awful shock. not sure I want to be here.

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

Hello.

I was going to namechange but can't be bothered.

Just received a very upsetting email from a close relative (not the relative being abusive. I get on with them and love them. It's just the email contained some very upsetting news).

The last few years have been hard. My parents split up and there were lots of complications. Just as it looked as if things might get better I get this bomshell.

I am sorry. I know that I am being irritatingly cryptic but I have to get something out now or I will take an overdose or cut or something (I have cut in my life but have an urge to now). This is something which could destroy our family. I have already been struggling with depression but am on tablets and coping day to day. Generally feel ok. Now this. If I can think of ways to put details up without identifying myself I will but this is terrible and I am so sick of it.

Thanks for reading if you've got this far.

[Thumbwitch]

Oo Raft - acetone breath isn't a great thing, I'm sure you know that - but so long as you're managing to eat a bit more you should be ok.

Sorry I've been a bit quiet the last couple of days, I've got a cold/bronchitis and it's really taking it out of me in terms of reading and comprehending stuff, so I've only done easy things.

Glad you're taking the things you should be and hope that they take effect very soon xx

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

Oh don't worry Thumb you concentrate on getting better and come back when you're ready.

I know. It's a bit alarming but I am very far from fading away

[Thumbwitch]

- well make sure you don't lose muscle mass, which might be one of the things that the acetone breath is suggesting - ketosis can be breakdown of fat tissue though so could be good! Keep up your protein intake, that will save your muscles. Did you get any Complan or similar?

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

No too poor at the moment

I think my muscle mass is ok. I am fairly fit. I managed to eat some chicken today which wasn't too bad.

I am now on buscapan which is helping a bit,

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

Feeling a bit hyper why why why what is wrong with my brain/ I was going to go to bed knew i had to go but i suddenly had a lot of energy so didn't. now still have energy but depressed. i am going to try and read in bed.

i am fed up with myself.

[marriednotdead]

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

I'm all right. I forgot to take my rescue remedy. I think that calms me down.

[Sijeunessesavait]

Raft
I hope you will manage a good night's sleep tonight

[Raftofdeterminationandlove]

xxxxx