Binge eaters accountability thread

[LucyLatimer]

A thread to check in and say how we are feeling with no judgment. Taking one day at a time.

Yeh it's all about tapping into and talking to the subconscious. I came up with the messages I wanted my subconscious to hear. Will have another session after one month then another after 3 months.

@cheeseisthebest I'm also v interested in hearing more if you wouldn't mind sharing. How much was it?

That sounds brilliant.

Breathmiller thinking about it I did fully binge on the wine. I wonder if that was my binging tendencies coming out in a different way? My life is stressful at the moment. I've got so much going on. I'm usually very good at having a few glasees then leaving it. It's something else to think about. 🤔

If anyone wants more info pm me and can say prices etc, it was virtual so accessible for anyone

Still feeling a bit crap today. Did a food shop and bought myself a Rimmel nail polish in Craycray a bronze gold. So my feet look good even if I'm feeling crap.

Thanks cheeseisthebest.

Mistyrock start from the feet up.

I so nearly tipped from into over eating/bingeing last night after a good day. Not sure why, just that the food was there and it was on my mind. But I stopped going any further and then came to early which was probably what I needed anyway as I was tired.

I ate a lot yesterday, maybe a binge, I wake up the next day (today) am I'm NOT beating myself up about it. I understand now that it isn't the end of the world. I'm taking my son out today. Mcdonalds are doing Sonic toys in their happy meals. If I get a, Mcdonalds I'm not going to over think it. I'm not particularly happy with the way I look but I'm no longer hating myself over it. I think I'm doing pretty well really.

Breathmiller Start from the feet up! I like it! My feet look great. I'm debating if I should wear my new sliders today? I'm usually a trainer person.

Do it! Show off these happy toes.

I didn't, in case they rubbed. I'll break them in first with socks (in the house). 😂

I didn't binge today. I thought of it. I had had a difficult conversation today and I wondered how I'd fair later on. I had my dinner and then , as always, struggled with the thought of stopping. So, I had a yoghurt. I think if I had lots of rubbish in I would have binged on it. But I didn't have it. I had 2 slices of bread and felt if I had anything else then it would just keep going. I felt like I'd stepped or was stepping over that line. I nearly even jumped in the car and went to buy cake, sweets or crisps. But, i didn't. I sat on the sofa and watched telly and had nothing else. That felt like a big win today. I did want to binge but I resisted even with all my triggers.

I had a wobble today after swimming, felt hungry and hadn't brought a snack or anything with me, started eating these bars from the sweet machine. Three. Then more cake etc in a cafe...Think it was low blood sugar after the swim or something as felt a bit weird.

Not beating myself up about it though, thinking next time I will take something with me for after swimming.

orangesandlemons
well done for not beating yourself up and then recognising how you could head it off at the pass next time.

That's what I find this thread useful for, shining a light on my trigger points. I lind of always knew them but posting on here has highlighted them.

We are without a kitchen and been doing lots of hard lifting work today so i didn't eat lunch. We got takeaway but not too much and I enjoyed it. But when I picked it up I went into the shop next door and bought loads of treats. Far too many. That would usually mean I would eat them all. I looked at them in the car and thought "what have you done? You will have no willpower when they are in the house". But I did!! I never do that! I put a decent enough amount of one of the treats in a small bowl and ate only them. Totally unheard of.
I then went upstairs and read my book and then had a bath.

I would be lying if I didn't say I am not still having anxious thoughts about my body, but the voice seems a little quieter. Just a tiny bit. But it's noticeable.

That's good. Yes I am trying hard with the body neutrality stuff I have been reading and noticing the voice and the negative thoughts. It is helping a bit I think.

Still finding the body acceptance thing really challenging but reading lots and feeling inspired by those out there who feel good. I ordered some chub b shorts so I can wear dresses in the hot weather, rather than my usual ‘black t shirt and jeans’ look. Dh has just left for a weekend with family which he’ll really enjoy. I just went straight to the fridge and made 2 sandwiches with leftovers from last night. I feel kind of disgusting and the mental loss of control still scares me. It’s not that I can keep going this ad it doesn’t matter what size it makes me, it’s that I shouldn’t behave this way to sooth myself. I don’t know, but I’m still really enjoying watching the thread

Lucy I bought some cycling short things to wear under dresses too. I need a pale pair also for pale lemon dress I have. I'm feeling a bit blah today. I've eaten too much. No proper meals. And thinking about my weight and size too much. Its like being in a hamster wheel. I'll tell you what I'm fed up with, t shirts, t shirts that hang off your boobs emphasising your big tummy. What's the answer? I'd love some floral/ditsy floral shirts or something quite feminine that I can wear with jeans. Good news though, is we have our flight money back 🎉. So I'm happy about that.

Coming upstairs and in here to stop me tipping further into bingeing. I've not done anything more than anyone else in the house but I need to stop now so making that break.

Hot weather and clothing has always been an issue for me. I used to hate summer when i was younger purely because I wouldn't want to wear less clothing.

I hate summer clothes, they all make me look big around the middle. Autumn and winter clothes are the best. Dresses over polo necks, long cardigans with jeans, boots, knee high boots, lovely coats. Yesterday was a right off for me. I need to focus on nutritious foods today. I've noticed the more sugary foods I eat the lower my mood.

I was thinking the same thing yesterday! Going on a trip this week, so I got some paper bag shorts to wear with a blazer yesterday. I couldn’t get near doing them up, so annoyed but need to buy a bigger size. Hope your day goes better

I'm intrigued what paper bag shorts are?

Yes, I agree to eating crap food mistyrock. it not only makes me feel rubbish physically and mentally it more than often triggers a binge. Our no kitchen saga ended in a McDonald's last night which neither fills you up or is remotely healthy. That then led to a sandwich. And then i tucked into the sweets I bought the day before. The only saving grace was I didn't finish all the chocolate which is unheard of once I start with that mentality. So maybe a tiny win in a field of non winning. Got another long day of training ahead with so much delicious food laid out at lunchtime. And home to no kitchen again.

I have just signed up to a 2 week yoga programme starting tomorrow. A more dynamic active one. I am hoping it gives me some oomph as I'm on holiday from work. We'll see. I'm quite good at signing up for these things and not even starting them.

Hope everyone's Sunday goes well.

They’re ones with a big waist and a tie - and I still couldn’t do them up- oh well! @Breathmiller be kind to yourself now, the fact that you are even giving this headspace and challenging your thought process right now is good. You must be so stressed. I know that when I get stressed, I feel it in my throat and stomach and the first thing my mind turns to is food. Being away of that is good, and learning how to step away until that passes is the next step. Hope today is better for you

Oh I know them. I never buy anything with a tie waist. My apple shape does not like such things. I find it hard to get belts to fit me. I don't think it helps in life being an apple that we are constantly told that fat round the middle is the most dangerous. But it's hard when that where you put weight on most easily.

Bizarrely enough, I'm not very stressed with the building work. Just kind of taking the chaos in my stride as is the rest of the household which is good. That's kind of the problem though , I binge/overeat when I'm stressed, I binge/overeat when I'm happy, in fact I binge/overeat most of the time without any excuse or reason.

I think the only time I don't, is when I'm overly controlling and/or "dieting". It's that ability to be at ease with food when I'm not on high alert. I think thats where I'd like to be.

Gentle attention to what I'm eating and responding intuitively to my hunger without it being such hard work. That sounds a good place to be.

The only time I don't binge or over eat is when I'm completely and utterly stressed. Like up shit creek stressed or when I'm content, happy and everything is good in my life.

When I'm that kind of stressed I eat the absolute most.

But when I'm happiest I feel the least need to eat.

I think what I can take from this is that I'm not often happy 🤦🏽‍♀️