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[ThatVikRinA22]

in honour of ed and her mountain ranges.....

welcome to thread 3 - this is a support thread for anyone needing a hand to hold while they get through depression or any other mental health problems - long term or temporary. All are welcome.

linky to old thread

Lem...are you a newbie???? Or are you someone we know....and why are you disappointed? And why are you embaressed????

Havent read your post fully yet Nina just to say you have made me cry nice tears . So lovely to hear your voice and kindness . xxx

ED - i'm embarrased because I couldn't keep away for more than one day!!! Disappointed because i posted something yesterday and was made to feel like shit - came back to fight my corner, realised i sounded sad and pathetic and hid the thread :( I am OK though, waiting on roast lamb! yum

Right.

I am absolutely drained. Well and truely.

I was a whirlwind this morning but house looks good. Which is good for tomorrow too. Conservatory looks like a bomb site though.

I am shattered. Need to sleep. So I think thats what I'm going to do, but I will get pjs on (have been level 3 + bonuses today and my neighbour said I was 'glowing' :) ).

Sorry nothings personal. I will try and answer questions etc. But can't remember who asked them as we are on a new page.

nana good to see you. 'Friend' and brownies is still on going but have moved forward a tiny bit.

snowy every new post from you most defimitely sounds a bit more lively than the last. Has anyone else noticed this?

I'm so so so sorry. I can't remember who's df is so ill. Was it ua? I'm really embaressed for not remembering this one. Stay strong love. I know exactly the sorts of emotions you are battling. My stepfather passed away very nearly a year ago. He was also cared for by gp team, district nurses and in his case st. Barbabas respite care at home. I was amazed at how smoothly they all pulled together to work for him in his last few days at home. Sending you warm thoughts.

Build a bear party was good. You set a budget and the staff encourage the girls (in my case) to choose a cheap bear + clothes or just an expensive bear. They were quite good at guiding the girls in their choices. I had completely list track of them at one point but staff knew where they were at!.

You can give a nod to staff for the odd couple of quid here and there. A couple of girls came £1 over their budget which I let them away with. Party girl also got away with a few nods but I had discussed some extras gor her with staff beforehand and tgey said that was normal.

The only thing that didn't work so well was that a couple of girls bought their own money to spend in the shop so got much better outfits. I had one girl that was a bit disappointed about that, but most were ok.

The other minor problem I had was....where do you put 6 children, 7 bear boxes and about 15 mcdonalds balloons in a zafira with no boot???? Drive home was interesting with vision out of rear view mirror partially obscured. Add into that one direction on very loud and was a bit of a nightmare but don't tell vicar cos I don't want yo be arrested.

Now I really am off for a quick drink, meds and pjs and then I will settle down with my book.

Night all

Thought it was you lem....;)

If here is helping, I'd go with it LEM - there have been months where the MH board is the only one I've visited.

Sounds like it was a good day Ed :) We went to the stables today, so i got my horse fix - i really need to get back on one but i daren't as i can't afford to take it back up as a hobby and i'll just be horse broody :)

Hope everyone is feeling better for the glimpse of spring that we are having

Thanks snowy - i definately need to cut down my online use but just found that i was replacing Mnet with candy crush today Its like i can't have any 100% down time - my mind has to be "active" but no too active! otherwise i find the anxiety creeps up on me. Will give myself some tasks to keep me busy but yes, i was missing this thread - just keeping up with everyones comings and goings makes me feel like i have some friends even dafter saying emoticon too chew the fat with - it helps. I don't really have any real friends in RL, i have people who i spend time with for DD to play with their kids etc and school playground buddies but no one i can talk bullshit with. Apart from DP, he is my best friend - i am lucky in that respect.

nana glad to see you!

lem nice to see you back....

im just going to work. just nights to get through, and only half a shift. its getting tiring now though....

also (scarily) i have no wine in the house. I drank a bottle last night. I know for my own health and well being i need to either stop altogether or cut back drastically.....i also need to start running again.

lem im going to the stables on Weds....looking forward to it. Ive not been riding for a month, while i was getting my head around going back to work, but im going to make a concerted effort so that i dont end up all work and no play....

need to re read the last couple of pages - will do when i have a minute.

right. once more into the breach dear friends.....night night all. x

Hi LEM don't feel bad - we're better than candy crush any day

Ed thanks for the info.. yes I can imagine transport would be an issue, we have a Golf!!!

Nana lovely to hear from you, and really pleased your new meds are helping.

vicar good to hear you've got the stables booked in. All the best tonight.

I def must be doing better - have done technical things on new phone and set up calendars and synched stuff!!! This new fangled technology stuff does actually seem to be quite useful

tv time. night x

Lem come here you. Ah that is better x

And so pleased you feel better CIQ another one for you and RESPECT re technical stuff .

Am thinking of you all ED, Snowy, SPC , Helles, Nanaand UA ....
so hope I have missed no one out cos you all help and support /make me laugh .

and dear Vicar ...wishing you a quiet night out there with the worst and best of human kind . You are such a lovely lass it shines through your posts .

night night x

Hmm...going to bed at 9pm means I'm awake at 4am....not such a good move...

I feel terrible :( I stupidly started a thread in AIBU stating that i am happy being big. The response was cruel :( :( At least that is how i see it - i have been accused of lying, how could i possibly be happy when i probably need special seats on a plane??? WTAF? I pointed out i have a sie 16/18 backside and size 22 top due to my breasts. I had lots of head tilty - "don't you know you are going to die soon" posts but most of the people thought i was disgusting . I have many many self esteem issues as you know, but the one thing i refuse to miserable about is my body. There are things I don't like about it - but then WHO likes everything about their bodies? That doesn't mean i am unhappy about it - but no, i am clearly stupid because i had people point out "oooh size 22, thats really big" to people telling me "no way can you do the things you say you can do" For my size im quite fit. Why was i so stupid as to start the thread :( i honestly thought i'd get a balanced response of - good for you, with a few warnings about health - i'm not an idiot, i know im not a healthy weight, that wasn't what it was about, its about being happy with what i see when i look in the mirror. I've been slimmer, i was miserable - Yes i have issues now, but they don't surround my body image - anyone can look back at my threads and i am never EVER moaning about my weight. Would i like to be slimmer? Yes, i would because im not an idiot, its not healthy, would i like to lose my flabby thighs, oh yes - but i had those when i was a size 12!!! Apparently i must eat like a pig and not care about my family.

I am so upset - do people really look at me and see that? i have plenty to be depressed about, my body image is pretty much the only thing i have left

I see so many threads where posters are upset and miserable about their weight - as i say, i really need to shift probably about a stone in weight a im not as fit as i was but i reckon i am fitter than many women half my size!

Now im questioning myself - maybe i am unhappy because i am fat?

The best comment was tht i must be kidding myself if i think my DP finds me sexy!!!

LEM I once started a thread in AIBU about FW ex keeping his DM's ashes in the garage - cue a dark night of the soul for me at responses, and me requesting thread deletion - which they did as I had put too much info. And have had a couple of other times when upset about posts not being understood as I meant them, including run in with AF!!

I am sure you look glorious :)

Thankyou Silvery - i don't scrub up bad, althogh i am hating my hair - it never does anything other than make me look a bit mad

I have hidden the thread but stupidly looked at it again this morning - there are a few on there who fought my corner but some people said some really cruel things - i did however resist the urge to get personal in response. But then it sounded like i was "trying too hard!" arrrgghhh I have received some right royal flamings in the past on AIBU and if its reasonable i take it on the chin and even learn from it but this has really thrown me.

lem stuff on aibu can be really harsh and I think you can also get unlucky with the posters u get. From what you've written it sounds like you have a very healthy attitude to your body and from what u at yr not terribly big. Can u try and chalk it up to experience on aibu? What could u focus on today that's more helpful? I've always been really impressed by your positive attitude to being a mum despite yr dep/anx - certainly makes me think about my parenting and minimising the impact on my dcs when I can. Take care x

Pah! now you have made me cry colouring Thanks - that was a lovely thing to say. I was a bit of a twat to post it really as i dont really think i said what iwanted to say - chalked and done with :)

Sorry guys, was feeling sorry for myself - will go and buy some chocolate to make me feel better

Chocolate is always a good plan! :) I compromised with a meringue nest (45 kcal, trying to lose weight).

I've just had copies of the letter from my psych supporting extensions for my OU course, always find reading them pretty grim.

I'm level 2 and trying not to go back to bed.

How's everyone doing this afternoon?

Afternoon all.

Just a quickie from me.

Sorry about your aibu experiences LEM. I think aibu is a really really difficult place to be. I genuinely think that if you had posted in the 'weightloss' board (which I know wasn't the point of your post) you wpuld have got a completely different response.

Me...well I went to bed at 9pm last night. Struggled a bit to get to sleep. Wokr at 4am. Wide awake. Mnetted and crushed candy for a bit. Fell back to sleep. Woke at 8.30. Panicked when mn was down. Read and candy crushed a bit.

Fell back to sleep.

Woke about noon. Read and candy crushed for a bit. Dozed for an hour. Have been reading since.

Sooo....hugely productive day....not...still level 1 anf I haven't even set foot on my bedroom carpet yet. I have brownies and guides to do tonight. I have a thumping headache.

About to get up. Get dressed. Pop to the corner shop seeing as I haven't managed to get to get to tesco.

I must go down and take the bolts off the door before dtds arrive home...

You must be knackered after yesterdays party - it seemed to go well so massive achievement, i think you are allowed a "lazy" day today. Ive been crushing some candy myself tody - hey at least im not eating it and really only level 1.5 have to pick up DD now.

What are you reading? I am reading a book by Will Self - now he IS barking, its like a light to a moth, im not sure i should be reading it but its pretty compelling stuff. Scary though

Even the first few answers to a post seem to colour the ongoing posts, it's like a pack mentality here sometimes.

You needed some r&r after yesterday, Ed Hope the guiding goes ok (I used to do brownies, guides and SS).

lem guest just arrived so will have to pop back later x

i feel like im missing out not being here as often but work is getting in the way....

last night tonight.

lem - AIBU is the one place where a very strong stomach is required - i got flamed on there once for saying something about posh spice.....cant even remember it now.

hide the thread. Its brilliant that you are happy with your body. My best mate is a size 20, (top and bottom) and when we are out she is the one that shines and gets all the flirts! She has stunning eyes, a dirty laugh and a huge personality, and people clearly find her very attractive. So sod what anyone else thinks.