im going to kill myself right now

[Misshousehunter]

that is it.,

[Besom]

You are more likely to lose your children if you do not seek help.

If you do not get help you are putting yourself and your children at risk.

If you get help it will be the responsible thing to do and would be viewed as such by the authorities.

[thisisyesterday]

of course you're doing it for attention. why else would you post "i'm going to kill myself right now"

are you going to kill yourself? no.

you wanted lots of people to jump in and comfort you.
it's OK to want that. it's NOT ok to cause huge distress to other people on the board, who see threads like this and can do nothing

you KNOW that if you kill yourself your kids will be either given to their father or put into care.
so doing it won't help them at all. in fact, i am guessing it would fuck them up quite royally.

the only way to do the right thing by them is to get the help you so clearly need.

[fuschiagroan]

Ok, I'm going to say it.

Don't be so selfish.

[Misshousehunter]

i used to cut but i havent since my ex husband used to beat me up

[Misshousehunter]

im so sorry i dont mean to upset anyone i have no one in rl to helpme

[popsycal]

please dont say it is an attention thingfolks

to say it,there is an intention there ofsorts

Icanttell youwhat this kind of bereavement has done tp my dh

please ring999

please

[dustycups]

please dont, i no how it feels believe me, but you really dont want to you just cant see it now

please ring samaritans, they will just let you cry and talk to them!

please! you can fight this!

[jonicomelately]

We are real people Missmousehunter and WE CARE.

[Concordia]

you are ok.
your children are definitely worth living for and they need you. none of us our perfect but our children love us just the same.
can you do something else, like put some music on? reorgansise a cupboard, anything?
isn't 0845 local rate? think you should be ok for a short call to the samaritans. maybe they will even ring you back or something.
is there a friend you can ring, just for a chat about something else.
this feeling will pass.

[piratecat]

you can keep the pc on tho, and ring the samaritans at the same time.

you could look at the screen, and see that people want you to make the brave decision to keep posting and also speaking to someone too, onthe phone.

there really is help there. it would be good to talk to someone. there is hope, there are your little sweethearts, for starters.

why don't you call the samaritans.

[MrsHypDip]

Ring someone - do it for your children if not yourself.

[thisisyesterday]

you can speak to the samaritans online i think.

i have run a self-harm website for years. that site, plus all the many other SH and other mental health sites I know of do not allow these kinds of posts, for all the reasons below

it's fine to ask for help. it's fine to say taht you're at the end of your tether. you don't have to go to this extent.
it's fine to say you've thought of suicide. but threatening to do it right now is just silly. isn't it?

the metanoia page someone linked to below is VERY good btw, if you haven't looked at it already, we have that linked from my site.

but there is a limit to what people on a forum can do... we aren't rtained counsellors, we can't tell you what you need to hear..

this is the samaritans website

[giraffesCantDanceInBrokenHeels]

If you want help and support on here ask for it, you will get it all and more. By posting you obviously need/want some help - so cooperate and get it. Mumsnet is not in a position to offer crisis care - you NEED 999 or a&e, especially if you have young children with you. When you have done that you will get all the help you need and more on here but we are not qualified to "talk you out" of it.

[CheeryCherry]

Misshousehunter -please stop thinking this way for a moment, think only of your children, who love, need and deserve their Mum.
Do you have any family members who can come and see you now? Or a friend or neighbour?
Don't worry about the cost of the Samaritans line- they can ring you back.
Get yourself some company.

08457 90 90 90

[thisisyesterday]

[email protected] is the e-mail address if you can't face talking to them on the phone

[thisisyesterday]

they will also accept a reversed charges call from a uk landline

[dustycups]

can people please not have a go at the op and say she is attention seeking, even if she is it is a cry for help

making someone in that situation feel critisised aint gonna help is it!

[thisisyesterday]

or you can call and ask them to ring you back

[NomDePlume]

THE SAMARITANS ACCEPT REVERSE CHARGE CALLS

Confirmation here

08457 90 90 90


just phone them

[NomDePlume]

sorry for xpost

[Eurostar]

Samaritans will call you back if you say you have no credit and give them your number.

[MrsHypDip]

You've got nothing to loose and EVERYTHING to gain by ringing the samritans then if they accept reverse charge calls!!

Go on, ring them, and start to get the help you need for you and your childrens future, one step at a time

[hellymelly]

Please please call somebody.My DH's grandfather killed himself when DH's father was seven and it has caused and it still causing immeasurable grief and pain over the decades.You love your children,live for them even if you don't want to live for you.I am so sorry you feel this dreadful but no emotion lasts forever,you can and will feel different.

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

Call the samaritans or 999. This is just a forum, and of no practical use. I wish you well.