no-one is saying they won't support the OP.
but posting like this, with this title and a message saying "that is it" is out of order!
sorry, but it is
i've BEEN THERE. i've done it. i've had several failed suicide attempts. i've done the "i'm going to kill myself" on internet forums
it DOESN'T HELP. and the op needs to see that.
as i've said further down, it's FINE to attention seek if you need it! it's ok to ask people to talk to you, to advise you if they can... but regular people on a regular forum are NOT equipped to deal with someone who is genuinely suicidal and may be about to take their own life.
i don't think anyone needs to pussyfoot around the OP. she is a grown woman not a child
she can get all the help she needs- but not much can come from us can it?
if she just needed a friendly ear and some words of advice on how to deal with her situation she just needs to say so