Binge eaters accountability thread

[LucyLatimer]

A thread to check in and say how we are feeling with no judgment. Taking one day at a time.

For those who are large of boob can I ask where do you get bras from?

I'm just using these sports top type things atm and also some Molke ones but to be honest I spill out of them or end up with a massive 'bosom'

I have one bra from bravissimo it was about 30 pounds but I got properly measured for it and it was a very different size to what I had been wearing!
Need to get some more really.

Thank you bustergonad.

My bras are from M&S but that's the only shop available to me, previously I liked the playtex lace flower bras.

This one. Always get measured.

www.playtex.eu/en/p/full-cup-bra-in-black-flower-elegance/P5832C1-001.html

I've recently been diagnosed with gallstones and kidney stones, and am on some heavy duty antibiotics, so having to keep hydrated seems to be the name of the game for me at the moment. Also looking at other women on the beach in all shapes and sizes and ages, makes me feel less conspicuous.

I've been consciously eating healthily for the past week, but thinking about some of my triggers, and one thing that I have realised is that I can't just eat part of something - say a packet of crisps - I have this compunction to keep eating way past the point of pleasure until the pack is finished. While on holiday I often have a bowl of lentil soup with a flatbread - today, I didn't eat the whole of the bread. Hardly the start of a revolution, but for me it's about stopping before I get to the end.

Can I join! Also eating alot of rubbish at night time. Can be so disciplined during the day but by 7pm onwards I could consume my daily intake and feel so bad after.
Could someone give an example of exactly how much and what is eaten in a binge event? I can go through half a.pack of biscuits, crisps, sweets, anything really. Would love to control it but every night is the same, and then I think every day I won't do that again and I do!

You are binging because you are dieting. This isn't a diet thread, you cannot over come binge eating disorder by dieting and trying to lose weight.

You are DEFINITELY binging. Come off the diet immediately and aim to eat like a 'normal' person. 3 meals a day and a couple of snacks. Eat what you enjoy eating not what you've been told by various diet books or articles. You will only get over binging when all food become neutral to you.

Thanks for the advice on bras. Might need to invest in a new one. Just feel so 'matronly' with this 'bosom' it doesn't help being quite short either!

I am trying to change my self talk today. Telling myself I am good enough / OK.
Hoping this might help, as negative self talk can be a part of bingeing I find.

Had an OK day. I'm not worrying too much over 'healthy choices' etc just eating something regularly, just had a curry which was quite nice.

Hope you all have a good weekend and be kind to yourselves

My head feels so messed up, today I've had cereal, brunch, (veggie cooked breakfast), piece of birthday cake, which was coffee cake. I don't even like coffee cake.
Some toast with cheese and a tofu veggie noodle stir fry.

Is that normal? I don't even know anymore.

What did you actually enjoy eating? That's the key thing. If you enjoyed it all then that's good and normal. Today I had toast and jam, then a chicken and houmous wrap and a yogurt, then a small bag of marshmallows, and a small bowl of puffy crisps. Dinner was a chili con Carne and 2 chocolate biscuits. Then I had 2 glasses of wine and a small bowl of sweets. I didn't like the chili and left 1/3. I ate the marshmallows and crisps for the sake of it. The rest I enjoyed. I didn't binge which is great. I'm feeling stronger and happier.

another good day today and I stopped and left food in my plate again which is insane to me.

Breakfast I had: half a bowl of porridge, half a yoghurt and half a piece of toast. (I always share my breakfast with the baby)
lunch: mushroom and spinach omelette with some baked beans from the kids lunch
dinner: ramen noodles with pork shoulder. Left half of the noodles.

i also enjoyed a piece of banoffee pie at a garden centre today and didn’t feel bad. (Just a bit sick as it was very Rich!)

It sounds like you're moving forward. It seems strange at first telling yourself you are good enough but it is suppose to help greatly. I look at my body in the mirror and I try to see the good bits. If I start to get negative I try and tell myself to shut up. There was a video on reddit (I think) of a girl that sat in front the mirror/camera and told herself positive things everyday. Each day she dressed better, looked happier, literally changed in front your eyes. Her face and body was the same but she blossomed.

I enjoyed everything I ate today except the cake. Left some of my dinner too.

I always feel like my life is on hold until I lose a stone which would put me at a healthy weight but actually it wouldn't make any difference would it?

I also feel like I have to plan all my meals and stick to it to have a "perfect" week otherwise I'm failing at life and should just give up.

I'm constantly annoyed with myself, hate my clothes and compare myself unfavourably to everyone else.

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does that work? @BusterGonad fingers crossed for your flight soon

You are being so hard on yourself. You don't need to stick to a meal plan, try and enjoy food a bit it more. Losing a stone would be lovely and I'm sure you'd be happier with what you see in the mirror but your life would still be the same. I think you'd benefit from buying some clothes that fit you now, that you actually like. If you only buy clothes for the 1 stone lighter you then that's really sad. You deserve to feel good at the weight you are now. Stop punishing yourself.

Thank you, I do buy clothes that fit me now, I'm just not very good at clothes!

I see. Maybe you could take a friend or family member with you? They could make suggestions and see how it goes? How are you feeling today? Any brighter?

Thank you, yeh I'm fine thsnk you, how are you?

I recognise a lot of this too. I use food as a comfort blanket and a “treat”.

Any suggestions for coping mechanisms?

I'm okay. I'm feeling quite positive today. I feel that I can cope with the urge to binge better and I'm not in the cycle of binge, diet, fail, binge, diet etc I'm wearing my favourite jeans today. They are a size 14 and a bit stretched, I was saving them for weight loss but fuck it, it's not happening and if they stretch too much and look ruined I'll buy another pair in a size up. I'm off hunting down a size 16 bikini in pale blue. I don't have a perfect body but neither do 90% of the people who wear them! Get me being all body positive. My book arrives today too.

Allow yourself your favourite foods, don't deny yourself. Accept you like whatever it is and make eating it a part of your day. Whatever you do don't tell yourself you can't eat it at all because you will crave it 100000 times more.

Hi
Can I join? I have done a lot of work on my attitude to food and my body in the last year.

The acceptance and recognition that my eating disorder from my teens has never gone away, it's just changed was a big revelation.

I read about Richard Osman and him talking about his Binge Eating Disorder and knew that was me.

I have yoyo dieted my whole life and it's time to stop. I have stopped dieting, read some books and feel I'm in a much better place. But as much as I am better than I was, disordered thinking around food creeps back. I had a wedding to go to so dieted again. Realised i was fooling myself that this wasn't normal eating and stopped after a week and have found myself in binge mode again.

I stopped drinking a few years ago and used a thread on here that was a life saver so i think it would be helpful to keep me accountable in my quest to have a more healthy approach to food, eating, my body and myself.

You all seem so supportive and thoughtful and I have found reading this thread so useful, been nodding my head at so many posts.

My main thing the last year has been to stop dieting, stop denying myself food or starving myself, stop weighing myself, start liking myself as I am and eating 3 meals a day with snacks too. Some healthy meals, some are not, some snacks are healthy and some not. Not overfilling myself but also not starving myself.

Like a PP i can be present with my eating during the day then binge at night, or when I'm stressed or tired or bored. It's not about the food, it's never been about the food, it's self sabotage , looking for comfort and as Gabor Mate says, I'm looking to fulfill an unmet need.