would you rather be Mentally Normal or fat?

[Mitchy1nge]

oi

I agree.

And I find that attempts to make myself un-fat are kind of useful in blocking out the even more destructive thoughts and voices and feelings.

But easier when you are on an even keel. It's all very circular and bound up.

'bound up' is the sad consequence of attacking your body fat too determinedly

I'm already fat and mentally umm sensitive at times (stress, anxiety, insomnia and foul temper) so I really don't know.

why is there never an option of slim, beautiful, well-off, healthy, smart & happy?

life is cruel zing

this is interesting though, leave you with it while I go for a short run

Oh dear, that was disconcerting viewing.

Is accuracy enforced in UK labelling?

If I watch it will it make me question everything I've ever believed?

You will be fine at Subway and Starbucks. Hold onto that.

But I don't eat at subway! No much choice.

Things wot I'm putting off doing:

• emailing DT
• writing a letter
• sorting out my car
• sorting out my life

There are more. Many more

Is Snowy about yet?

Send the email first. Then you will have done something.

It's a plan. If I don't send it, she will kick my arse!

and enpo, where is she at?

have to go crawling back to physio with my calf disorder

am scared they will say 'don't run' like they always do :(

I tend to ignore instructions like that (or ignore people who issue them)

have you sent that email?

am going to drown my sorrows in an omelette

need to see/speak to those cmht type people, they've left me intriguing voicemail

Do you have a reconvening appt or just to ring them back?

we were meant to reconvene at 11:30 but I genuinely forgot and went for a run. which went well, what with the sharp pain/can't walk properly now outcome

someone will call back, they said they NEED to talk to me about the results so maybe something interesting has happened

I suppose I could call them but must be easier if they do it at their convenience, am in all day now anyway, waiting for waitrose to bring me a lifetime supply of Fage 0%

what am I meant to do about my fucking calf

Ring them then ring the people who fix calves. Doctors?

Email sent, to explain that I'd forgotten what I was meant to be emailing about :/ Brain fog today.,,.

Well done Millie.
I've got dressed, after spending the morning staring at the wall/my eyelids and I'm going to go and write job applications. Thrilling.

have achieved CPN, finally, she doesn't understand the trauma that is a mild calf strain - a day off is not going to repair it, besides I had practically a whole week off last week

on plus side have scored some more lithium so should be a bit more normal for me soon

WooHoo! How much are they giving you now?
And
Want to write job applications for me?

I've ticked the box to say I have a disability so they HAVE to interview me. You can say what you want. Possibly.

1000mg, still lower than normal

oh please don't make me do that sort of thing