life I had a session on thursday. It was useful. I talked. And someone impartial listened. We discussed what's going on, how I want to resolve and how I can help myself. A lot was in basic terms "suck it up princess,that's life get on with it". Which I know. But was good to hear it. And to be given tools to utilise to help just brush things off and let go. This is what I struggle with. And this is what causes the anxiety.
I think it's a combination of anxiety stress/busy at work/busy time of year socially/sgetting over illness etc.
I told dh today I don't want to be pushed. I don't feel like eating (very unlike me) so not to push me to help with meal plan etc. I'm just not interested. I've been eating because I have to not because I want to. I'm feeling tummy stress. So food isn't my priority. I'd rather eat biscuits than healthy.
Dh is being as understanding as he can. Some of my "issues" are not easy for him - mil bring one. But I have to deal with this. For him. and for me but I feel mostly for him I have to be able to be in a room with her. For him. If she chooses to be a dick I need to learn not to react. And let him see she's a dick. The fact I have to spend a week with her in march does not thrill me. Sigh. But for dh. I have to because I know he would for me.
And sometimes I need days like today. I sat on bed with my blanket and binge watched Gilmore girls. It was shit weather. It was cold. I've drunk tea and water and vegged. Recharged. Feel happier.
and nsd