Full Mental Normality

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Kubricking it.

When do you get your blood test results?

I had mine done two weeks ago but the lab seem to have lost the sample so I have to go through the whole process again.

I've only just got out of bed, after a morning or staring at the wall. Now I want to conquer the world. Why does that happen?

MP, are the lunch visitors people you need to be "on top form" for or can you be how you need to be but dressed and out of bed

Has Millie been around recently? I hope she is ok.

Lunch visitors are old friends who know that I'm extremely mentally abnormal so will hopefully appreciate that I'm not in the best of form.

I'm now showered and dressed which is a good start.

Well done. You can have 35 points.

how annoying of them!

tomorrow morning, so plan is to reconvene then

when it's at an ok level everything else might still be shit but it should be easier to tackle

Well done on the shower and getting dressed.

How is everyone?

Dinner is in the oven, table is set , wine is open just waiting for friends to turn up at which point I will put on my best happy face.

no showering or any kind of wash here, am in same clothes have worn for last couple of days (and in which I slept last night) but have other achievements:

am home (#3 and her friend set up camp in the sitting room with a mattress and duvets in front of massive log fire and loads of sweets, cats and the spaniel, very nice to walk in on!)

have achieved looking at results of last year's race (the one am doing next Sunday) and some people took 3 hours or more so am very unlikely to be last

am mentally prepared for the rigours of driving #3's friend home, I just don't want to interact with people

how about you snowy, how is today compared to yesterday?

You can do it, mp

((( mitchy ))) It sounds like you're getting things done.

Today is similar

glad things are not severely worse

wish they were better though

is anything happening today?

Thanks. I'm struggling with intrusive thoughts about suicide (with specific methods, can't say here). I think people will break into my flat if I go to the day hospital.

what horrible thoughts to cope with :(

is there anything at all to break up the day a bit? I remember the home treatment team being quite good at sitting with me, trying to watch DVDs etc and their visits were really helpful in that way

I'll put James Bond on later, did have the tv on but I couldn't concentrate. Got music on. I've tried computer games, can't get into them. Just taken some more diazepam (it takes the edge off).

How's it going everyone?

I feel worse. Been doing things. How are you caulk?

I think I'm mirroring mitchys thing of wondering if I can find someone to kill me. I am however still knitting the blanket.
Have you got something on to watch? What time will the carers next be in?

I'm glad you're doing the blanket. I empathise re: wanting someone to kill you, hugs. I've got James Bond on (just starting), carers are in tonight.

If you want some utter trash, and have viva, catfish is on at 5.

thanks

I'm hiding in the bathroom. Lunch was nice and my guests are lovely people but I just can't seem to do it today. Would love to go back to bed on my own.

Oh dear mp How long are they staying?

Would they mind if you did that?can you text dp and say that's what you're doing to do?

I can't leave DP in that position and I don't want guests to think badly of me. Will pull myself together and go back downstairs. No point worrying people unnecessarily.

Hugs mp

I'm here, just struggling to keep up :D
Hugs to all