I am putting this here so it goes away. Please hold my hand

[hathorinareddress]

But at the same time I was going to name change but I don't want to because I want to be able to find this again if I need to in the future and because (on the back of the PND thread even though this isn't PND) I have nothing to be ashamed of.

If any of you recognise me in my previous names please don't out me on this thread.

I am going to ring the doctor and get an emergency appointment and see if they can give me antidepressants or something to help I am crying I can't stop I'm stressed I'm not sleeping and my DP told me last night I am over thinking everything and tying myself in knots and could I please go and do something

So I came home in a strop with him and in tears but he's right.

My ex is a head wreck and very difficult to deal with.

I'm a single parent.

I work part time and go to uni full time.

I am having gynae issues and bleeding out every month for 2 or 3 days to the point where I last an hour before I'm soaked through.

I'm so tired just so so tired and I can't sleep

I have a bad shoulder and it hurts all the time it's the hand/arm I use the most and I have to do tons of typing and sitting at the computer for uni and driving and it hurts and I am swallowing ibuprofen every day and they aren't helping

So I am going to ring the doctor this morning and get an emergency appointment and tell them how bad I feel.

I'm scared. Stupid stupid stupid scared.

Hello. We're going to move this thread into Mental Health. Thanks for suggesting it, hathor even though you didn't send cake, grump

Glad you are feeling so much better.

Pantaloons is right abut pain dragging you down as well. It's no wonder you were feeling so shite.

Onwards and upwards! And please don't feel like you have to be positive all the time yet. You may well have more down periods. But that's ok. The vipers will sort you out.

Took the tablet about 2 hours ago and apart from a very slight headache and dry mouth I feel no different

Don't worry about that. Some tablets take a while to kick in.

So oh wise and wonderful Mnetters.

I took the first of the sertraline. Was expecting side effect central but actually was OK.

Took DD swimming.

Back just had quick bite to eat. I'm not hugely hungry but it's early yet (she was STARVING)

Do I take the diazepam tonight to see if I sleep or the sleeping tablet.

The doc said if I wanted I could take half a diazepam to start with.

Bump.

I'm shameless me.

Sorry Hathor, I've not used Diazepam or taken sleeping tablets. Hopefully someone who has will be along with advice.

Hathor - I'm pleased you have been to the Drs. She sounds nice :)

Make a list of anything you think of that you didn't tell her, it's easy to forget when you are stressed.

I think you will feel so so so so much better when they sort your periods out, it's emotionally and physically draining when you bleed that much/that often.

Get well soon
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Hathor, I was given 6 Diazepam when my back was at it's worst and told to take them sparingly at bedtime. To be honest they make me a bit sleepy, but my sister has the same problem with her back and can't take Diazepam as they virtually knock her out. I suppose it depends on how tolerant you are generally when it comes to pills.

Sorry, that's not hugely enlightening is it?

especially since I don't really "do" pills.

oh, I do do pills. IYKWIM? I'm totally reliant on them at the moment.

Maybe try the half a Diazepam and see if it helps with the pain and sleeping and if not try the sleeping pills next time? I think the diazepam are strong, which is why I was only given 6 and the bedtime instruction.

yeah that's a good plan - I only have 10 and she said I could half them so yeah maybe half a one is a good plan.

I hope you get a good nights sleep, it really does make all the difference doesn't it? And judging by what's on the goggle box there's not much worth staying up for!

Surely there are two things here...

You are/were feeling like shyte because you've got some physical things to sort out. Good that you've been to the doctor. You don't mention your age. I was wondering if you are approaching menopause?

Two - you've simply got too much on your plate. Can you get partner and daughter to help more with domestic bllcks and stuff like that? Can you have holiday? It is very difficult being a single parent, even if you have new partner. It is very difficult trying to change your life (study, etc) if you are a single parent.

Oh I'm 42 so I know the period stuff is age related

As to getting more help - dp and I don't live together and it's not practical for us to do so at the minute. The house is a total and utter shit pit at the minute but I'm just pretending I don't see it.

It is hard. Really hard.

The sertraline, as you know, is your antidepressant and should lift your mood and reduce anxiety once it gets going. The sleeping tablet, well it's obvious what that is, but the diazepam is to reduce anxiety and agitation in the short term until your antidepressants really get going. Just take it if you feel overanxious, don't have to take them if you don't feel you need to.

Don't worry about the house, it'll sort out in time. My Nana used to say "the dust'll still be there when we're all gone so why worry about it"!

The doc said the diazepam was to stop the pain/muscle spasms in my shoulder?

I don't want to take it if she's not told me the right info??

hatorinareddress - it will do that too. I had it for exactly that, and it worked like a charm. :)

The pain is horrendous. It keeps me awake almost every night. Sitting. Sleeping. Lying down. Standing up. Anything. It's always painful.

I was sort of hoping that this (since I got it shifted to MH) would become like a diary for me to look at when I'm hopefully better and also maybe for anyone else - the support I've had on here has been amazing and I thought it would be a shame for that to vanish.

She only gave me a few and she knows I don't do tablets really - I've been managing with just ibuprofen and paracetamol and a very very very occasional Solpadol. (and I mean maybe one or two doses a month)

But I can't tell you how much it hurts. It hurts all the time. A lot. Every minute of every day.

OK so the plan now is half a valium when I'm going to bed.

Although, again, I'm sitting here yawning my head off.