I drank almost a full bottle of lactulos due to the fact I've gained weight :(

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Hello. Thanks for reading.

Yes. I'm serious. No I'm not joking. Yes I understand this was a bad idea. But I am very logical person but I had a moment were I weighed myself. Realised I'd gained 4 lbs. And I started boiling over. I grabbed the bottle poured it into a cup and downed it. This was 2 hours ago. I've had lactulos before but usually the correct amount and didn't start working till next day. In this case I've been sat on the toilet for 30 minutes going like water.

I was just so angry. I have weigh in at my gp tommorow and I've put on 4lbs!!! I'm so upset. And no. I'm not shallow. It's not even about how I look. This is just not going well. I don't abuse laxatives usually. Only done it once before recently maybe three weeks ago. But didn't drink this much. When I was younger I had extreme issues with making myself sick. But don't do that now. I have no idea why I did this with lactulos. Or how I lost that much control to drink that much. Now my tummy is killing me. You wouldn't believe I'm a mother. ( no my kids didn't see me do this they are with there dad) but I'm not a teenager anymore. So I shouldn't even Consider doing this. But I didn't even think.. What is going on.

I know this sounds made up. Because It sounds to stupid to be true. But there isn't anything I can do about that.

Lovely you are not disappointing anyone. You're having a hard time. If you had had a bad back and it came back would you not want to talk to the doctor about that? It's just the same.

I can't find anything about overdose but you need to drink lots of water as it pulls the water into your bowels and can dehydrate you.

Only you are suggesting it is made up. Why do you even have lactulose in the house?

I can tell you. I'm pretty sure it's obvious I didn't lose weight. Eating healthy because when I took one of my kids in for a check up. On the way out the Dr said " are you okay?" I said " me? Yes I'm great why?" she said "looks like you've lost alot of weight since I last saw you" I said " yes I have" she asked how much " I said about two stone" she said "wow how' I said" hmm I'm not saying " she jokingly said" good idea don't tell me I've known you far to long to know what your like " she didn't seem worried. But I am known for my extreme personality all or nothing personality. She didn't seem worried though. And she knows everything about me. So maybe she thinks it will sort it self out. But she did tell me to book in and thst I could get alistat. That's how I ended up getting it the next time I came.

Liz. I have lactulos on prescription. As I have medication for pain that causes constipation. Oral morphine and others. And no my comment about it being made up was in responce to someone who said " how dis you loss the weight.. If its true"

Can you clarify this for me? I think I've got it

You lost two stone in three weeks including one heavy dose of laxatives

You've bumped into the go who gave you alistat? When was that? Are you still taking it plus the lactulose?

I'm not meaning to pry but are you very overweight, I don't think alistat is recommended unless you are

Rj don't worry have that covered. Hehe lots of water tea and cofee I'm drinking. :) I just wish I regretted my actions so I won't do this again. I can tell myself I won't do this again. But I feel like a teenager. I have no restrictions. No one to stop me. So why shouldn't I do it again? Because it's not healthy duh. But I knew that. And my tummy hurts so bad. But my head is like serves you right. For gaining that four lbs

People who doubt you clearly don't understand how extreme eating disorders can be. The good thing is you have come on here and talked about it, usually people try and keep it a secret through being ashamed. You know you have taken it too far, I think that is positive you recognise that. Continue to seek help for this as I am sure you are aware it is a slippery slope. Make sure you stay hydrated. You know this kind of behaviour will only ever impact you negatively, it is just about gaining control if it again. You can do it, you have been doing it. Just make sure you talk to a professional asap. I second also calling 111 to get advice just incase regarding the OD.

Rj very over weight. Because when I stopped starving myself and making myself sick when I was a teenager. And I became happy again. Then started binge eating. And realising I love food. Then binge eating without any way to remove it.. I just got fat. See its a bad cycle.

And yes today I took an extra alistat and the lactulos.

And it was a couple weeks ago I saw the one who told me about alistat. It was a week ago I went for my first weigh in with the nurse who then got the person r to prescribe the alistat. I didn't need to see a Dr. But the person who r prescribed also knows my history and had no concerns.

You are having a relapse of your eating disorder triggered by your weight loss. You need to talk to your gp urgently.

You gained 4lbs?

Unlikely.

It's also unlikely that you lost 2 stone in the time frame you state.

Perhaps you are losing and gaining a bit, but it's highly likely that the variations you are reporting are based on inaccurate readings.

And it's leading to quite a cocktail of drugs. Which doesn't sound good for you.

Please don't cancel the appointment.

As you have a history of eating disorder you really need to talk to the nurse. You are, presumably losing weight to get healthier and this is not getting you healthy.

Hi camberbert Queen. Thank you for your understanding. Oh your so right it is a slippery slope. It sneaked up on me this time. I was honestly just trying to make myself healthy. Then all of a sudden. These feelings have returned. I am disgusted with myself. I'm scared to eat. I want to throw up. The urge is so big. I feel so bad but to be honest I have made myself sick but only three times. But the two times I've eaten I didn't make my self sick. And I havs put on four lbs. I'm ashamed about this bit. But it seems using laxatives is just as bad as making your self sick. So no one is winning here. I don't want to need to do this. But I feel I need to. I don't know how this happened really. And don't worry I am drinking plenty of water so don't need 111. You are so so helpful and you don't understand how much your words help. Honestly. You are a wonderful person.

Moggy p. The scaled at my gp surgery. And scales at the hospital are not all tampered with. So I'm afraid the weight loss is accurate. But it is fine if you disagree with that information. The 4 lbs I've gained is accurate. As it includes water weight. When you lose weight how I did. And you start eating normal food. You gain water weight. As well as normal weigh back. So I expected 2 lbs. But not 4. But thanks for responding :) My concern here isn't my weight loss. I'm mainly concerned about this bad thing I did without thinking.

Coconut. I don't think she ment it in a mean way. But I'm extremely over weight. She perhaps thought that which is true over weight people lose weight faster when they make life changes in there diet. If I was normal weight I doubt she would find it funny. No one cares if your a dumpling like me.

Anrihop. Thanks for your responce. Now I realise I may have been having a minor relapse. I wonder if I can rein myself in. I don't understand how other people who had previous problems manage to succeed in losing weight without relapsing. Why has this even happened. It's just like I'm just not normal. There was no reason for this to happen. I'm not depressed.

Hi HZ - challenged in what way?

Is there any tips to rein myself back in. I really don't want to tell the Gp at this point. I am not in deep I don't think.

GrumpyMcGrumpFace, - thank you so much for sharing about yourself. It means alot. Your right. I do that the urge to make my self sick after I've eaten more than I think I should be allowed. Who makes that rule? I don't know. But I resist. And I stupidly thought. Laxatives is better than making myself sick. And that if I was to puke then that would mean I'm relapsing but if I use laxatives that would mean it's not ideal but weldone for not puking. But it's not a weldone. Why did I think this way? How are you doing now? You really do get it

Did you have counselling before when you had an eating disorder? ive watched my DD be in turmoil over her weight and the guilt attached - she is now recovering from bulimia (ended up about 3 stone heavier) and is starting on a healthy weight loss programme BUT it has taken 2 years for her to be ready and to address her issues with food. Please don't cancel your apt as you know deep down you need help and not just slimming pills. The nurse isn't going to be disappointed - that's how you feel and are projecting your guilt. Sending you gentle hugs and really hope you can get the help you need

It's very easy to loose 2/3lbs a day/2 stone in a couple of weeks if you know how, I belive you I have been there. It's not nice though and I am paying for it now

Matilida. Thanks for the information. Really apreciate it. My heart beats fine. Il buy some dirolyte from the shop tommorow

Assquarch. Right?!! See its pretty simple if you are willing so suffer and don't give a shit about your health. But people can't see that it's unfathomable. But those almost three weeks I suffered so bad. Your paying for it now? Are you okay? What's happening for you hun?

It depends what worked for you before. Good routine? Having access to non triggering food? What helped you before? What triggered you now, you don't have to say but you need to identify it. Was it purely weight gain or are there other stressors? Figuring out your mind will help you gain control.

Telling the GP is your best bet to help yourself but I understand you may not want to at this stage. So give yourself a week, take note of any unhelpful behaviours. If you engage in these then make a pact with yourself that you do have an issue so you need to see the GP. It is easy to think you can "cure" yourself and promise yourself each time you won't do it again, but then fail. It sets up such an unhealthy cycle.

This will always be a journey for you. At times you will feel triggered, it is a coping mechanism. So have a good plan in place of what is helpful for you. If you are experiencing any negative thinking or negative thoughts, look up CBT online, I think you can even get an app. Help distract yourself from such thoughts or pick apart thoughts that are not helpful to you. That all prob doesn't make sense but all I could think of right now.