summer heat - in the village we'll meet....oh, those summer nights! support for MH issues, depression, anxiety, what ever the issue come visit the village [titled edited by MNHQ]

[SomethingVicardThisWayComes]

well a well a well a oh tell me more tell me more.....

new thread guys....feels funny doing the threads again! but nice....

so. for any newbies....the purpose of the "village" threads is to support anyone with MH issues....depression, anxiety, anything at all, for what ever reason.

there is an open door policy in the village! so pull up a pew and get stuck in....

[Victrix]

New thread here

[LEMmingaround]

snowy there is a new thread. Can't quite get it together enough to post a linksorry.

Lets just draw a line under this now. New thread. New start.

[SnowyMouse]

At the end of the day, it is trigerring to post means and methods - earlier in the thread you asked someone to not post a triggering post, perhaps you could do the same?

[SnowyMouse]

katkins, you have twisted my words. I don't believe that any further dialogue is worthwhile, I dislike being accused of saying things I haven't, and that's putting it mildly. I find it very hard to get my words together at present, but I haven't gone around accusing others of being mean.

Out of interest, what do you think posting methods and means will get you over and above posting that you're suicidal and have plans, in terms of support on here? (bearing in mind nobody can contact people in real life for you).

[Katkins1]

I'm not faking it. I haven't told any one in rl either. It wasn't emotional manipulation at all. Thanks for saying I'm faking it, though, because that's really what I needed to hear today. I don't even know what pseduopsychosis is, I've not been unwell that long, so although I might appear clued in and together, I have no clue at all.

I'm trying to summon up the courage to ring my cpn to tell her how I feel, because I was finding it harder and harder not to act on those plans. My legs just won't move and I feel sick. I'm not faking it or thinking myself into it, but clearly I have burnt my bridges on this thread and its not useful for anyone.

My account should be deregistered soon. Perhaps this is the trouble with mental health support, sometimes people come on them and get themselves into trouble because they have mental health problems that mean they behave in certain ways in the first place.

I have no idea what the future holds for me in mental health, I've begun to think I'm untreatable. But you were all there at an important time in my life, so i thank you all for that, and won't forget it.I will think of you all fondly.

Everything I said yesterday I was genuinely feeling, but clearly I'm making it up .

[SnowyMouse]

There is a massive difference between faking it and pseudopsychosis. I'm fed up of all the recent drama on this thread, it's supposed to be friendly support, not emotional manipulation.

[Collardove]

(((Nana))) :) x

[NanaNina]

Oh NO just realised I am posting on the old thread.

NB - There is now a new thread folks - Fluffy has started one and has given us the link in her post above.

[NanaNina]

Fluffy you didn't talk explicitly about your suicide method, so please don't feel ashamed. You mentioned the way in which you were self harming but that's not talking about the specific time and method by which you intended to end your life.

Pulled so please your dad's problem was just a mini stroke and there is no brain damage. You must be exhausted - hope you get a good night's rest.

[Katkins1]

Me too, fluffy. But it's the illness that makes us say things like that. I think it was yours that triggered me, but I was heading that way anyway. May be Nana is right, and the policy should be a bit clearer for us. I am so sorry, Keema.

[Pulledapart]

Thanku to all who have been thinking of me today. Dad is doing well & is home - it turned out to be a mini stroke thankfully. No brain damage. He just needs plenty of rest now.

I'm completely run down - seem to have picked up some sort of cold virus so runny nose, head ache & sneezing away. About to have some beechams & then straight to bed. I'm not sure I'll even get up to drop DD to school tomorrow but right now I can't even think about that.

Really hope everyone has a peaceful night x

[fluffydressinggown]

I apologise for talking about my suicide method I'm ashamed of myself

[Katkins1]

I have decided registered my account, nana. I don't know why it's still letting me post, actually. My sincere apologies to you, I think it has become clear that I am too unwell to post on the threads, and that I need real life help.

[NanaNina]

Keema - I agree with all you say in your post to Katkins - so sorry that she has chosen to post something that resonated with you, and reminded you of a time when you were so unwell you attempted to take your life. We need you to stay on the thread.

I actually don't approve of people posting their intent to end their life at a specific time, let alone talking about the method they are considering. There are many vulnerable people who use these threads and such things could trigger someone into similar thoughts, or as has happened here on this thread, remind someone of a time when they were very unwell and needed to be sectioned. I know I have posted many times about suicidal thoughts as have many others as they are a common symptom of severe depression, and it's important that these thoughts can "see the light of day" as it were, but that's a very different thing from talking explicitly about committing suicide and detailing the chosen method.

I would be interested in the view of MNHQ about the possibility of a request that posters don't actually post details of their intention to end their lives and the methods they are considering. What do others think?

I don't intend to engage with you again Katkins as I believe that this will present you with further opportunities to distort what I say and whilst this doesn't "really upset" me, I don't think that it would be helpful to you either. You maybe need to think before you make allegations of bullying, especially when they are completely without foundation.

SO ......where now. I shall stay on the thread and hope now that we can all move on. I have used this thread for a long time and this is the first time there has been anything of this kind.

[Katkins1]

This is all my fault for making people feel sick by talking about what I'm thinking and feeling. I shouldn't have come here in the first place, it's not the right place for me. But please understand, single parents with no support aroubd them are desperately lonely, and everything feels like critiscm; of their illness, of their way of parenting, of everything. I felt targeted for it, for not having a dh to look after things, and for loosing my dd for two months. The proffesionals said I'm making it up,when I'm not, it's only recently they have started to even take me a tiny bit seriously. I have no outside support, no one else to talk to at all because I can't get out and my whole life revolves around getting dd to school without hearing voices and seeing things, or being in pain. I didn't tell anyone in rl about the train thing because I know dd will be taken away from me and deep down somewhere, I think there is still some hope. Maybe one day I will take her to school and not be in agony, or spend all day thinking about suicide, I don't know. I think because I'm so lonely I got really attached to people on the thread, and probably too much. It wasn't my intent to be emotionally manipulative, whatever you might think. You have all been so nice to me. I spent an hour self harming last night, and didn't tell anyone except on this thread, because there is no one to tell. I've been making plans to kill myself since last week,maybe before that. J never asked for this illness, and cuts taken my whole life away and made me butter, twisted and manipulative. I hope and pray for you all that you are never ever alone with your children, like I am, and wish you all the very best in your life journey xxx

[fluffydressinggown]

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2184847-Autumn-days-in-the-village-with-lots-of-support-for-all-kinds-of-MH-problems-depression-anxiety-OCD-psychosis-etc

[fluffydressinggown]

Well said collareddove. I have put the link to a new fresh thread, I hope people join me there so i am not billy no mates

[Collardove]

I feel I must speak up and agree with keema in what she has just posted.

I would of been very upset in keemas or nanas shoes today.

We are all on this thread for mutual support. I have discussed things over this year that I could not do with family and friends. The advice and support, handholds, kind words and just being there has meant an awful lot to me.

I followed the thread for many months before finding the courage to join in.

When we need to rally around in times of the upmost support as we have for dear fluffy this weekend, it proves the thread is so very valuable, and necessary.
But what has happened yesterday and today on the thread between KatKins, nana and keema I find most uncomfortable.
I am sorry KatKins but I think your recent posts after saying nana and keema were bullying you, were very unfair.

Keema - I would miss you very much, I hope you will not leave the thread.

NanaNina - I hope you are okay?

Fluffy - thinking of you

Pulled - any news on your dad?

[fluffydressinggown]

I made a thread here.
www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2184847-Autumn-days-in-the-village-with-lots-of-support-for-all-kinds-of-MH-problems-depression-anxiety-OCD-psychosis-etc

[LEMmingaround]

Good idea fluffy....i would hate for these threads to implode. I take great comfort from them personally. I can't think of a thread title, has to include the village and maybe a reference to the season? Do you want to start and link fluffy?

[Katkins1]

I didn't say I was planning to kill myself because of things I've said, but both of you have suggested I'm faking it in some way. If you must know, I've been thinking about jumping under a train since my grandfather died in January. I actually can't go near a train station without thinking about it. Now suggesting that I'm emotionally blackmailing is a load of rubbish. Why would any one, any one do that? You seem to think I'm not suffering because I've nit been sectioned. I'm lucky that I wasn't, to be honest. But hey ho, I'm making it all up because there are experts on the thread here who know more than I do about living in my head than I do, despite never having experienced psychotic illness. I've decided registered my account, just waiting for the email. Best of luck to all of you.

[fluffydressinggown]

:( Keema please don't leave.

Would a fresh thread be a good idea? A fresh start?

[LEMmingaround]

:(

[KeemaNaanAndCurryOn]

If you've sent her an unpleasant PM then it's likely that you have upset her, just as it would you if she did it to you, but I expect she never would.

To be frank you've upset me a lot too today. First you accuse me of bullying you and then you make it quite explicit that you're planning to kill yourself because you've been upset by by things we've said.

That's such an unfair thing to do, it really is.

Now all of this stuff about watching videos about jumping under trains. I was sectioned for attempting to throw myself under a train, but it's not something I talk about. I feel sick just listening to you.

I came onto this thread for support and to be able to talk to people who understand living with mental health. What I've got is the feeling that I can't say anything without getting served some serious emotional blackmail by someone who thinks it's ok to do that to other people.

You keep saying you're going to leave the thread, but I don't think you ever will. I'm going to leave you to it. I can't deal with this level of shit any more.

[Victrix]

I like 50s style stuff just make sure you can walk in your shoes because at my graduation i wsa so scarred of falli bg over even thoughgh I had los heels on but then im not great oin heel s at the best oggf timess