Am I having a breakdown?

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Name changer. Have felt odd for weeks, felt like I was watching Christmas and new year from the outside. Didn't enjoy either. Put it down to be pre menstrual that week. It hasn't got better. My temper is terrible. I picked a fight with DH on the way to the supermarket yesterday with the dcs in the car and I actually got out of the car and started to walk home. I shocked myself with my behaviour. Afterwards I just felt flat and sad. Couldn't sleep last night. Today I am just crying and couldn't get out of bed. DH made me get up. I have been crying over lots of things that happened years ago, things I don't even think about anymore. I've sobbed today over my lovely grandma who died 9 years ago. I can't cope. I am tired. I am sad. I feel guilty because DH is so good and kind and I'm a crap wife and a crap mum. I must have frightened my boys yesterday and they'll remember that forever. I won't have sex. I fat and I always look scruffy. I can't stop eying and I just want to go back to bed but I can't let DH down more than I already am. He has made me an appointment with the doctor for tomorrow. I am a failure. Please someone help me.

By the way I am a good driver

and a good listener

Ah, see I'd have to qualify being a good listener for myself Fitzroy - I am when I can concentrate enough - but I tend to miss some of the details. Quite good with the empathy aspect. I'm better at seeing the wood (as a whole) than the (individual) trees IYSWIM

Wondering if I'd be a good enough listener to think about training as a Samaritan

• or would it be essential to remember everything the speaker said ?

Surely you can only do your best - as in we're all human ? I guess the training would cover such aspects of the work !

BTW - The monastery sounds lovely and peaceful

I think you should enquire juggling, nothing lost and all that...
Yes, it's hard isn't it, to not qualify,justify or apologise but why should you have to? Fitz, the course sounds good, I think I'd like something like that but nothing like that is offered around here.
I had a good day at work today, we did a 360 spelling competition, I put the learners in teams and gave them spellings and they competed, then they had to set spellings for the other teams and try to beat them then finally each team got to set me spellings and got points if I got it wrong. I wasn't allowed to write them down. I got 4 out of 15 wrong (in my defence there were some obscure ones!) but it was great to see their faces when they beat me, it was a lesson in the fact that no-one is the font of all knowledge and showed them that it is ok not to know everything. I know I said one a day but:

1. I have a great rapport with my students!

Thanks Ikea, I might look into it ...

at your retreat course, Fitz

I already guessed that about the rapport, Ikea

1. I am good at writing precisely.

I thought about becoming a counsellor, until this happened to me, and I pannicked.....

2a. I am good at precision writing. (I think that's an improvement)

Fitz having been through this would make you a better counsellor. It also means that you would need to have come to terms with it before becoming one, otherwise you risk unconsciously bringing your own stuff to the counselling sessions. No reason not to have that goal though, and counsellors must have supervision sessions to guard against that very risk, and in case they accidentally get caught up in their clients' problems.

1. I am good at Excel spreadsheets

1. I am good with children

3. I'm good at counting - I have a good sense of humour compared to some NO, NO !! I crossed that out !

1. I can charm cats.

Juggling it seems I can't count. Even with my previous post staring me in the face. Must be too much reliance on Excel

Ikea, how are you doing on those ad? the dr has changed mine, to another one, but added another drug, which is making me sleepy all day, and feeling out of it......

I didn't notice anything wrong with your counting Pink - or anyone else's - I was just joking that I could count to three !

I only put in the compared to some because it's so tempting to add something to an affirmation - instead of just coming out proudly with a good, strong boast

P.S Wish I was good at something useful and modern like Excel spreadsheets

But you can juggle with tangential oranges. That sounds very post-modern.

Post-modern is interesting actually isn't it ?

does anyone know anything about seroquel....... for anxiety......

Hi fitz I don't, you could try advanced search on Mental Health or start a thread. Am going to a mh service user and carer network meeting on Weds - I can ask there :)

Got to be worth a try, hasn't it? (taking it, I mean)

thanks PPC, I am having trouble coming off the mitazipane and switching to sertaline, and the gp and the psych has said to take this seroquel, but I feel so so much drugged up on it. Don't really feel I can get any peace from all this anxiety, no sleep etc. exhausted with it all...thanks ppc If you could ask about, there is so much nonsense on the internet.....

PPC, feeling a bit brighter today, tablets must be working....

So glad to hear that, Fitz. It's hard being patient when you are desperate to feel better. And when your mind is over-clocking, waiting 3 weeks for meds to work can seem like an eternity.

Hi all, it's dh's week to work away again. He went this morning and is back on Thursday. Had a bit of a bad day today and went back to bed when baby napped, first time I've done that for a while I think. I think it's because I stupidly ran out of tablets on Sunday and missed a day, then last night I took it quite late and felt a bit groggy and 'off' this morning. Anyway, tomorrow is a new day and I'll be busy so it should go quickly. Little bit stressed with work at the moment but nothing I don't feel I can handle. Glad you are feeling a bit better fitz.

1. I make a mean lasagne

You know me, I'm all in favour of a bit of duvet time if needed

4(?) I am persistant