk to, e.g.

ABC offers a telephone helpline, email support line, regional support and a befrienders scheme

Beat has a helpline, online support groups and email helpline: [email protected] Here is their leaflet on Living without laxatives

I just hate this. Why do I have to suffer so much for something but it's all for nothing

She's we wearing a nurse uniform. But I am not convinced she's actually a nurse. Seen as she had to get someone else to prescribe the alistst she's a pracrionerr but she seems to only do weigh in a and bloods I don't know. I feel rotten.

Someone said the four lbs is likely to be water so why didnf come out yesterday when I practically pooed my life away! Its fat and the woman didn't believe I've not been stuffing my face to put that four lbs on I don't blame her. One lbs is like 3000 calories I've not eaten every day and barely go over 1000 yet here the weight is why would she believe me. I don't know what I'm going f to do this week

Did you tell the nurse what you had done?

You probably 'gained' 4lbs as you were dehydrated last time. I know you won't tell us how you lost 2 stone, but it probably wasn't real fat loss.

I think you need to be seeing different hc professionals as these ones sound weirdly crap if they haven't flagged your weightloss as a cause for concern.

I'm sat in my car. I'm going home now. If me not eating wasn't effecting my blood results it's a day like this thst would drive me to make sure no excuses I lose weight for thst next weigh In. I just don't know what to do I hate feeling like this

Ethel. Sorry to break it to you. But if a slim person went in and lost that amount. They would be concerned. Someone as big as me you get a weldone and a pat on the back because at the end of the day I'm reducing my BMi. And I can tell you when you do what I did for as long as I did. After the first week and a half it hundred perfect is fat loss how do I know? Because there are these cool weigh in scales that calculates your amount of fat.

But yes I probably was not having as much water as i have on board now. I can understand that. But in my head. It doesn't matter to me why the weigh is put on. Or whether it's water. The scale has still gone up. And I hate it. You certainly don't lose 2 stones of water.

You need some proper help and support. Giving someone with your history diet pills is insanity and no good doctor would do it.

Please go and see someone else and tell them everything. You need proper support, counseling and help to get to and maintain a HEALTHY weight, whichever way that is from where you are now.

It breaks my heart to read this. I was like this as well. I wanted to tear my own skin off. You need proper help. These guys are brilliant if your GP is rubbish. www.b-eat.co.uk/ Please seek some support. There is a way out.

There for sure not crap. The woman I did see today did say the rate I lost the weight is not sustainable in the long run she's right. But she still was pretty happy with me that I'd been able to do it. Though she said she's never seen someone lose that weight in that time. Then to me that sounds like a challenge. Like she wants me to do it again. And I want to do it again the urge to just do it. Is so powerful right now. I actually suffered so bad near the end. But now.. Now I feel I am so disgusting. I feel I should suffer again like that's all I diserve

There are healthy ways to loose weight if you need to. I was very overweight when in the middle of an eating disorder. No one took me seriously at first because I was "too fat to have an issue" There is a way to be healthy and this is not it.

Not big and not cleaver. Thank u. I just don't know what to do. I'd love to maintain a healthy weight. Bur right now Im over weight. How did yiu get out of this?? I just can't even think of what to do. I'm still sat in my car.

It isn't sustainable that's right. Please don't take it as a challenge to do it again. The reason people don't usually manage it is because it is extreme and NOT A GOOD IDEA. The problem is it WILL go back on then you will feel even worse then you will become extreme in loosing it again and you end up in an unhealthy viscous cycle of destruction. Please get help to break this and get to your healthy weight SENSIBLY.