afternoon everyone.
well. level 3 here with bonus points but only because i have to go shopping.
ive lost my motivation to get myself off riding though....im going to text riding instructor and just tell her i will be back after i have next week over with.
egg - i can completely relate to the relationship you had with your friend. The pal i lost many years ago was so similar - but she was so incredibly bossy, organised things for me without consultation, took over a lot, involved her mother, organised my meals, my days, my plans, particularly when my DD was a baby. It got where i felt incapable of doing anything without her, and yet, when the relationship went sour, i managed just fine. i cried. i mourned. i missed her terribly. But she flounced when i stuck to my guns over something. She just cut me dead and that was that. it took some getting over, but i did get over it. If this friendship is worth anything then it will get sorted, but realistically, from what you say, it sounded a bit unhealthy. rock or no rock. and dont underestimate what you did for her - lending money etc etc.
i tried to repair the friendship i lost, but i only tried once, and it was clear that it was over.
I would send an explanation, or try to meet face to face, if it means you will get some peace from explaining what happened.
then the ball is in her court. and you try and get on with focusing on the kids, on doing what you need to do, on being strong enough to manage without friends who dont value a friendship enough to want to repair it, everyone talks behind peoples backs - its just human nature. Dont keep punishing yourself - try to sort it, but whatever happens might be for the best.
right. best go shopping.might even put some lippy on.... back later....