I have been sectioned.

[lazyhazydaisy]

I have just got access to the internet. I am much less petrified than I was at first but definitely 0 out of ten. I have a tribunal and if that fails I think I will be here until July. I feel as though I am living in a nightmare. I have never felt so alone.

Sweeping up the rat droppings would make life happier for you and your dog. Is the garden free of rubbish now?

agree with winston :) is the way forward

Daisee, have been thinking about your housing situation. I don't know what equity you have in your house but if you have a fair amount you could always sell your house as it stands by auction (there is a market for fixer-uppers) and buy somewhere cheaper but in good condition and easier to look after e.g newish flat. It's just an idea.

One thing that Is clear is that you consistently seem unable or unwilling to calmly consider any of the excellent and practical suggestions of RL help on this thread. You're so focused on the past that you're unable to see any of the amazing suggestions that're being put forward here for how you can begin to make things easier. Either you're too unwell to see this - in which case you really do need far more support than MN can give - or you are deliberately avoiding all help - which is a real shame when so many MN have invested tome and emotions and energy into trying to support you. Can you see that?

Are you lot blind? Or is the repetitive questioning & accusation a deliberate thread-kill? If so, what do you expect to gain from clogging up a distressed MNer's support thread?

This is horrible.

Daisy, you are doing the right things by walking the dog, eating, patching stuff up as you can, reading, contacting support organisations and chasing up your insurance, British Gas, etc.

Just keep going in small steps. You will get your justice.

Thanks for the heads-up about housing renewal policy, Selks. Didn't know about that! Local council has similar policy; will investigate.

No not blind - saddened by the state the OP is evidently in, and angered by the accusations levelled at an entire profession - several professions in fact. Worried about the impact that such accusations may have on someone considering seeking MH help. Hoping that a glint of reality may help the OP in seeking out the help she evidently needs.

Good luck OP.

Housing renewal policy, Garlicbutter? I didn't mention any policy.

But you're right; worth checking the local council for that.

Dear God at your post of 13:47 , Lady Sucre - if you were a mh client , the lack of emotional control you exhibited there , driven by frustration at the lack of progress , etc in Daisy's circs -as you are determined to view it- would be seen as evidence your condition not being sufficiently controlled

what the fuck are you on about woman?!

Am so very sorry Daisee , as we all are, about your being apart from your children and that the topic keeps being revisited when you have always asked not to discuss it here

There are user led support groups , as I remember a couple of posters recommended a few days ago - plenty of people who have experience of beng inpatient , as you say you want to talk with them - will see what can find

then take a large overdose whilst watching the Vicar of Dibley
lazydaisy you have not lost your sense of humour or intellect. Hang on to that.

a casual reference to suicide is, indeed, an example of humour. did you hear the one about the woman who took an overdose leaving behind two kids? hilarious!

and now, Im really leaving this thread.

OP your story is shocking and your treatment beyond appalling. My heart goes out to you and I cannot leave this thread without reaching out to try to help you. This is what I think.
You seem in such a catch 22 situation now and this perception in itself holds you captive.

I think you need to face your fears as living a life controlled by your fears is no life.

Something unexpected and highly unusual and indescribably awful has happened to you, but unless you are obviously posing a threat to yourself or others (which isn't the case nor will it be) being sectioned is highly unlikely to happen again, yet you seem trapped by thinking it is likely to happen again.

Break free of the fear, OP, it is this that is truly controlling you.

Sorryor not seeing your question when I next posted LadySucre"
I feel your language was very aggressive - was your zeal to help making you forget how vulnerable Op is feeling ? -phrases such as
"You have said it enough times" (about being kidnapped, incarcerated ... why shouldn't she ?
Soooo
?!?!?!!!!!

In you
rnext post you said "Somehow I don't think you will though" , "you are avoising that" ... several other things all come across as inappropriately connfronational . Other posters have raised these issues with tact , yet still attempting to ask Daisy to face those issues

sorry for typos

ahem ... the exclamation marks , soooo etc were quotations as wasn't able to c&p

We all need to remember that while Daisy needs to be able to accept more support and practical help , it takes longer than a couple of months for a person to rebuild her ability to trust . I was going to looked up user led support groups wasn't I < unhelpful >

Wonderful, insightful post babyheaves. So glad you're out of your own darkness now.

I fucking love you.

Oh damn it that's what I wanted to say. But I was too shy.

I fucking love you also, babyheaves.

Excellent post BabyH - and best wishes for your continued recovery.

WE ALL FUCKING LOVE YOU babyH

Babyheaves- I hope you are okay & would like to thank you for that post. It must have been hard to write, but it was a great post

Daisy, I have no idea how your thread went so wrong over the last few days. I hope that you are doing as well as possible and that you have got some rest today. Your situation sounds impossible and I hope that you have the strength to take some practical steps to improve your physical situation, ie your housing.