summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

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new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

I've disappeared from this thread for nearly a week and I haven't had a chance to catch up with all your posts but I hope you're all okay.

Fluffy I'm really sorry to hear you're in hospital, I hope you're better soon.

Pulled that's really scary, I hope your dad makes a speedy recovery.

Katkins I know nothing about psychosis so can't comment on your illness but your dd does need you. Please just take it a day at a time and get in touch with The Samaritans or A&E. Sorry if that's crap advice, I'm sure you've been told all that a million times before but I'm thinking of you. Take care.

I've had a rubbish week, nowhere near as bad as many of you are experiencing but I've found out for sure what a tool my ex is. There's lots of legal stuff going on and I've got to decide whether to press charges against him. Tough decision and another stress I don't need right now.

Yummy fluffy - well done on the distraction too.

Sorry to hear about all the stress, pandora, I hope it resolves ok.

Fuck me ive had a shitty day. Dp being grumpy. Im overwhelmed my mess and my dogs have fleas. Fortunately managed to get some frontline.

(((( LEM ))))

I appreciate the get Wells but the thing is I am not really poorly I really don't need to be sectioned I just need to fulfil my destiny.

Fluffy- how are you feeling?

I've been watching videos of people throw themselves under trains, so I know how to do it properly. I need to buy a ticket at the big station, or if I went to the local station I could wait until an inner city or freight train is passing.

Need to put a phone number in dd's bag so she'll get picked up from school. I don't want any more psychosis, any more over reactions from me towards other people, it just isn't fair.

I can barely step out of the front door without being scared. I think the local station would be best because there's less chance I'd get stopped.

Katkins im begging you please dont do this please. I don't want to make this about me but the train thing is really triggering for me. Its almost like a phobia. In recent years there have been four suicides by train nest where i live. It took me a long time to get those images out of my head.
Im not sure i could cope if i thought you did this.

Another thing. What about the driver of the train?? Seriously dont make him THAT driver.most drivers can't return to workafter a suicide.

I know you want this to stop and i feel like finding the people who are supposed to be caring for you that theyare letting you and your dd down.

What about that lovely little kitten?

Four? That's a lot. Have they put anything there to stop people? They really should.

I'm not sure I'd have the courage to do it, LeM, to be honest.

I do feel really let down by them, yes.

I've got 2 cats- kitten and big cat.

I'm safe tonight. Dd is in bed. I won't leave her to wake up on her own.

Just had a rather beautiful Dominos.

Trying to do a Tesco shop that involves food as well as sweets and chocolate

I've had a curtains-closed kind of day.

Thinking of you katkins. Are you sure you're doing the right thing? You seem to have fought so hard to protect your dd from her father, why would you hand her to him now? You are her world. Don't destroy that.

There was a campaign to get the crossing closed. Those deaths were with in the space of a year. I knew two of the people. Both lovely, i didn't know them well but enough to pass the time of day. Just awful awful. This was one of the reasons i was put back on ads as i couldn't stop thinking id do the same. Like an automaton. In a trance. The fall out goes deep.

I am pleased to read you would be too scared. It means your survival instinct is stronger than you think. You don't want this life. I understand that. Its too painful.

Why are they not giving you anti-psychotics? I would worry that if it is something else or a different type of psychosis it could make things worse. Are they assessing you at least?? That doesn't mean they can just bloody leave you to get by on your own. I am so angry for you just now. They need to find what drugs
/ therapy will help you.

Could you face visiting a dr tomorrow do you think?

Hope you're ok lem. You can speak for me.

I need to speak to my CpN don't I? Have a raging ear infection, too.

Am currently window shopping for graduation dresses and running a bath. Also wondering if my friend would mind if I got in touch, too.

katkins please do not throw yourself under a train. Apart from anything else, you would destroy the life of the train driver.

Please keep going. Please tell people your thoughts.

Im sure your friend will be pleased to gear from you.

Graduation dress shopping sounds nice. We were told to try and have something with a collar. Otherwise the gowns tend to shift backwards and the tie bit ends up round your neck and is uncomfortable.

You really do need to speak to your cpn as a matter if urgency. I think you need to speak to your gp too about the physical things. You sound so poorly and exhausted.

I am jealous of the cats. I can't have one as dp is allergic. My jack russels would eat it too.

Its been a crappy weekend for many of us. Lets try and draw a line and see what the week brings.

Pyrrr how are things for you just now?

Do u think u need to be in hospital katkins? You sound like u need a break x

Collar, useful thinking, Lem. I've been looking at 40's and 50's style (personal thing, I studied the Holocaust and our plays were all set in that era), so thought would be nice. I did Drama, by the way.

No, fluffy, no hospital. I've got dd to look after and loads of other stuff to do (cats as well!). Gp tommmorow.

I think I have really upset nana, I sent her a pm and I wasn't very nice because something she said was (unintentionally I'm sure) triggering for me. I might just leave the thread for a bit. I don't want her to feel that I'm being really horrible to her on purpose.

I like 50s style stuff just make sure you can walk in your shoes because at my graduation i wsa so scarred of falli bg over even thoughgh I had los heels on but then im not great oin heel s at the best oggf timess

If you've sent her an unpleasant PM then it's likely that you have upset her, just as it would you if she did it to you, but I expect she never would.

To be frank you've upset me a lot too today. First you accuse me of bullying you and then you make it quite explicit that you're planning to kill yourself because you've been upset by by things we've said.

That's such an unfair thing to do, it really is.

Now all of this stuff about watching videos about jumping under trains. I was sectioned for attempting to throw myself under a train, but it's not something I talk about. I feel sick just listening to you.

I came onto this thread for support and to be able to talk to people who understand living with mental health. What I've got is the feeling that I can't say anything without getting served some serious emotional blackmail by someone who thinks it's ok to do that to other people.

You keep saying you're going to leave the thread, but I don't think you ever will. I'm going to leave you to it. I can't deal with this level of shit any more.

:(

:( Keema please don't leave.

Would a fresh thread be a good idea? A fresh start?

I didn't say I was planning to kill myself because of things I've said, but both of you have suggested I'm faking it in some way. If you must know, I've been thinking about jumping under a train since my grandfather died in January. I actually can't go near a train station without thinking about it. Now suggesting that I'm emotionally blackmailing is a load of rubbish. Why would any one, any one do that? You seem to think I'm not suffering because I've nit been sectioned. I'm lucky that I wasn't, to be honest. But hey ho, I'm making it all up because there are experts on the thread here who know more than I do about living in my head than I do, despite never having experienced psychotic illness. I've decided registered my account, just waiting for the email. Best of luck to all of you.

Good idea fluffy....i would hate for these threads to implode. I take great comfort from them personally. I can't think of a thread title, has to include the village and maybe a reference to the season? Do you want to start and link fluffy?

I made a thread here.
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2184847-Autumn-days-in-the-village-with-lots-of-support-for-all-kinds-of-MH-problems-depression-anxiety-OCD-psychosis-etc

I feel I must speak up and agree with keema in what she has just posted.

I would of been very upset in keemas or nanas shoes today.

We are all on this thread for mutual support. I have discussed things over this year that I could not do with family and friends. The advice and support, handholds, kind words and just being there has meant an awful lot to me.

I followed the thread for many months before finding the courage to join in.

When we need to rally around in times of the upmost support as we have for dear fluffy this weekend, it proves the thread is so very valuable, and necessary.
But what has happened yesterday and today on the thread between KatKins, nana and keema I find most uncomfortable.
I am sorry KatKins but I think your recent posts after saying nana and keema were bullying you, were very unfair.

Keema - I would miss you very much, I hope you will not leave the thread.

NanaNina - I hope you are okay?

Fluffy - thinking of you

Pulled - any news on your dad?