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I have been sectioned.

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lazyhazydaisy · 26/01/2012 11:23

I have just got access to the internet. I am much less petrified than I was at first but definitely 0 out of ten. I have a tribunal and if that fails I think I will be here until July. I feel as though I am living in a nightmare. I have never felt so alone.

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worrywortisworrying · 23/07/2012 06:24

Lazy... What do you want? You have been released now, yes? You don't have your kids back?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:35

Another banned phrase is mental health team. Unless mental is the adjective. Alcatraz was and is the most mentally and physically unhealthy environment anyone could conjure up. And this it written by someone who managed to find Waterstones, and had this triumph put down to the success of her (non) drug taking.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:43

You know what I want. I want to sell the house and have a painless death. I couldn't bear to see my children but I want to know the rational behind the destruction of their mother. It would be beyond cruelty for them to see me again. Dp is taking away all their possessions at the weekend so at least I won't have that to bear anymore. I love them too much to see what has become of me and I want them to have so many happy memories. Which is all I can hope for them to have. They all have a wicked sense of humour, a genetic defect of which I am proud.

Apart from the legal paperwork I am in the process of writing them letters.

There was another girl in Alcatraz who did the same for her son before she slit her throat the week after she left. She gave me lots of tips on a 'tidy death'.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:45

I strongly suspect, from calls from father that they had to move to private schools because of the bullying. For a fifteen year old boy to be constantly teased about his crazy mother was too much for him.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:54

I don't go out of the fucking front door in daylight. What would I do with the kids? Play murder in the dark with a drip ticking boxes. I want to clear my name and sue at least three doctors. I can't afford to think about my kids. DS1 is having dinner with dp on Tuesday night and when he suggested that I attend I just burst into tears. It is best that they know that they don't have a mother anymore. They may have got the hang of prime numbers at five but I am beyond the humiliation and dehumanisation of any association with them.

They could be abroad for all I know but I refuse to ask questions. The chaos team have assured me that they will gife no help tracking them down and I don't fancy dressing up as Batman and holding up a motorway. My worst fear for them is that my mother has got her hands on them. That is fear for them. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:56

I observed everything closely in Alcatrax, in the smoking hut. Most people there sever all links with their families.

worrywortisworrying · 23/07/2012 07:00

I can't fathom why you wouldn't want to see your children. It doesn't sound like anyone is keeping them from you, but yourself.

Do you think you are unwell?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:01

To re-reiterate, if anyone wants to help, please try and highlight the police brutaiity towards people who might actually be mentally ill. The Alzheimers thread is only a few pages up. I contacted Women's Hour but only got at standard reply.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:06

Father refuses to speak to me. I don't know where they are, or where they are at school and the drip says it is beyond his remit. Also, I don't know what they have been told, possibly that I am ill, which is a lie that would haunt them. The thought of seeing them is too painful for me. They love me so much that I couldn't put them through seeing me now. We used to be champion igloo builders, etc and now I am no longer a member of the human race. It would be kinder to them to keep the memories.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:07

And I am not going to debase myself any further by enquiring after them. No one will tell me and I am out of power games.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:12

If anyone else suggests that I am 'unwell' I am going to stick a pair of knickers on my head, two pencils up my nose and say wibble.

Still waiting for answers from 6.22. Do hurry up. I have to go to bed soon.

And we will stop talking about dc now. I knew within the first two weeks of incarceration that I had to NOT 'play the game' in order to protect them from these farcical hereditary diseases. Their future was why I stuck my heels in.

RealityStrikesAgain · 23/07/2012 07:14

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lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:18

My dp announced that our relationship was over the week I was imprisoned. He has said he will take a court order out against me if I go near him.

I congratulate you on your intuition and thank you for your kindness.

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Sandthefloor · 23/07/2012 07:25

You said that DS1 is having dinner with your DP on Tuesday night and invited you along. Surely if that is the case you could find out where your DC are.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:26

He also lied to me consistently about his constant contact with the doctor who I saw only (as far as I knew) for my septic wound. Until the rethink woman confronted him with evidence of his leading role. My legal team are convinced I would have been out in 2 weeks if we had known of his plans. But Dr Clot held them back in case they 'aggravated' me. So it wasn't just the threat of the arse cocktail but a broken heart.

Again, I thank you for your kindness and intuition. The doctor he colluded with is up against the General Medical Council. He appears to be the Harold Shipman of sectioning people with minor injuries. (Got that local gossip from the chemist who knows everything.)

A true Christian.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:29

I cannot bear to think of what my son has been told or what he has gone through. I have told dp to explain what he did and why he did it and why I am now unfit to go out in daylight. Also, I do not have a shotgun license. Also I suspect dp will let him down at the last minute, as he did this weekend.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:31

If you think that solitary confinement, enforced drug taking and living in fear of being stabbed are 'help', then I suggest you try it for yourself.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:33

Not to mention no lock on the bathroom door and hourly checks, including inspection of 'foot hygeine' and observation of consumption of gristly sausages.

worrywortisworrying · 23/07/2012 07:34

Lazy - Firstly, I didn't suggest you were unwell. I asked you if you thought you were unwell. Big difference.

Regardless of the situation with the children's father or your (ex?) DP, you have an opportunity to see your children.

If THEY don't want to see you, then they can tell you that... but I'm not sure that you should be deciding if they want to live with just memories. Why not see if you can make some new memories? Please don't give up on your children. It doesn't sound like they have given up on you.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:42

Does anyone read the whole thread, except Garlic, etc? They will have been told that I have been ill, which is false. If I try to tell them the truth they will be terrified and not know what to believe. I am not going to put my children through any more hell and I certainly couldn't cope with seeing them. It would upset them and me far ot much. They have gone through hell and I have gone through hell and nothing can undo that. The thought if theur unopened Christmas presents makes me weep. I have to forget about being a mother. That role has been taken from me. I just want them to know the truth about what dp did and the extent of his lying to put me through 4 months of terror, which has destroyed me.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:43

I wasn't invited along.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 07:47

And obviously the kids cannot visit their family home anymore, after the police thing and the house boarded up for 4 months. I have to think of them and protect them from this now toxic envirnoment. Hence the van to get rid of all traces of them.

amillionyears · 23/07/2012 07:52

lazyhazyDaisee.
Many of us have read your thread.
Many of us believe that you have suffered greatly.

I believe,that on some level inside you are crying out for the help you need and deserve.
If you were made to see someone,who is the person on the planet that you would want to see first?

worrywortisworrying · 23/07/2012 07:54

FGS, woman. Grow a pair.

No, I haven't read the whole thread, but from what I have read, what you are saying is that until Christmas 2011, you had nothing but happy memories, life has been tough for a few months but you ARE functioning now.

You said your son was 15YO. 4 months in 15 years is NOT a deal breaker.

If you think 'getting rid of all traces of them' is going to eradicate your memories of them (memories you say you would like them to hold on to) then you are wrong.... and wrong to even try.

Whatever happened, you could and SHOULD be trying to salvage your relationship with them.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 08:12

seven months, actually.
14/15 is a deal breaker
Told dp to see ds1 to explain what and why he did what he did and why he consistently lied about it.
Read the thred, luvvie.
It has not been a tough time, it has destroyed me.
I don'want my kids to witness a destroyed mother.
Where did you get the idea that I am functioning

Perhaps you and Reality should set up an intuitively based couselling service?

He will know the truth when he is 21 and inherit at 25.