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I have been sectioned.

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lazyhazydaisy · 26/01/2012 11:23

I have just got access to the internet. I am much less petrified than I was at first but definitely 0 out of ten. I have a tribunal and if that fails I think I will be here until July. I feel as though I am living in a nightmare. I have never felt so alone.

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lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:06

Loshad To be fair to the chaos team, they tend to agree with me and are apologetic, but are too scared of losing their jobs to whistleblow.

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 04:08

lazyhazy you are not alone...

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:11

Why do so many people plan their suicides on release? Why do so many carry it through? What other option is there after that hell? Those 200,000 hours of hell?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:13

To exist in a world where Maryz and Reality suggest that one needs 'help'?
No thank you.

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 04:14

I do not know lazyhazy - it is a bad time of the morning just before dawn, please do not despair. How long since you were released?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:20

I wait til dawn to take the dog out, so that I don't run any risk of meeting humans.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:25

I won't take the DLA if it involves their attempts at fraud, and my admitting to having a fictional disease, which is apparently hereditary, and would therfore affect my dc. That is what they want me to do; live off the state as a permanent dribbler.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:28

Three months and of course I am bloody alone. What do you think I do all day? Talk to the milkman? The only human contact I have had in 3 months is with fellow survivors and that is rare. Fortunately I for accustomed to being alone, in solitary confinement for my own safety.

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 04:32

yes I see why you would feel like that about the DLA...I have been reading back through the thread, and it sounds as though you have had a really bad time.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:34

What do you think it is like not knowing where your children are in the world, where they are at school and how much they have been told? What do you think it is like begging to find out, to be told by the Ward Manager that it is not part of her job? What do you think it is like to know you will never see your children again?

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 04:39

I don't know daisy, I have no idea really, it sounds terrible.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:40

What do you think it is like hearing your dp referring to a place with far less rights than a prisoner as a 'nursing home?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:41

What do you think it is like to be forced, by injection if necessary, in the bum, to take drugs have unknown side effects?

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 04:45

again, I have no idea, it sounds scary.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:48

Those who use the term, 'service users'. Do you make your living out of this? Do you attend the funerals, eat the canapes and put it down to mental illness? Or are you so ignorant that you think a valium and a drink is a suicide attempt? I guess both.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:50

The staff have minimal interaction with the inmates. Why? Too busy fabricating symptoms and ticking boxes?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 04:54

What do you think it is like living in a universe of one, only to be told by a random stranger that one is mentally il? And the symptoms of the mental illness is the inability to admit to it?

What is it like to be planning a famiy 'Christms to be assaulted by 6 policemen, dragged barefoot to a policevan and yanked by the hair into a 'cell'?

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 05:01

please talk to me lazyhazy, who told you that you were mentally ill? What did happen at Christmas?

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 05:01

very waking moment is hell and every nightmare is hell. I have no tv but I can't even look at children, or read about them, or listen to them on the radio. Thank you for reminding me that this thread has gone on for 7 months. Hope it doesn't bother you. It only bothers me each time I breathe in or out.

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 05:06

lazy the length of this thread doesn't bother me at all, but you have had a terrible time all those months, which does bother me, even though I do not know you.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 05:08

It's all in the thread and now is my window for dog walk time, before anyone else is awake. There has been suppport on this thead, my only human contact, but it has been hijacked byel fica.

WinstonThePony · 23/07/2012 05:14

OK lazy I will read through it. Have a good walk......xx

mathanxiety · 23/07/2012 05:53

Daisee, I have followed your thread. I feel very sad and sorry for you.

The only thing I have to say is something you don't want to hear.

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lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:09

Well, if it is anymore 'mental health' bilge I am very grateful.
And I certainly don't want you to feel sorry for me.

lazyhazyDaisee · 23/07/2012 06:22

If I am so 'unwell', why was I dumped on the streets with 4 months worth of possession, no meds, no transport and a sick puppy to collect?
If I am so 'unwell' why do I have one hour each fortnight from a drip who assures me that I deserve no further help?
If I am so 'unwell', why do my medical notes say that I have been cured by 800mg per day which I had not taken since 1st February?
If I am so 'unwell' why am I banned from ringing the chaos team in hours of desperation?
If I am so 'unwell', why did my solicitor stick his neck out to write that letter?
If I am so 'unwell', why did the nursing staff beg him to make me go to a tribunal to 'get off'?

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