summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

[SomethingVicardThisWayComes]

well a well a well a oh tell me more tell me more.....

new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

[fluffydressinggown]

Well said collareddove. I have put the link to a new fresh thread, I hope people join me there so i am not billy no mates

[fluffydressinggown]

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2184847-Autumn-days-in-the-village-with-lots-of-support-for-all-kinds-of-MH-problems-depression-anxiety-OCD-psychosis-etc

[Katkins1]

This is all my fault for making people feel sick by talking about what I'm thinking and feeling. I shouldn't have come here in the first place, it's not the right place for me. But please understand, single parents with no support aroubd them are desperately lonely, and everything feels like critiscm; of their illness, of their way of parenting, of everything. I felt targeted for it, for not having a dh to look after things, and for loosing my dd for two months. The proffesionals said I'm making it up,when I'm not, it's only recently they have started to even take me a tiny bit seriously. I have no outside support, no one else to talk to at all because I can't get out and my whole life revolves around getting dd to school without hearing voices and seeing things, or being in pain. I didn't tell anyone in rl about the train thing because I know dd will be taken away from me and deep down somewhere, I think there is still some hope. Maybe one day I will take her to school and not be in agony, or spend all day thinking about suicide, I don't know. I think because I'm so lonely I got really attached to people on the thread, and probably too much. It wasn't my intent to be emotionally manipulative, whatever you might think. You have all been so nice to me. I spent an hour self harming last night, and didn't tell anyone except on this thread, because there is no one to tell. I've been making plans to kill myself since last week,maybe before that. J never asked for this illness, and cuts taken my whole life away and made me butter, twisted and manipulative. I hope and pray for you all that you are never ever alone with your children, like I am, and wish you all the very best in your life journey xxx

[NanaNina]

Keema - I agree with all you say in your post to Katkins - so sorry that she has chosen to post something that resonated with you, and reminded you of a time when you were so unwell you attempted to take your life. We need you to stay on the thread.

I actually don't approve of people posting their intent to end their life at a specific time, let alone talking about the method they are considering. There are many vulnerable people who use these threads and such things could trigger someone into similar thoughts, or as has happened here on this thread, remind someone of a time when they were very unwell and needed to be sectioned. I know I have posted many times about suicidal thoughts as have many others as they are a common symptom of severe depression, and it's important that these thoughts can "see the light of day" as it were, but that's a very different thing from talking explicitly about committing suicide and detailing the chosen method.

I would be interested in the view of MNHQ about the possibility of a request that posters don't actually post details of their intention to end their lives and the methods they are considering. What do others think?

I don't intend to engage with you again Katkins as I believe that this will present you with further opportunities to distort what I say and whilst this doesn't "really upset" me, I don't think that it would be helpful to you either. You maybe need to think before you make allegations of bullying, especially when they are completely without foundation.

SO ......where now. I shall stay on the thread and hope now that we can all move on. I have used this thread for a long time and this is the first time there has been anything of this kind.

[Katkins1]

I have decided registered my account, nana. I don't know why it's still letting me post, actually. My sincere apologies to you, I think it has become clear that I am too unwell to post on the threads, and that I need real life help.

[fluffydressinggown]

I apologise for talking about my suicide method I'm ashamed of myself

[Pulledapart]

Thanku to all who have been thinking of me today. Dad is doing well & is home - it turned out to be a mini stroke thankfully. No brain damage. He just needs plenty of rest now.

I'm completely run down - seem to have picked up some sort of cold virus so runny nose, head ache & sneezing away. About to have some beechams & then straight to bed. I'm not sure I'll even get up to drop DD to school tomorrow but right now I can't even think about that.

Really hope everyone has a peaceful night x

[Katkins1]

Me too, fluffy. But it's the illness that makes us say things like that. I think it was yours that triggered me, but I was heading that way anyway. May be Nana is right, and the policy should be a bit clearer for us. I am so sorry, Keema.

[NanaNina]

Fluffy you didn't talk explicitly about your suicide method, so please don't feel ashamed. You mentioned the way in which you were self harming but that's not talking about the specific time and method by which you intended to end your life.

Pulled so please your dad's problem was just a mini stroke and there is no brain damage. You must be exhausted - hope you get a good night's rest.

[NanaNina]

Oh NO just realised I am posting on the old thread.

NB - There is now a new thread folks - Fluffy has started one and has given us the link in her post above.

[Collardove]

(((Nana))) :) x

[SnowyMouse]

There is a massive difference between faking it and pseudopsychosis. I'm fed up of all the recent drama on this thread, it's supposed to be friendly support, not emotional manipulation.

[Katkins1]

I'm not faking it. I haven't told any one in rl either. It wasn't emotional manipulation at all. Thanks for saying I'm faking it, though, because that's really what I needed to hear today. I don't even know what pseduopsychosis is, I've not been unwell that long, so although I might appear clued in and together, I have no clue at all.

I'm trying to summon up the courage to ring my cpn to tell her how I feel, because I was finding it harder and harder not to act on those plans. My legs just won't move and I feel sick. I'm not faking it or thinking myself into it, but clearly I have burnt my bridges on this thread and its not useful for anyone.

My account should be deregistered soon. Perhaps this is the trouble with mental health support, sometimes people come on them and get themselves into trouble because they have mental health problems that mean they behave in certain ways in the first place.

I have no idea what the future holds for me in mental health, I've begun to think I'm untreatable. But you were all there at an important time in my life, so i thank you all for that, and won't forget it.I will think of you all fondly.

Everything I said yesterday I was genuinely feeling, but clearly I'm making it up .

[SnowyMouse]

katkins, you have twisted my words. I don't believe that any further dialogue is worthwhile, I dislike being accused of saying things I haven't, and that's putting it mildly. I find it very hard to get my words together at present, but I haven't gone around accusing others of being mean.

Out of interest, what do you think posting methods and means will get you over and above posting that you're suicidal and have plans, in terms of support on here? (bearing in mind nobody can contact people in real life for you).

[SnowyMouse]

At the end of the day, it is trigerring to post means and methods - earlier in the thread you asked someone to not post a triggering post, perhaps you could do the same?

[LEMmingaround]

snowy there is a new thread. Can't quite get it together enough to post a linksorry.

Lets just draw a line under this now. New thread. New start.

[Victrix]

New thread here